so now, everyone's resigning frm HD.
seems like everyone's finally sick of da place.
last tym whoever resigns, i've no feelins at all.
but since da dae koh ji yuan resign, i realized the feelin's gettin untolerable.
jiyuan left becuz he got real sick of da whole job.
den eugene left too becuz of NS.
now??

jeffery's last dae tml.
joanne lim jus punched her last time slot.
weiling found a new job.
mike still lookin for one.
shaun tan goin NS nxt mth.
chris n jarvis goin in DEC.
which means, most of them will be gone by end of tis yr.

so. can i oso assume tat by da end of tis yr, i'll be alone in HD till nxt april?
most probably.... YES.

2 yrs plus workin there seems to be short.
but jus cant stand those politics and corruptness.
if oni, i dun wan my resume to look nice.

am i being selfish or?
seems like everyone's leaving either becuz they cant stnad tis job anylonger or cuz da managers are leaving or wadever reason ther is.
but im still not leaving.
not leaving becuz of my own self.
mayb becuz i need tat money.
and i jus dun wan to leave this stupid place till i graduate.
i reali cant wait for da dae to resign.
but tat will means. I'VE GRADUATED FRM TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC.
which is a FACT that i still dun wan to admit.


misses..

1. secret affair.
2. 3 other babes.
3. TP.
4. OTC.
5. Dance.


jus saw chu-co-lat.
after complainin to jolene i didnt see him for 2 weeks and when im back at bishan jus now, i still didnt get to see him.
and jus when im goin home, he was at da escalator.

"FATE wad. see? u sae u very long nv see him oledi. now u see him lor."?

fate huh???






FATE MY ASS den.
i dun believe in fate any longer. it's been foolin ard wit mi since da dae i met derek. so i hate FATE till da core.

FARK OFF la pls, FATE.






my period's here.
hours after i've complained it's not here yet.
=.="












feel so wierd to be ard u ppls now...

i miss chucolat..

i jus realized sth.
whoever fall into my eye-candy catergory, sparks happen.
but when it cums to chucolat, it's jus plainly EYE-CANDY.
nth more.
wierd...

singapore's such a small island.
been seein familiar strangers on da street.
and i reali mean STRANGERS.

will ther be a dae when i stop all my people-watchin?
mayb da dae will cums when im blind.

how i wish i wont be able to see anyone at all.
tis way, i wont even notice anyone interesting and giving them even more interest.
makin myself so....


so SICK of love....

when's tat farkin period cumin again?
bloodly shit.

and my beloved frenster's givin mi all kinds of probs Too.
duno wad's wrong wit da maintanence.
and in there, i kept on seein things tat i wont wan to see.
but some idiot CURIOSITY in mi jus love to explore.
in da end......


CURIOSITY = STUPIDITY = JEALOUSY = FAITHLESS = HOPELESS

someone asked mi tis qtn yest.

*blah blah blah*

"so which guy have u ever love TRUELY n WHOLEHEARTEDLY?"


"..."
*stare into blank air*

"OKIE okie. i no da ans oledi. no need to sae i oso no."



"..................."

"DEREK rite? see? u no need to sae i oledi no da ans."


?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
i didnt no tat she can read my heart too. tat's so scary. or mayb.
oni she and maybelin can read. =]

ya. quite true though.
tat whole yr (or was it more den one yr??), apparently, it seems as though im living becuz of him.
doin things tat he likes.
ermm... actually not reali.
cuz both of us have da same interests in almost everythin.
so... ya. =p

i miss his WHITE SPECS.
it's been a long long long long tym since i've seen him wore.
miss him BREAKDANCIN.
and da dae when i 1st met him and he goes, "WO SHI NU DE!!"
=D
hahahhaahah..
those were da fun days when maybelin n i keep on imitatin him saein tt sentence.
and i see him almost everywher in da camp.
fate.
but WRONG fate.

too bad. da timin is jus wrong.
and it seems like both of us are living in 2 different worlds now.
he's so into modelling now.
apppearin alomost everywher.
frm shows to posters and now, calendar.
=.="

i wonder when will it be his turn to appear in tat mac's commerical, jus like kai ming.
hahaha..
"HOT! HOT!"
i tink better dun. his bird nest can scare away alot of ppls. and most particularly, HIS VOICE.
LOL.

goin to be one yr since da dae it's over.
and another OTC's cumin oledi. and ther's so many things happenin in tis one yr.
and i tot it's reali reali over oledi.
frm da bottom of my heart, i reali treat him as a fren.
since da day when 2007 starts.

or did i?

time pass sooo fast.

mayb 10 years down da road...

wad a fark!!!!
knnbccb!
i jus went for a lunch break.
and when im back, im bein bloacked frm usin frenster.
knn la.

no frenster means no life can.
wad da hell.
how to survive without tat website when im at work.
it's super duper boring can!
cb.

reali dun understand wad they wan can.
its not as though im in da FRENSTER window frm 9-6 rite??
i did my work before maximising tt window can.
bloody shit.
who da fark is tt idiot tt saes im always in frenster?

its not as though i gave my supervior incomplete work rite?
at least for now, i dun even have da tym for crunchyroll.
so frenster's da oni past tym for mi la.

wad da hell.
wad da fark.
wad da shit.


so u mean others can use but not da 3 interns???
wad da...
cb.

went out with hui an and gohst last thurs.
to celebrate her bdae.
so sad. nobody celebrate for her except us. lol.
and tt maybelin jus MIA.
BUT!!
i can understand why.
haha.
so not blamin on her.
=]


anyway, went to eat steamboat at bugis.
to fufil her cravings as usua.
being her bf is reali not a nice tink.
everytink have to suit her.
LOL.

