wento ut wit maybel yest.
realized i've been goin out wit her these few days.
mayb becuz i no huian wasnt free to acc mi.
haha..
sorri, babe. usin u as a subsitute. sort of la.

but den. i no u dun mind. LOL.

anyway, she wanted to shop ard.
so ya.
we reali shop ard.
IN ONE SHOP.
den she became so lazy to shop.
wad an auntie. =D

teck hui and jeremy came to join us after tt.
supposedly they wanted to go parkway.
but becuz maybelin wan to no who are they, and we like "da more da merrier."
and since they got nth to do.
so ya. =]

da 2 boys have been accompanyin mi for 2 straight daes.
practically we went to changi airport jus to have our dinner on fri.
and SUPPOSEDLY, they were there to do their project.
but ya la. as usual. wit MISS GUCCI ard, ther's nth called PROJECTS. =p
and i tink it's been some tym since we've met one other,
so they jus cant stop teasin mi.
okie.
it's a cycle actually.
jeremy was sittin in front of mi, so he jus cldnt keep his mouth shut.
so i cant find anyone, except teck hui to tease oledi.
actually ther's still 2 more other ppls, but im not close to them at all. and they're still studyin in sec sch.
so it's like "generation gap"?!!?
LOL.
no la.
jus cldnt click wit them except da 2 guys.
=]

anyway, back to da topic of SATURDAY.
went to HK cafe to eat our dinner.
tt auntie is jus not sick of tt cafe can.
she ate tt in da mornin too.
=.="


our peanut wit condensed milk bread....
saliva droolin............


and teck hui's..
he's such a basket.
keep on saein he's not hungry.
and in da end, this is so big can.
lol.
cant read their minds. these kids.
hhaah..
anyway, i jus duno y i kept on callin them "kids" when they're oni 1 yr younger.
i mean their tinkin's not tt childish at all.
at least we've got all kinds of topics to tok abt.
lol.
dinner with them was certainly nice.
hahahaa..


maybelin, jeremy asked to comply with teck hui.
i tink, tt'll be in my nxt life den.
hhaha..
no way am i gonna comply wit him.
unless he comply wit mi instead.
=D


and our mango ice kacang!!
wooh!!
tat's so high up can.
haha..
enough for 4 ppls to glup down everythin.
=]

anyway, saw alot of ppls at cine.
in jus one HK cafe, i oledi saw 3 of my frens.
dne ard icne, we saw tat ming and tat yi.
god. thye're still so tall and tat ming grew so man oledi.
haha.
NS do helps.
=]
and we saw din too.
okie.
da purpose of us goin cine was to see CHUCOLAT.
i mean, like TRY MY LUCK la.
and maybelin oso know tt he's my eye-candy.
so she dun mind goin there, since we can do some people-watchin.
but in da end, i saw so many ppls except him.
SOOOOO sad.
LOL.













told my babe i've made up my mind.
ya.
tis tym rd, im serious wit my decision.
no longer bein indecisive.
=D
im standin strong on my decision.
derek's still better.
HOT BODY, okie?!?!
OOPS!
wahahahahaha...

da day when da floor deprived of SWEETNESS...

=D

yest was workin at bishan.
main pt was tt 4 of us worked on da same shift. FINALLY. =]
but too bad, wasnt many customers and jus keep on slacking ard.

feel like i've drifted apart frm da rest.
mayb due to da fact tt i didnt work as often as all of them and tt ive cant join them in their nite activities.
i mean, ya la. im da oni one tt's still studyin n currently having attachment.
so REALI. cant join them late at nite.
and also, i didnt tok to them as mcuh as last tym.
=]

they acc mi to tt bus stop.
and ya.
i jus miss walkin down tt whole stretch of road.
everyday walkin tis road wit jolene, ella after work.
it's like wit different ppls, ther'll surely be all kinds of fun ard.
that 2 were da ppls tt always walked wit mi.

