so now, everyone's resigning frm HD.
seems like everyone's finally sick of da place.
last tym whoever resigns, i've no feelins at all.
but since da dae koh ji yuan resign, i realized the feelin's gettin untolerable.
jiyuan left becuz he got real sick of da whole job.
den eugene left too becuz of NS.
now??

jeffery's last dae tml.
joanne lim jus punched her last time slot.
weiling found a new job.
mike still lookin for one.
shaun tan goin NS nxt mth.
chris n jarvis goin in DEC.
which means, most of them will be gone by end of tis yr.

so. can i oso assume tat by da end of tis yr, i'll be alone in HD till nxt april?
most probably.... YES.

2 yrs plus workin there seems to be short.
but jus cant stand those politics and corruptness.
if oni, i dun wan my resume to look nice.

am i being selfish or?
seems like everyone's leaving either becuz they cant stnad tis job anylonger or cuz da managers are leaving or wadever reason ther is.
but im still not leaving.
not leaving becuz of my own self.
mayb becuz i need tat money.
and i jus dun wan to leave this stupid place till i graduate.
i reali cant wait for da dae to resign.
but tat will means. I'VE GRADUATED FRM TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC.
which is a FACT that i still dun wan to admit.


misses..

1. secret affair.
2. 3 other babes.
3. TP.
4. OTC.
5. Dance.


jus saw chu-co-lat.
after complainin to jolene i didnt see him for 2 weeks and when im back at bishan jus now, i still didnt get to see him.
and jus when im goin home, he was at da escalator.

"FATE wad. see? u sae u very long nv see him oledi. now u see him lor."?

fate huh???






FATE MY ASS den.
i dun believe in fate any longer. it's been foolin ard wit mi since da dae i met derek. so i hate FATE till da core.

FARK OFF la pls, FATE.






my period's here.
hours after i've complained it's not here yet.
=.="












feel so wierd to be ard u ppls now...

i miss chucolat..

i jus realized sth.
whoever fall into my eye-candy catergory, sparks happen.
but when it cums to chucolat, it's jus plainly EYE-CANDY.
nth more.
wierd...

singapore's such a small island.
been seein familiar strangers on da street.
and i reali mean STRANGERS.

will ther be a dae when i stop all my people-watchin?
mayb da dae will cums when im blind.

how i wish i wont be able to see anyone at all.
tis way, i wont even notice anyone interesting and giving them even more interest.
makin myself so....


so SICK of love....

when's tat farkin period cumin again?
bloodly shit.

and my beloved frenster's givin mi all kinds of probs Too.
duno wad's wrong wit da maintanence.
and in there, i kept on seein things tat i wont wan to see.
but some idiot CURIOSITY in mi jus love to explore.
in da end......


CURIOSITY = STUPIDITY = JEALOUSY = FAITHLESS = HOPELESS

someone asked mi tis qtn yest.

*blah blah blah*

"so which guy have u ever love TRUELY n WHOLEHEARTEDLY?"


"..."
*stare into blank air*

"OKIE okie. i no da ans oledi. no need to sae i oso no."



"..................."

"DEREK rite? see? u no need to sae i oledi no da ans."


?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
i didnt no tat she can read my heart too. tat's so scary. or mayb.
oni she and maybelin can read. =]

ya. quite true though.
tat whole yr (or was it more den one yr??), apparently, it seems as though im living becuz of him.
doin things tat he likes.
ermm... actually not reali.
cuz both of us have da same interests in almost everythin.
so... ya. =p

i miss his WHITE SPECS.
it's been a long long long long tym since i've seen him wore.
miss him BREAKDANCIN.
and da dae when i 1st met him and he goes, "WO SHI NU DE!!"
=D
hahahhaahah..
those were da fun days when maybelin n i keep on imitatin him saein tt sentence.
and i see him almost everywher in da camp.
fate.
but WRONG fate.

too bad. da timin is jus wrong.
and it seems like both of us are living in 2 different worlds now.
he's so into modelling now.
apppearin alomost everywher.
frm shows to posters and now, calendar.
=.="

i wonder when will it be his turn to appear in tat mac's commerical, jus like kai ming.
hahaha..
"HOT! HOT!"
i tink better dun. his bird nest can scare away alot of ppls. and most particularly, HIS VOICE.
LOL.

goin to be one yr since da dae it's over.
and another OTC's cumin oledi. and ther's so many things happenin in tis one yr.
and i tot it's reali reali over oledi.
frm da bottom of my heart, i reali treat him as a fren.
since da day when 2007 starts.

or did i?

time pass sooo fast.

mayb 10 years down da road...

wad a fark!!!!
knnbccb!
i jus went for a lunch break.
and when im back, im bein bloacked frm usin frenster.
knn la.

no frenster means no life can.
wad da hell.
how to survive without tat website when im at work.
it's super duper boring can!
cb.

reali dun understand wad they wan can.
its not as though im in da FRENSTER window frm 9-6 rite??
i did my work before maximising tt window can.
bloody shit.
who da fark is tt idiot tt saes im always in frenster?