photos up, babes!!
im lazy to write comments for all fotos.
hee...









went off to bugis village for a while.
she wanted to shop awhile.
but it's oledi 10 plus. so wad do u tink??
hahhaha.
but we found out a new interest at tat place.
at tt tym, ther's still some shops open.
but finally u can feel da AIR-CON cumin out.
no KIDS ard.
and PEACEFUL-ness.
=D

having EYE CANDIES is much more better.
cuz ther's no love, no hopes, no jealousy, no sadness, no reality.
jus FANTASY.

i hate my heart.
can someone jus kindly take it out and throw it into da sea?

wrong infatuation, wrong timing, wrong intuition.

dun wan this place to be turned into black n white.
but sometyms, its jus so freakin borin n ther's nth mcuh to do.
tanks tt after attachment im foever not free.
either for social life or work.

finally. new songs added into my deaktop.
reali cant stand those chinese songs tat angie had added in for mi.
inject more english songs.
tat's more like a human.
hahaha...

(HAPPY BIRTHDAY - FILPSYDE... PLAYIN BEHIND)

been quite busy jus now.
wit all kinds of tasks given to mi.
but now, CURRENTLY.
ther's nth to do again.
tat's why im here again.

still watchin my curnchyroll.
guess, by da end of tis internship, i wld have ifnished watchin all those dramas i've missed out for da past few mths.
eyes gonna close soon.
tanks to my heavy lunch again.
=.=""

receive some nonsensical tingy lastnite again.
how many tym wld i have to repeat myself?
wad's over is over.
i dun wan to get back into a situation whereby i'll regret wad im doin and wastin my tym.
when my mind's set, NO ONE can ever change it.
so no pt keep on askin mi when my answer's FOREVER da SAME.

was tokin to jeremy last nite.
been sometym since i've tok to him.
and ya.
AS USUAL. da same old topic came into picture again.
he keep tinkin tt its possible between his fren n i.
like COME ON LA.
=.="
seems like it's reali hard to predict wad's da future.
and he do have a woman' sixth sense can.
i mean it's not at mi, but at someone else instead.
=.="

infatuation is all i can sae.
higher hopes means i'll get higher chance of failure.
which is sth i hate most.
ta'ts y i dun hope for anythin for now.
and isnt it obvious tt my heart's oledi frozen?

i hate to fall into da endless pit and tryin my best to climb out of it again.
when all along i no i sldnt fall back in, but i keep givin myself and da rest chances and chances.
till da extent tat im immune now.

reason for bein like tt, i guess mayb its frm da day when i 1st met MR BIRD-NEST.
perfect one but WRONG timing.
(basket. RYAN CANBERRA - TRUE is playin behind now)
like wad maybelin said, "u mite not no, mayb after many yrs, u both mite ended up together."
wadever~
since da day i knew him, i guess i dun dare to have hopes anymore, especically to all these.
HOPING seems to have becum HOPELESS.
so wad's da point?

okie.
i no u babes gonna sae mi again when u read all these.
wad, it's oni a BIRD NEST, why still so crazy over him???
WADEVER~~~

anyway, i jus wan to enjoy my life like tat now.
with nth to worry abt.
no guy. no stress.
im still used to tis life.
cum to tink of it. i dun need a man.
i've got so many frens ard mi to occupy my life.
but den, like wad huian, maybelin and jeremy are complaining to mi,
sometimes u jus wish tt u've got someone u can lean on and loved and be loved.

da 3 of them are complaining to mi tat "i wan a BF/GF!!!!!"
as if i can produce 3 ppls for them.
LOL.
=.="


pardon mi for all tis kinds of SOO random post every mth.
cuz u no la.
blame it on PMS, not mi.
=]

apparently MISS GUCCI got nth to do again.
so she came across tis tingy:


Realize that the girl holding onto u is
perfect in her own special way.

The way she laughs.
The way she sleeps.
The way she loves you.
The way she tries to please you.
Always remember that.

She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting a maybe perfect love for her.

There might also be someone out there.
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.
Fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.
Understand that.

Imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today,
and you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.
And then you run back to her.
And u do the same.
But you see love in her eyes.
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are good looking, have money, buy her things,
make her parents happy, or that you can have anything you want in a snap.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything you do.
Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.

You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.


if oni da perfect one is as true as this.
but i no it wont happen.
at least. NOT for now.

a frakin day to strat wit today.

was rainin heavily jus now.
and darn it.
it's like wiith or without an umbrella is da same can.
idiot.
in da end im still drenched all da way.

nvm. went to bugis to had my lunch.
so i wanted to buy sth tt's real hot to warm myself so brought some korean tingy la.
and guess wad?
ther's nth except NOODLES and KIMCHI.
bloody ass.
no meat can.
im MUSLIM not VEGETARIAN.
=.="
arent i supposed to fast now??
....

wadever.

and now im in da office.
freakin cold la.
wit da air con blowin out air straight down to me.
and my jeans' still wet.
worse, oni in front is wet.
so u no da feelin of half wet n half dry la.
idiot.

no staff behind mi.
so which means my fren n i can practically do anythin we wan EXCEPT sleep.
i need slp badly now.
after tt bloody heavy lunch.
coffee dun seems to be havin any effects at all.
hai..
wad a life.

and tis BLOGGER jus refused to let mi upload ANYTHIN at all.
so borin.
my blog's full of BLACK AND WHITE oni.















anyway.
one week has passed.
didnt wan to blog out wad happen cuz my blog has becum a PUBLIC blog to so many ppls i no. =D
and ther's no need to elaborate more on it.