long long tym ago, there was oni ella and i walkin down.
we call it da "juicy street".
we always tok abt anythin, frm ppls to ppls.
and practically i've sorta changed her to wad she is no.
i mean, it seems to be gd for her tt she has actually opened up so mcuh more, compared to last tym.
sometym i jus didnt no i wld have such a big influence in other ppls' life.
cuz normally, in my life, it's always da other way rd.

den as tym passed, jolene joined us too.
i've always told her tt i disliked her da moment she stepped into da shop.
cuz she jus got tt aura tat says "im cindy's sis. i got back hill."
and to mme i dun giv a darn to ppls who are like tt.
and i jus duno why one fine dae she join us after work.
and everytym she join us, i'll tell ella "wa lao. cut short my gossipin session wit her ard."
cuz she was one of da ppls tt we always tok abt.
and REALI. i duno when did we becum so close. REALI.
i disliked her and she's scared of mi.
like HOW la.
used to tok alot of crap wif her. till da extent tt we jus keep on missin our bus jus to make sure tat we finish tokin my topics.
but now, it seems like ther's isnt much to tok oledi.
evryone's so tired and shack after work.
and beside work stuff, it's still work stuff.
no more TELEPATHY.
social life reali gettin smaller and smaller for us.
=D

and ya. tt stretch of rd oso let mi no HIM.
i tink no need to mention name, all of u oso can guess who is it rite?
=]
last tym, when i used to be wearing uniform, he'll alwyas help mi take all my barang barang and slowly walked together.
he's quiet, but at least we no wad each other wans.
and i jus love walkin with him.with him ard, i jus feel da whole world is oni da both of us.
but now, everythin's back to square one again.
snapped back to reality.
sometym i keep on askin myself, am i still waitin for him.
is my waitin worth it?
i duno.
i jus duno anythin.
cuz da longer i wait, the more my heart's turnin colder and harder.
it's goin to be 2 mths since da breakup.
5 more daes.
and i still cant get over it TOTALLY.
ya. maybe da feelins had faded. but it's not faded COMPLETELY.
it took mi quite sometym to TOTALLY accept da fact tt derek n i can oni be frens.
but i duno abt tis now.
i wonder how long wld i need now.
i hate myself to be like tt.
he tod mi tt ther'll be one dae.
but to mi, it seems like "FORGET IT."

u aint givin chance to mi any longer, baby.
i jus dun wan everythin to end jus LIKE THIS.

workin wit them for too long brings all knds of memories back.
jus lookin at those spoiled cakes reminds mi of eugene and i always doin naughty tinks behind weiling's back jus to make her more stressed.
lookin at da kitchen reminds mi of all kinds of fun tt i once had and all those injuries tt i've got.
lookin at da whole of level 3 reminds mi of those ppls i've once gossip abt.
lookin at da lift reminds mi of goin to da darn hot n stuffy and tiny store.
lookin at da rubbish reminds mi of how we always compared who's stronger.
lookin at everythin reminds mi of how much fun i had as a staff.

wearin different clothes now reali means a lot.

got tis little wish.
if oni i cld wear da staff uniform back for one dae.
so tt i can have all kinds of fun.
=p

but all these are oledi in da past.
ther's nth more i can do except to move on.
no point keep on stayin at da same ground when everyone's movin on.
=x

she has changed.
changed to someone tt mayb even she herself duno who she is.
changed to someone who's overly sensitive and suspicious
changed to someone who did nth everydae except gettin emo and workin non-stop to numb herself frm everthin.
changed to someone who's keepin everythin to herself and carryin everythin on her shoulders.
changed to someone who put all da blame on herself.
changed to someone who no longer smile and joked every moment.
changed to someone tt is super duper pessimistic.

when will she changed to own self?

it's great to be in da rain.
ur pains and sorrows get washed by the rain.
but ther's another reason why i like to be in da rain...



cuz no one will notice you when you're cryin.
RAIN and TEARS are the same.

i need to self enlighten myself once again.
dun wan to get stuck at da same place and yet cldnt get anythin cumin out of it.

since da way ive got promoted, nv had i enjoy workin for each single dae.
reali reali reali reali reali regret it.

though quite sick of da job, but den again.
it's personal problems.
so i guess mayb i'll be able to get through it.