its not as though i gave my supervior incomplete work rite?
at least for now, i dun even have da tym for crunchyroll.
so frenster's da oni past tym for mi la.

wad da hell.
wad da fark.
wad da shit.


so u mean others can use but not da 3 interns???
wad da...
cb.

went out with hui an and gohst last thurs.
to celebrate her bdae.
so sad. nobody celebrate for her except us. lol.
and tt maybelin jus MIA.
BUT!!
i can understand why.
haha.
so not blamin on her.
=]


anyway, went to eat steamboat at bugis.
to fufil her cravings as usua.
being her bf is reali not a nice tink.
everytink have to suit her.
LOL.

photos up, babes!!
im lazy to write comments for all fotos.
hee...









went off to bugis village for a while.
she wanted to shop awhile.
but it's oledi 10 plus. so wad do u tink??
hahhaha.
but we found out a new interest at tat place.
at tt tym, ther's still some shops open.
but finally u can feel da AIR-CON cumin out.
no KIDS ard.
and PEACEFUL-ness.
=D

having EYE CANDIES is much more better.
cuz ther's no love, no hopes, no jealousy, no sadness, no reality.
jus FANTASY.

i hate my heart.
can someone jus kindly take it out and throw it into da sea?

wrong infatuation, wrong timing, wrong intuition.

dun wan this place to be turned into black n white.
but sometyms, its jus so freakin borin n ther's nth mcuh to do.
tanks tt after attachment im foever not free.
either for social life or work.

finally. new songs added into my deaktop.
reali cant stand those chinese songs tat angie had added in for mi.
inject more english songs.
tat's more like a human.
hahaha...

(HAPPY BIRTHDAY - FILPSYDE... PLAYIN BEHIND)

been quite busy jus now.
wit all kinds of tasks given to mi.
but now, CURRENTLY.
ther's nth to do again.
tat's why im here again.

still watchin my curnchyroll.
guess, by da end of tis internship, i wld have ifnished watchin all those dramas i've missed out for da past few mths.
eyes gonna close soon.
tanks to my heavy lunch again.
=.=""

receive some nonsensical tingy lastnite again.
how many tym wld i have to repeat myself?
wad's over is over.
i dun wan to get back into a situation whereby i'll regret wad im doin and wastin my tym.
when my mind's set, NO ONE can ever change it.
so no pt keep on askin mi when my answer's FOREVER da SAME.

was tokin to jeremy last nite.
been sometym since i've tok to him.
and ya.
AS USUAL. da same old topic came into picture again.
he keep tinkin tt its possible between his fren n i.
like COME ON LA.
=.="
seems like it's reali hard to predict wad's da future.
and he do have a woman' sixth sense can.
i mean it's not at mi, but at someone else instead.
=.="

infatuation is all i can sae.
higher hopes means i'll get higher chance of failure.
which is sth i hate most.
ta'ts y i dun hope for anythin for now.
and isnt it obvious tt my heart's oledi frozen?

i hate to fall into da endless pit and tryin my best to climb out of it again.
when all along i no i sldnt fall back in, but i keep givin myself and da rest chances and chances.
till da extent tat im immune now.

reason for bein like tt, i guess mayb its frm da day when i 1st met MR BIRD-NEST.
perfect one but WRONG timing.
(basket. RYAN CANBERRA - TRUE is playin behind now)
like wad maybelin said, "u mite not no, mayb after many yrs, u both mite ended up together."
wadever~
since da day i knew him, i guess i dun dare to have hopes anymore, especically to all these.
HOPING seems to have becum HOPELESS.
so wad's da point?

okie.
i no u babes gonna sae mi again when u read all these.
wad, it's oni a BIRD NEST, why still so crazy over him???
WADEVER~~~

anyway, i jus wan to enjoy my life like tat now.
with nth to worry abt.
no guy. no stress.
im still used to tis life.
cum to tink of it. i dun need a man.
i've got so many frens ard mi to occupy my life.
but den, like wad huian, maybelin and jeremy are complaining to mi,
sometimes u jus wish tt u've got someone u can lean on and loved and be loved.

da 3 of them are complaining to mi tat "i wan a BF/GF!!!!!"
as if i can produce 3 ppls for them.
LOL.
=.="


pardon mi for all tis kinds of SOO random post every mth.
cuz u no la.
blame it on PMS, not mi.
=]

apparently MISS GUCCI got nth to do again.
so she came across tis tingy:


Realize that the girl holding onto u is
perfect in her own special way.

The way she laughs.
The way she sleeps.
The way she loves you.
The way she tries to please you.
Always remember that.

She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting a maybe perfect love for her.

There might also be someone out there.
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.
Fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.
Understand that.

Imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today,
and you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.
And then you run back to her.
And u do the same.
But you see love in her eyes.
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are good looking, have money, buy her things,
make her parents happy, or that you can have anything you want in a snap.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything you do.
Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.

You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.


if oni da perfect one is as true as this.
but i no it wont happen.
at least. NOT for now.