but i guess a few ppls out ther knows wad im been goin thru for da past few daes.
ppls like teckhui, jeremy, maybelin, hui an and dearest.
sld have listened to wad u ppls told mi in da beginnin.


isnt it GREAT?!?!
i can actually tolerate those STUPId, CHILDISH, FARKIN, IDIOTIC, BLOODY nonsense frm some ppls.
and wit great determination to get someppls outta my life.
WITHOUT even having to sae anythin AT ALL.
jus usin PLAIN SILENCE and i'll get back da PEACEFUL SLIENCE tat i've wished for long tym ago.

im so glad im FREE from all those complicated relationships now.
wahaah..
i mean it's not sth big tt happens, but jus tt da stone, or mayb.
a MOUNTAIN.
i've let tis MOUNTAIN out of my mind, heart n soul.
sth tt dun belong to mi in da 1st place at all.

and no worries, frens.
i'll forget tis tink faster den all those previous ones.
cuz like i've said, it did not make a HUGE impact in my life at all.
i tink i didnt even regard it as an impact in da beginnin too.
to tink i once cried and waited for a miracle.
cum to tink of it, i feel so stupid of myself at tat moment.
but in da end, im so glad tis miracle didnt happen.
cuz i no, i'll regret after tat.

i LOVE reality so much!!
<3

went to sch yest mornin.
i jus missss TP so much can.
and yes.
im forever late.
cuz i overselpt by jus ONE stop again.
LOL.
forever one.

anyway, patricia n i werent able to eat our favourite fried rice.
so went to CHEERS instead.
our whole group still love to buy "2 for $2" POLKA drinks.
jason still loves to ask ppls to acc him to smoke.
hui leng's still so quiet.
hahaa....

went to eat pastamania wit youyou, cher, ben and rach.
but rach went off early and i wasnt able to get a glimspe of TIMBERLAKE can.
duno y he's so shy.
lol.
so as usual. jus tok crap over lunch.
and apprarently everyone didnt slp da previos nite.
seems like even if internship's started, everyone is still not slpin at nite n yet, complainin of not enough slp a nxt dae.
hahaha.

CHOW xueli is still so bimbotic.
=x

met up wit teck hui at vivo to catch a moive after tat.
he seems to be enjoyin his new job.
and he's so happy tt he's earning more den mi.
like. SO?? =.="
and apparently i jus found out tt he's workin for his own initals can.
like TH workin at TH.
"Teck Hui" and "Tommy Hifiger".
TOMMY is still a much more nicer name.
ahhaa..
so stupid.

went to eat at SWENSENS 1st.
jus dun understand why he n jeremy jus love tt restuarant so much.
like WHY la?
mayb i've got bad experiences in da place.
low wages and biased managers.
=]

and as usual, played my favourite "FOTO HUNT" to pass tym.
i didnt no tt both of us can be so pro.
haha.
broke da record and put some funny name for it
but i tink mayb by now, da record mite be broken oledi.
haha
=]

anyway, i realized i've got tis habit of takin fotos of food befor eatin.
i dunno y.
seems like to upgrade my skills of takin fotos.
hahaa..
WADEVER.


i've forgotten wad's tis called. =]


MUSSELS!!
he ask mi "FRESH rite?!?"
den i replied, "of cuz fresh la. wher are we sittin at? nxt to da sea can. cant u see tt da chefs ent down to catch??"

=.="
not funny.

catch CHUCK & LARRY.
god. it's super funny can.
hahaa..
it's like "WELCOME TO DA WORLD OF GAYS!!"
=]

i tink those gays tt went to watch tis movie will feel darn inspired by it can.
den da whole world will be full of gays.
im not against them or wad.
but i jus dun like da feelin of gays.
wadever.







was raining da whole dae while i was workin at HILTON todae.
so u no la.
an outdoor space can meet wit rain.
cuz tt's will means no sales AT ALL.
and luckily, eugene came down to visit mi.
like finally. he's been saein he want to visit since sa sae he went in la.
and FINALLY, he's TANNER den mi!
much much more!
im no longr BEL CHOC!!!
=x

tok crap again.
and since ther's no sales at all, he treat mi for lunch at mac.
tis little NS boy miss eatin mac la. like isnce da dae he went in can. LOL.
and so i was MIA for like 2 hrs. LOL.
who cares?
since mr koh is ther to entertain mi. and apparently we still got so many juices to tell one other. hahaa.

den hui an came.
tis babe jus came back frm RENDANG and it's been few weeks since i've seen her la.
hhaha..
went window shoppin.
as usual, in her dictionary, ther's nth called WINDOW SHOPPIN again.
she got so many tinks tat she wans to buy in mind can.
and apparently she found another job.
wanted to save enough money for her nxt divig trip in dec.
but i guess if she got excess money, she;ll be spentin it on shoppin again la.
no diff.
=]

tok to her abt all those recent events and realized tt it's reali ages since we've chit-chat.
last tym we'll be meetin one another almost everydae till we're sick of each other's faces.
but now it seems like we're so busy.

den we came to tis topic of their IMPRESSION of my other PARTNER.
tis is wad maybelin tinks of mine:

1. well-build
2. sense of fashion
3. nice hairstyle
4. tall
5. if wear specs, must be those funky/ very designed-style.
6. outgoin

but if u realized, she's like describin SOMEONE can.
someone by da name of :

DEREK LEE FENG CHENG.