and im freakin free after attachment can.
so borin.
everydae work work and still work.

i dun mind workin at hilton.
so long as THEY DUN TRANSFER MI over.
=]
staff over ther were friendly.
but ya la. very slow at doin stuff.
i wonder how they can stand such a hot and stuffy and dirty place.
and i knew it.
askin mi to go over to help out for 1 mth is real bullshit.
REAL.
now it seems like PERMANENTLY.
those ppls jus cant keep their farkin promises.
and now it seems like i've to prove to them why i sld be back in bishan.
like, wad da hell can.
in da 1st place, it wasnt meant to be tis way at all can.

nvm. 6 mths will pass veri fast.
and i'll get out of HAAGEN DAZS.
i'll make sure i get out of there and find another PROPER job.

not eatin these few daes.
jus dun feel like eatin. for no reason.
better still.
on a diet indirectly.
got tt feelin i'll die young.
or maybe die old with all kinds of illness.
hahaa...

no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life

suddenly i miss sch.
TP's still da best place to be on weekdays.
at least i'll get to see different ppls everydae.
especially lookin out for candies.
lol.

my BEDOK RESERVIOR~~~~~~.

you've CHANGED so much, but not da one tat i hate most.

when responsiblilty cums into picture, everything jus changed.
i guess since they're givin mi shit, why in da world sld i do tinks perfectly for them.
so sorri, MISS GUCCI wont do tt if ppls dun treat her gd.
mayb in their dictionary, there's nth called "karma"

wadever~~~~~~~

had dinner wit maybelin at my house nearby again.
sori, babe!
for makin u boil da water, put in da noodles for 3 secs and wastin ur crab meat.
hahaha...
not my fault okie?
=D
and tanks babe!
see my blog becum like tt, and u didnt tink of anythin but to meet mi.
im touched. =x

anyway,accept da person la.
u need one for now. =]
or u need my approval tis weekend??
wahahha..
we need eye-candies more la, in fact.=p

oh ya. ask mr steven to forget his dreams of being an air-steward la.
it's near to impossible can.
OOPS! =x

and now, im all alone in da office.
both my frens had sup papers today.
so practically, im doin nth again.
actually ther's task for mi.
but jus dun feel like movin my butt off da chair 1st.
lol.

and i've found another entertainment besides FRENSTER.
CRUNCHYROLL!!!!
haha.
qn introduced to mi last sun, jus becuz i told her youtube was being restricted here.
blah blah blah.

REALITY says it's impossible for us.
and i no u dun wan to, baby.

SHIT.
my fren sittin opp mi is playin songs tt i dun wish to listen to.
FOR NOW.
those CINA songs tt u ppls always like to sing in Kbox la.
=.="
gettin mi emo sia.
darn it.
and guess wad?
she's askin da title of da song tt i dread most.
and she actually likes tt song.
my god.
pls pls pls.
listening to too much of "pang sae" is bad for health.
=D
i wonder wad songs she still has.

and anyway. im not emo.
so no worries.
my stomach's callin for food urgently la.
LOL.

i still cant live one dae without u, baby.
i wan u back.

sometym it makes ppls wonder wad's da mgt doin.
like, WAD DA FARK are thye doin in da office.
im gettin sick of them.
jus feel tt thye not showin mi any respect.
i've shown them da least respect oledi, no matter how much i dislike da way they do tinks.
but den they;re not showin mi any at all.
and i hate ppls who shows disrespect to mi.

so wad if they're frm da MANAGEMENT?!?
so wad if im oni a part-tym sup in tt farkin shop?
sldnt thye oso show some, not becuz im a sup, but becuz im a humam.
it seems as though to them, we're jus their tools to do wadever they wan and manipulate us in any form.

common on la.
stop tinkin tt all of u are one level higher and ignore other ppls' needs and wants. and cumin out wif all sorts of ridiculous ideas and stuff.

makin mi sick and tired of da job.
reali regretted promotin.
jus becuz i wan my resume to look nicer.
=.="

anyway, im very happy wit my attachment, ppls.
im not tokin abt my internship AT ALL.
=D

suddenly felt tt im becumin a loner once again.

everyone's assumin im freakin busy.
social life gettin smaler and smaller da moment my attachment starts.
jus got tat feelin tt sometyms i'm being taken for granted.

i mean, it's like they'll oni look for u when they need u.
not for any reason, but jus for sake of being ther.

had some probs tis mornin and jus duno who to look for.
jus sooooooo.. disappointed at myself once again.

tot i've grown up, tryin to lessen other ppls's burden.
but it seems like im addin on to it.

tis HD job's givin mi alot of stress and probs.
or mayb, da main pt is im givin ppls probs.
all i wan was to try my best to do everythin nice and proper without givin others any worries.
but it seems like it's da opp.
i mean, i udn wan to get blacklisted again. but who cares anyway.
jus tt da tot of mi cant do closin for da dae, and makin other ppls to make a special trip down to da shop jus to close, makes mi feel as though im so useless and jus cant help much at all.

all along i tot. aiya. it's oni a part-tym job.
why take it so serious?
but den again,
when it cums to work, i jus wan to be serious in everythin and no longer havin fun abt.
and it's not da job tt's givin mi prob.
it's jus im not happy wit my self.
i mean, i no im not tat type of irresponsible person.
but da situation make mi seems like as though im one.
and i jus cant get over da stage of my own self.

feelin myself gettin more n more useless.
and more emotional and pesstimistic.
in da past, no matter how problematic da situation gave mi, i'll jus be optmistic and carry on.
i wont even cry over all tis shit, like wad's da pt, rite?
but now?!?!!?!?

ever since tt incident last mth.
im feelin im gettin weaker.
no longer tt strong girl tt i myself used to know.
always relyin on others when probs cum.
or was it becuz i cldnt keep it all to myself anymore.
was it becuz there's no more space for all tis shit to be kept inside.

i duno whether it's becuz of PMS/CMS tt's makin mi to feel tis way.
wonderin was my depression back again?
REALI.


i feel so..... NOT ME.

okie.
after like, ONE WEEK.
miss gucci's finally adding fotos to her blog.
haha.
pls pls pls pls understand.
it's not i dun wan to upload.
but den, starin at da com frm MON-FRI for da whole is oledi bad enough for my eyes oledi.
and i need to improve my social and workin life at nite.
so of cuz i wont be hm early or even touch da com again ,rite??
=D
unless u ppls wan mi to turn blind and becum a loner.
hahahahaaha....

anyway. went to last sat to celebrate maybelin's bdae in advance.
as usual.
of cuz ther's ppls who are late la.
i guess i dun have to mention any names at all rite.
cuz thye themselve no who they are.
lol.
esp someone who came frm da VIETNAM VILLAGE.
even forgotten tt we're meetin up and ended up cumin at 7 instead of 5.
pls dun learn tis habit frm MISS MAYBELIN, pls.
ahhahahahaha...

so. while waitin fro mongling, we went to da resturant 1st.
legs were freakin tired.
=/


some resturarant at suntec basement.


maybelin wanted to tie her hair.
so someone has to hold on to da mirror for her.
luckily im not da one.
LOL.















but poor huian.
=.="

den.
ther's nth to do. except wait.
and ther's a camera lyin ard on da table.
so. ya la.
hahahahahahaahahahhahahaa....
cam-whorin without mongling!
hahah.
tat's so sad for her la.
=]


so unglam!


her perfect pose...






wit so many shades...
she jus love tt vintage shades tt we've brought for her frm KL.
see??
i told you ppls oledi, my sense of fashion can be TRUSTED okie?
i jus no wad they wants.
whaahahahahahah....
=D










and finally tt girl reached.
and we start to have our feast.
super duper hungry!
=]




i tell you, reali sld try tis place.
good KOREAN food and AFFORDABLE!!!
hahaha..



walked abt in suntec.
and tis mongling....
da moment she saw these machine, her childhood jus came back la.
haaha.


as though all tis machines and toys were long-lost.
lol.

jus cant resist some sales in some shops and ya.
start to play abt again.
duno why when ever we're together.
ther's nth except fun.
and UNGLAM stuff.
no wonder ppls keep saein we've got no image.
haha.
it's tym to, BABES!
=p


our borrow-ed shades..