da moment i told huian da 1st one, she oledi no who it is tat match da whole desciprtion.
hahaha...
yayaya.
WADEVER~~

and ONCE AGAIN, she's another one tt agree wit jeremy's opinion can.
1st was maybelin agreein wit him. now it's hui an.
luckily mongling dunno them.
wahaha
basket.
how many tym must i repeat myself.
"IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!"
GIRLFREN! cannot like tt can.
dun believe ur sixth sense la.
it's not true!
over my dead body i'll be wit him.
wahahahaha...
or maybe.............
i can have another scandal again.
LOL.
i miss MR RAT, my scandalous BF.
but rach took him back oledi.
LOL.

and i repeat myself.
SCANDALS and FLINGS are DIFFERENT.
=D


da couple's wallets !
=D

i didnt no i can actually tolerate all kinds of nonsense.

went out wit teck hui and jeremy last nite.
duno why, whenever i went out wit them, ther'll sure be another person.
as in another of their fren.
and practically i can no most of their frens oledi.
lol.

went to tis cafe jus at da top level of TANGS.
if u're not someone tt frequent TANGS, i guess u wont even no ther's a resturarant above.
cuz there's oni an escalator goin out there, and da scalator's located at da kids' section level.
so whoever goes to tt level wil lbe able to find it.
i wonder how in da world can they find such a place.
hahaa..

they served asian crusine.
tt jeremy actually gave us a shock when he order a CHENG TENG oni.
it's like how can tt be?!?
hahha..
and anyway, their servings are quite big.
so it's worth da money.

but den like i've said it's ASIAN crusine.
so tt means those at makansutra or wherever will be much more cheaper.
so contradicting.
=]

no fotos gonna upload for now.
cuz i dunno why da laptop in my attachment jus cant support tis tingy.
=.="
my blog's gonna be soo full of words with no pics.
so sick.

anyway, maybelin's supposed to join us.
but den.....
hai...
TPSU's meetin.
babe, i dun care. nxt tym u gonna cum out. =x

okie. back to da topic.
slacked ard da area for sometime.
i jus love my people-watchin session while they're smoking.
haha.
and it's such a miracle tt i've stopped smokin oledi.
lol.
i mean, it's been sometym since i've touched one.
=]
great achievement for mi!
wheeeeeeee......

why do i keep on side-tracking??

okie. anyway,
tt teck hui jus like to quarrel wit mi.
over NOTHING.
or maybe.. small little stuff.
it's not as though i wan to. but his mouth jus cant stop shootin mi.
one fine day, i'll make sure he comply wit mi for da whole dae.
and those beside us jus cant stand it.
u sld their expressions.
darn funny can.
haha.
and i cant wait for my nxt yr's bdae present frm da both of them.
WOOH!
i no it's like NXT YEAR. but cum to tink of it.
and wit some calculations taken into account.
it's like SIX FREAKING SHORT MONTHS later, i'll be 20 yrs old can.
my god. tt's like wad a short period la.
and i've got oni 6 more mths to be da crazy girl tt i am now.
after which, it's tym to be some LADY.

MUMMY, I DUN WAN~~~~~~~

okie. i no. NO CHOICE.
i wonder how CHOU XUELI will be nxt yr.
when she'll be 21. =D

CHOU XUELI!!!!!!! CAN U PLS APPEAR IN FRONT OF MI NOW??!?! I WAN TO BITCH WIT U! =P

oh ya. i haven said wad they're gonna buy for mi.
=]
cuz teck hui's gonna start work todae.
and he's gonna get a GUCCI's landyard on sat.
so i jus RANDOMLY say "i wan a GUCCI's handphone strap."
and both of them actually sae OKIE can.
but den,
since he's rich, and tt jeremy's oso rich.
and apparently they jus love branded stuff,
so i sae "since both of u are goin to buy for mi, i tink i wan a GUCCI's wallet instead. it's not as though both of u cant afford. =p "
after some calculations, they say OKIE again la.
my god. these 2 rich spoilt brats.
lol.
but den ther's of cuz some conditions can.
i've to provide DINNER TREATS for da both of them jus to get tt.
wad a sacrifice.
haha.
=.="

wooh!!! im gonna love these 2 kids!
hahahah...

was asked to shift up at PA.
so which mean,

no more afternoon naps.
no more early lunch/home.
no more crunchyroll.
no NOTHING.

wad a life.
so, i tot mayb shiftin up, as rquested by all our supervisors, will be a gd tingy for us.
but oni i was asked to shift today.
cuz my supervisor's too lazy to cum down to assign any tasks for mi.
and in da end, it's jus no diff at all.
im still doin my own stuff.
im still surfin blog n frenster.
im still doin everythin.

but jus need to be careful of EYES.
feelin so sleepy now...


MUMMMY, save me!!!

SLIENT or WORDS?









i choose SLIENT.
cuz its harsher den WORDS.


off to word at bishan yest.
seems like im runnin between 2 shops now.and hangin out wit different groups of ppls is jus soo fun. haha..
in hilton can learn all kinds of stupid stuff they're doin.
in bishan can have all kinds of fun i wan to have. esp with all those ppls at tt level.
=]

jojohui and i finally work in kit.
like, FINALLY!?!!?
haha.
cuz it's been a long long tym since we've worked in kit TOGETHER.
momentum of cuz is still ther but, due to da fact tt it's been a long tym since we've done all those creations, everythin was like, using memory.
hhahah.
rite, jolene, tt FLOWER BLOSSOM got 4 whip cream oni can.
=]

and i jus miss steppin into tt long-lost terrority of mi.
da feelin is still da same.
standin at da cashier counter n tokin to auntie.
tt bloody blender always reminds mi of how i put a stupid knife in.
da DC's forever flooded wit water.
those cone containers tt i always sit on.
tt cake counter wher i always stand to get a glance of JY's ppls and tokin to them.
hahahaa...
it's jus soooooooooooo fun.

and jo and i jus missed doin those same old tink for closin.
when both of us can jus suddenly becum so slient and concentrate on closin da whole kit.
she doin da cleanin and mi levellin da icecream.
everythin's jus da same except our CLOTHES.
=D
but now, i told her.
so sad can.
have to weigh ice-cream and do inventory MYSELF at da same tym can.
=.="

girl, i go home got blue black again la.
stop abusin mi can.
i tell police.
LOL.

and i duno wad's wrong wit da money in da shop.
i sae 1st.
i dunno anythin.
i didnt see $700++ short.
i didnt hear anythin too.
=x


workin at PA now.
and my fren's complainin of her supervisor givin her lots of work to do.
human beigns are always like tt
no work given, they complain.
work given to them oledi, they OSO comlain.
like =.="
i mean. ya. maybe my supervisor dun giv mi deadlines.
but if she wans it by certain tym and everythin's not completed yet.
den jusit to her how much u've done den.
like. COMMON.
i hate ppls sayin all those vulgarities beside mi when it's over some small matters.
basket.
wadever. not my prob.
=]















if u're makin my beloved frenster n blog darn FARKING corrupted and dirty, u're testin my patience. and i'll make sure u get da hell lot from mi.

went to get my white jeans yest.
and ?!?!!?!?!?!?

i saw MONGLING can.
like both of us walkin aimlessly in bugis.
and da funny tink is,
WE DUN EVEN RECOGNIZE EITHER ONE.
=.="
it's like she's wearin formal wear.
and im not wearin a T-SHIRT.
so jus cant recognize anyone.
=]

hahaa..
so ya. jus walked abt AIMLESSLY again before her fren reached.
and tok for a while.
she seems to be gettin well with her SIP.
and forever busy wit her life and we'veto pre-bookin her for outins.
seems like she's busier den mi.
hahahaa..

tat's jus sooooo coincidence.
=D


i miss school out of a sudden.
miss CHOU XUELI and her bimbo-ness.
miss SAM and her painful hugs.
miss ROSY and slackin abt in bedok reservior.
miss RACHEL and her suan-ness.
miss PATRICIA and her fried rice.
miss QIAN NING askin mi how's projects and exams and stuff.
miss bumpin into ppls at almost all areas in sch.
and jus miss OTC.

cant wait to get back to sch in dec.
but didnt wan to end internship so fast.
cuz tat'll means im graduating soon.
which is a fact tt i still wan to deny.
even though it's cumin soon.
=D

okie.
back to attachment again.
same old stuff as usual
lol.

usually miss gucci's heart's practically as hard as stone/rock/anythin.
but jus one sms frm some fren jus touched her.
not as much. but at least touched.
and sorta enlightened her ONCE AGAIN.
hhahaah.

"you have LOTs of rest, alrite?"

i was like, "how in da world do u no im lack of plenty of slp?"

"u work 5 days a week and also either work on one of the weekends, obviously u don't have enough slp."

=.="
like. finally someone noes im practically workin everydae.
so no life.
but at least, im free on every SAT for my social life.
=D
but tt's not da main pt.

ya. i told ... tt i purposely packed my whole week, to make myself occupied without tinkin of anythin and jus have fun as much as possible.
and da nxt moment da ans i get back was da ans tt i wanted to sae.
i mean it's jus some fren tt not veri close to mi, and yet knows da reason behind it without mi tellin anythin at all.

sometym it doesnt take GOOD frens to understand how we feel.
frens tt're not close real understand too.



am i tat easy to understand how i feel?
hahahaha..

make mi realized tt da decision tt i've made is correct.
and im still standin strong on it.
no longer gettin fustrated over work and stuff.
maybe for now la. hahah.
cuz i guess, wad's meant to be urs will be urs one dae.
if not, no pt clinging on to it.

but wadever it is, im glad tt they [ur frens out there. =p] took tym off to accompanyin mi to do crazy stuff.
i mean, although we'e jus hangin ard, slacking ard, but at least we've got one other's company.
rite MAYBELIN?!?
hahaha..
im waitin for hui an to date mi.
been a few weeks since i've seen her.
go rendang like duno how to cum back oledi.
and tt mongling too.
SIP totally MIA.
=]

and where's my CHOW XUELI?!?!!?!?!!?

wento ut wit maybel yest.
realized i've been goin out wit her these few days.
mayb becuz i no huian wasnt free to acc mi.
haha..
sorri, babe. usin u as a subsitute. sort of la.

but den. i no u dun mind. LOL.

anyway, she wanted to shop ard.
so ya.
we reali shop ard.
IN ONE SHOP.
den she became so lazy to shop.
wad an auntie. =D

teck hui and jeremy came to join us after tt.
supposedly they wanted to go parkway.
but becuz maybelin wan to no who are they, and we like "da more da merrier."
and since they got nth to do.
so ya. =]

da 2 boys have been accompanyin mi for 2 straight daes.
practically we went to changi airport jus to have our dinner on fri.
and SUPPOSEDLY, they were there to do their project.
but ya la. as usual. wit MISS GUCCI ard, ther's nth called PROJECTS. =p
and i tink it's been some tym since we've met one other,
so they jus cant stop teasin mi.
okie.
it's a cycle actually.
jeremy was sittin in front of mi, so he jus cldnt keep his mouth shut.
so i cant find anyone, except teck hui to tease oledi.
actually ther's still 2 more other ppls, but im not close to them at all. and they're still studyin in sec sch.
so it's like "generation gap"?!!?
LOL.
no la.
jus cldnt click wit them except da 2 guys.
=]

anyway, back to da topic of SATURDAY.
went to HK cafe to eat our dinner.
tt auntie is jus not sick of tt cafe can.
she ate tt in da mornin too.
=.="


our peanut wit condensed milk bread....
saliva droolin............