wheeeeee!!


my 3 GIRLFRIENDS tt i'll cherished...
=]


see da diff between a VILLAGE girl and an URBAN girl???
wahahahahahaah.


unglam 1.

unglam 2.


and jus unglam 3!
=p







tis's like da 2nd tyn we 4 girls went out together.
haha.
and everytym ther's so much to update one another.
lol.

i reali reali reali wonder wad will happen durin OTC and FOC if we reali get to go.
together wif yuting, and etc,
will we be reali like mad-women crying during tt last few days?
hahaa.

mongling-jie. jus jus JUS go can, for da one last tym.
not for da freshies or TP, but for da 3 of us?
cuz tt's wher we 1st knew one other. and it's reali not tt easy to be in da same empire once again.
i tot u believe in FATE alot?
=]

went off to allen's bbq after tt for a while.
my god.
it's been real AGES since i've last saw all of them.
my CAI-YI-LING. nic chong and jy and da rest of empire.
n da moment we came, everyone jus miss tt HOLY CHANT specially for miss gucci la.


by MR JY & MR NIC CHONG.
okie. in between ther's some loss of lyrics.
but reali. u sld see their expressions.
funny expressions and lyrics and action.
wit SALIVA rainnin ard too.
it's darn funny la.
da moment i hear tt chant, i can jus stop laughin non-stop.
continous chants for 6 days actually make me miss it so much.
initailly wanted to record it to use it for my morning alarms, but my fone jus dun have tt function.
=.="


JY and its famous pose!
hahaa.
him and da tragic doll.
retarded.
=D


oh ya.
does tis reminds u of ESPLANADE???
hahaha..
i wonder whose speaker was tt?























out of a sudden,
i miss those days tt we once had, baby.

went out wif da gurls last thurs.
been some tym isnce we've met up. as in da whole clinque.
n wad a surprise. nelly actually came.
i mean, it's like it's VERY VERY RARE to see her ard wit us. and it's like all of us were afraid tt she dunno wad we're tokin abt and how we laways have fun without any image.
LOL,

sorta celebrated pauline's and nelly's bdae together.
though it's like one week ltr. haha.


tis pauline is still sooooo camera-shy.
=]


nelly...
those daes when i used to sit nxt to her.
always copyin her work and askin her to wake mi up when da teachers cum.
lol.
THOSE WERE DA DAES.......

dne da session of CAM-WHORIN came in...
=x












weijun was jus randomly posin a pose.
den yuzhuang wanted to imitate her...
but da outcome was....











































































like, =.=""""""
=D




leavin tt quiet foodcourt and continue to cam-whor outside novena..












we jus love tis pose frm her!!!
hhaha..
so seductive!

















and finally da teachers came.
why teachers rite??
hahaa
cuz miss ho, our previous form teacher, said she's soooo disappointed tt we didnt visit her durin teacher's day. so tis was sorta a small gathering.
=]


specially prepared by joanne.
haha.
for da 2 spoecial teachers.
=D


miss HO and mr WONG.
they're still good frens after so many yrs.
and it seems as though they didnt grow old at all.
unlike all of us...


oh ya. becca happen to be workin jus opp HD, at FILA.
so of ucz not forgettin her in da fotoshoot.
=]



mr wong drove weijun, serena, ms ho and i home.durin da journey,
practically everyone's confessin wadever we've did in da past.
so funny can.
like...

all of us were so afraid of mr wong whenever he's angry. cuz his eyes are FREAKINGLY big la.
den, miss ho said tt ruiqing n i jus dont belong to da class at all.
cuz of our attitude towArds sch and jus da fact tat,
OUR FACES WROTE THOSE WORDS "WE BELONG TO DA WORST CLASS, RATHER THAN DA BEST CLASS"

=.="
tt's like, so insultin la.
haha
but anyway, we've survived tt 2 yrs.

and oso, i've found out one fact.
im da oni one in da class tt went to DC befor can.
tt's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo SAD la!
=.="