and teck hui's..
he's such a basket.
keep on saein he's not hungry.
and in da end, this is so big can.
lol.
cant read their minds. these kids.
hhaah..
anyway, i jus duno y i kept on callin them "kids" when they're oni 1 yr younger.
i mean their tinkin's not tt childish at all.
at least we've got all kinds of topics to tok abt.
lol.
dinner with them was certainly nice.
hahahaa..


maybelin, jeremy asked to comply with teck hui.
i tink, tt'll be in my nxt life den.
hhaha..
no way am i gonna comply wit him.
unless he comply wit mi instead.
=D


and our mango ice kacang!!
wooh!!
tat's so high up can.
haha..
enough for 4 ppls to glup down everythin.
=]

anyway, saw alot of ppls at cine.
in jus one HK cafe, i oledi saw 3 of my frens.
dne ard icne, we saw tat ming and tat yi.
god. thye're still so tall and tat ming grew so man oledi.
haha.
NS do helps.
=]
and we saw din too.
okie.
da purpose of us goin cine was to see CHUCOLAT.
i mean, like TRY MY LUCK la.
and maybelin oso know tt he's my eye-candy.
so she dun mind goin there, since we can do some people-watchin.
but in da end, i saw so many ppls except him.
SOOOOO sad.
LOL.













told my babe i've made up my mind.
ya.
tis tym rd, im serious wit my decision.
no longer bein indecisive.
=D
im standin strong on my decision.
derek's still better.
HOT BODY, okie?!?!
OOPS!
wahahahahaha...

da day when da floor deprived of SWEETNESS...

=D

yest was workin at bishan.
main pt was tt 4 of us worked on da same shift. FINALLY. =]
but too bad, wasnt many customers and jus keep on slacking ard.

feel like i've drifted apart frm da rest.
mayb due to da fact tt i didnt work as often as all of them and tt ive cant join them in their nite activities.
i mean, ya la. im da oni one tt's still studyin n currently having attachment.
so REALI. cant join them late at nite.
and also, i didnt tok to them as mcuh as last tym.
=]

they acc mi to tt bus stop.
and ya.
i jus miss walkin down tt whole stretch of road.
everyday walkin tis road wit jolene, ella after work.
it's like wit different ppls, ther'll surely be all kinds of fun ard.
that 2 were da ppls tt always walked wit mi.

long long tym ago, there was oni ella and i walkin down.
we call it da "juicy street".
we always tok abt anythin, frm ppls to ppls.
and practically i've sorta changed her to wad she is no.
i mean, it seems to be gd for her tt she has actually opened up so mcuh more, compared to last tym.
sometym i jus didnt no i wld have such a big influence in other ppls' life.
cuz normally, in my life, it's always da other way rd.

den as tym passed, jolene joined us too.
i've always told her tt i disliked her da moment she stepped into da shop.
cuz she jus got tt aura tat says "im cindy's sis. i got back hill."
and to mme i dun giv a darn to ppls who are like tt.
and i jus duno why one fine dae she join us after work.
and everytym she join us, i'll tell ella "wa lao. cut short my gossipin session wit her ard."
cuz she was one of da ppls tt we always tok abt.
and REALI. i duno when did we becum so close. REALI.
i disliked her and she's scared of mi.
like HOW la.
used to tok alot of crap wif her. till da extent tt we jus keep on missin our bus jus to make sure tat we finish tokin my topics.
but now, it seems like ther's isnt much to tok oledi.
evryone's so tired and shack after work.
and beside work stuff, it's still work stuff.
no more TELEPATHY.
social life reali gettin smaller and smaller for us.
=D

and ya. tt stretch of rd oso let mi no HIM.
i tink no need to mention name, all of u oso can guess who is it rite?
=]
last tym, when i used to be wearing uniform, he'll alwyas help mi take all my barang barang and slowly walked together.
he's quiet, but at least we no wad each other wans.
and i jus love walkin with him.with him ard, i jus feel da whole world is oni da both of us.
but now, everythin's back to square one again.
snapped back to reality.
sometym i keep on askin myself, am i still waitin for him.
is my waitin worth it?
i duno.
i jus duno anythin.
cuz da longer i wait, the more my heart's turnin colder and harder.
it's goin to be 2 mths since da breakup.
5 more daes.
and i still cant get over it TOTALLY.
ya. maybe da feelins had faded. but it's not faded COMPLETELY.
it took mi quite sometym to TOTALLY accept da fact tt derek n i can oni be frens.
but i duno abt tis now.
i wonder how long wld i need now.
i hate myself to be like tt.
he tod mi tt ther'll be one dae.
but to mi, it seems like "FORGET IT."

u aint givin chance to mi any longer, baby.
i jus dun wan everythin to end jus LIKE THIS.

workin wit them for too long brings all knds of memories back.
jus lookin at those spoiled cakes reminds mi of eugene and i always doin naughty tinks behind weiling's back jus to make her more stressed.
lookin at da kitchen reminds mi of all kinds of fun tt i once had and all those injuries tt i've got.
lookin at da whole of level 3 reminds mi of those ppls i've once gossip abt.
lookin at da lift reminds mi of goin to da darn hot n stuffy and tiny store.
lookin at da rubbish reminds mi of how we always compared who's stronger.
lookin at everythin reminds mi of how much fun i had as a staff.

wearin different clothes now reali means a lot.

got tis little wish.
if oni i cld wear da staff uniform back for one dae.
so tt i can have all kinds of fun.
=p

but all these are oledi in da past.
ther's nth more i can do except to move on.
no point keep on stayin at da same ground when everyone's movin on.
=x

she has changed.
changed to someone tt mayb even she herself duno who she is.
changed to someone who's overly sensitive and suspicious
changed to someone who did nth everydae except gettin emo and workin non-stop to numb herself frm everthin.
changed to someone who's keepin everythin to herself and carryin everythin on her shoulders.
changed to someone who put all da blame on herself.
changed to someone who no longer smile and joked every moment.
changed to someone tt is super duper pessimistic.

when will she changed to own self?

it's great to be in da rain.
ur pains and sorrows get washed by the rain.
but ther's another reason why i like to be in da rain...



cuz no one will notice you when you're cryin.
RAIN and TEARS are the same.

i need to self enlighten myself once again.
dun wan to get stuck at da same place and yet cldnt get anythin cumin out of it.

since da way ive got promoted, nv had i enjoy workin for each single dae.
reali reali reali reali reali regret it.

though quite sick of da job, but den again.
it's personal problems.
so i guess mayb i'll be able to get through it.

and im freakin free after attachment can.
so borin.
everydae work work and still work.

i dun mind workin at hilton.
so long as THEY DUN TRANSFER MI over.
=]
staff over ther were friendly.
but ya la. very slow at doin stuff.
i wonder how they can stand such a hot and stuffy and dirty place.
and i knew it.
askin mi to go over to help out for 1 mth is real bullshit.
REAL.
now it seems like PERMANENTLY.
those ppls jus cant keep their farkin promises.
and now it seems like i've to prove to them why i sld be back in bishan.
like, wad da hell can.
in da 1st place, it wasnt meant to be tis way at all can.

nvm. 6 mths will pass veri fast.
and i'll get out of HAAGEN DAZS.
i'll make sure i get out of there and find another PROPER job.

not eatin these few daes.
jus dun feel like eatin. for no reason.
better still.
on a diet indirectly.
got tt feelin i'll die young.
or maybe die old with all kinds of illness.
hahaa...

no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life

suddenly i miss sch.
TP's still da best place to be on weekdays.
at least i'll get to see different ppls everydae.
especially lookin out for candies.
lol.

my BEDOK RESERVIOR~~~~~~.

you've CHANGED so much, but not da one tat i hate most.

when responsiblilty cums into picture, everything jus changed.
i guess since they're givin mi shit, why in da world sld i do tinks perfectly for them.
so sorri, MISS GUCCI wont do tt if ppls dun treat her gd.
mayb in their dictionary, there's nth called "karma"

wadever~~~~~~~

had dinner wit maybelin at my house nearby again.
sori, babe!
for makin u boil da water, put in da noodles for 3 secs and wastin ur crab meat.
hahaha...
not my fault okie?
=D
and tanks babe!
see my blog becum like tt, and u didnt tink of anythin but to meet mi.
im touched. =x

anyway,accept da person la.
u need one for now. =]
or u need my approval tis weekend??
wahahha..
we need eye-candies more la, in fact.=p

oh ya. ask mr steven to forget his dreams of being an air-steward la.
it's near to impossible can.
OOPS! =x

and now, im all alone in da office.
both my frens had sup papers today.
so practically, im doin nth again.
actually ther's task for mi.
but jus dun feel like movin my butt off da chair 1st.
lol.

and i've found another entertainment besides FRENSTER.
CRUNCHYROLL!!!!
haha.
qn introduced to mi last sun, jus becuz i told her youtube was being restricted here.
blah blah blah.

REALITY says it's impossible for us.
and i no u dun wan to, baby.

SHIT.
my fren sittin opp mi is playin songs tt i dun wish to listen to.
FOR NOW.
those CINA songs tt u ppls always like to sing in Kbox la.
=.="
gettin mi emo sia.
darn it.
and guess wad?
she's askin da title of da song tt i dread most.
and she actually likes tt song.
my god.
pls pls pls.
listening to too much of "pang sae" is bad for health.
=D
i wonder wad songs she still has.

and anyway. im not emo.
so no worries.
my stomach's callin for food urgently la.
LOL.

i still cant live one dae without u, baby.
i wan u back.

sometym it makes ppls wonder wad's da mgt doin.
like, WAD DA FARK are thye doin in da office.
im gettin sick of them.
jus feel tt thye not showin mi any respect.
i've shown them da least respect oledi, no matter how much i dislike da way they do tinks.
but den they;re not showin mi any at all.
and i hate ppls who shows disrespect to mi.

so wad if they're frm da MANAGEMENT?!?
so wad if im oni a part-tym sup in tt farkin shop?
sldnt thye oso show some, not becuz im a sup, but becuz im a humam.
it seems as though to them, we're jus their tools to do wadever they wan and manipulate us in any form.

common on la.
stop tinkin tt all of u are one level higher and ignore other ppls' needs and wants. and cumin out wif all sorts of ridiculous ideas and stuff.

makin mi sick and tired of da job.
reali regretted promotin.
jus becuz i wan my resume to look nicer.
=.="

anyway, im very happy wit my attachment, ppls.
im not tokin abt my internship AT ALL.
=D

suddenly felt tt im becumin a loner once again.

everyone's assumin im freakin busy.
social life gettin smaler and smaller da moment my attachment starts.
jus got tat feelin tt sometyms i'm being taken for granted.

i mean, it's like they'll oni look for u when they need u.
not for any reason, but jus for sake of being ther.

had some probs tis mornin and jus duno who to look for.
jus sooooooo.. disappointed at myself once again.

tot i've grown up, tryin to lessen other ppls's burden.
but it seems like im addin on to it.

tis HD job's givin mi alot of stress and probs.
or mayb, da main pt is im givin ppls probs.
all i wan was to try my best to do everythin nice and proper without givin others any worries.
but it seems like it's da opp.
i mean, i udn wan to get blacklisted again. but who cares anyway.
jus tt da tot of mi cant do closin for da dae, and makin other ppls to make a special trip down to da shop jus to close, makes mi feel as though im so useless and jus cant help much at all.

all along i tot. aiya. it's oni a part-tym job.
why take it so serious?
but den again,
when it cums to work, i jus wan to be serious in everythin and no longer havin fun abt.
and it's not da job tt's givin mi prob.
it's jus im not happy wit my self.
i mean, i no im not tat type of irresponsible person.
but da situation make mi seems like as though im one.
and i jus cant get over da stage of my own self.

feelin myself gettin more n more useless.
and more emotional and pesstimistic.
in da past, no matter how problematic da situation gave mi, i'll jus be optmistic and carry on.
i wont even cry over all tis shit, like wad's da pt, rite?
but now?!?!!?!?

ever since tt incident last mth.
im feelin im gettin weaker.
no longer tt strong girl tt i myself used to know.
always relyin on others when probs cum.
or was it becuz i cldnt keep it all to myself anymore.
was it becuz there's no more space for all tis shit to be kept inside.

i duno whether it's becuz of PMS/CMS tt's makin mi to feel tis way.
wonderin was my depression back again?
REALI.


i feel so..... NOT ME.

okie.
after like, ONE WEEK.
miss gucci's finally adding fotos to her blog.
haha.
pls pls pls pls understand.
it's not i dun wan to upload.
but den, starin at da com frm MON-FRI for da whole is oledi bad enough for my eyes oledi.
and i need to improve my social and workin life at nite.
so of cuz i wont be hm early or even touch da com again ,rite??
=D
unless u ppls wan mi to turn blind and becum a loner.
hahahahaaha....

anyway. went to last sat to celebrate maybelin's bdae in advance.
as usual.
of cuz ther's ppls who are late la.
i guess i dun have to mention any names at all rite.
cuz thye themselve no who they are.
lol.
esp someone who came frm da VIETNAM VILLAGE.
even forgotten tt we're meetin up and ended up cumin at 7 instead of 5.
pls dun learn tis habit frm MISS MAYBELIN, pls.
ahhahahahaha...

so. while waitin fro mongling, we went to da resturant 1st.
legs were freakin tired.
=/


some resturarant at suntec basement.


maybelin wanted to tie her hair.
so someone has to hold on to da mirror for her.
luckily im not da one.
LOL.















but poor huian.
=.="

den.
ther's nth to do. except wait.
and ther's a camera lyin ard on da table.
so. ya la.
hahahahahahaahahahhahahaa....
cam-whorin without mongling!
hahah.
tat's so sad for her la.
=]


so unglam!


her perfect pose...






wit so many shades...
she jus love tt vintage shades tt we've brought for her frm KL.
see??
i told you ppls oledi, my sense of fashion can be TRUSTED okie?
i jus no wad they wants.
whaahahahahahah....
=D










and finally tt girl reached.
and we start to have our feast.
super duper hungry!
=]




i tell you, reali sld try tis place.
good KOREAN food and AFFORDABLE!!!
hahaha..



walked abt in suntec.
and tis mongling....
da moment she saw these machine, her childhood jus came back la.
haaha.


as though all tis machines and toys were long-lost.
lol.

jus cant resist some sales in some shops and ya.
start to play abt again.
duno why when ever we're together.
ther's nth except fun.
and UNGLAM stuff.
no wonder ppls keep saein we've got no image.
haha.
it's tym to, BABES!
=p


our borrow-ed shades..


wheeeeee!!


my 3 GIRLFRIENDS tt i'll cherished...
=]


see da diff between a VILLAGE girl and an URBAN girl???
wahahahahahaah.


unglam 1.

unglam 2.


and jus unglam 3!
=p







tis's like da 2nd tyn we 4 girls went out together.
haha.
and everytym ther's so much to update one another.
lol.

i reali reali reali wonder wad will happen durin OTC and FOC if we reali get to go.
together wif yuting, and etc,
will we be reali like mad-women crying during tt last few days?
hahaa.

mongling-jie. jus jus JUS go can, for da one last tym.
not for da freshies or TP, but for da 3 of us?
cuz tt's wher we 1st knew one other. and it's reali not tt easy to be in da same empire once again.
i tot u believe in FATE alot?
=]

went off to allen's bbq after tt for a while.
my god.
it's been real AGES since i've last saw all of them.
my CAI-YI-LING. nic chong and jy and da rest of empire.
n da moment we came, everyone jus miss tt HOLY CHANT specially for miss gucci la.


by MR JY & MR NIC CHONG.
okie. in between ther's some loss of lyrics.
but reali. u sld see their expressions.
funny expressions and lyrics and action.
wit SALIVA rainnin ard too.
it's darn funny la.
da moment i hear tt chant, i can jus stop laughin non-stop.
continous chants for 6 days actually make me miss it so much.
initailly wanted to record it to use it for my morning alarms, but my fone jus dun have tt function.
=.="


JY and its famous pose!
hahaa.
him and da tragic doll.
retarded.
=D


oh ya.
does tis reminds u of ESPLANADE???
hahaha..
i wonder whose speaker was tt?























out of a sudden,
i miss those days tt we once had, baby.