iamGUCCI

2007-10-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

so now, everyone's resigning frm HD.
seems like everyone's finally sick of da place.
last tym whoever resigns, i've no feelins at all.
but since da dae koh ji yuan resign, i realized the feelin's gettin untolerable.
jiyuan left becuz he got real sick of da whole job.
den eugene left too becuz of NS.
now??

jeffery's last dae tml.
joanne lim jus punched her last time slot.
weiling found a new job.
mike still lookin for one.
shaun tan goin NS nxt mth.
chris n jarvis goin in DEC.
which means, most of them will be gone by end of tis yr.

so. can i oso assume tat by da end of tis yr, i'll be alone in HD till nxt april?
most probably.... YES.

2 yrs plus workin there seems to be short.
but jus cant stand those politics and corruptness.
if oni, i dun wan my resume to look nice.

am i being selfish or?
seems like everyone's leaving either becuz they cant stnad tis job anylonger or cuz da managers are leaving or wadever reason ther is.
but im still not leaving.
not leaving becuz of my own self.
mayb becuz i need tat money.
and i jus dun wan to leave this stupid place till i graduate.
i reali cant wait for da dae to resign.
but tat will means. I'VE GRADUATED FRM TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC.
which is a FACT that i still dun wan to admit.

misses..

1. secret affair.
2. 3 other babes.
3. TP.
4. OTC.
5. Dance.

jus saw chu-co-lat.
after complainin to jolene i didnt see him for 2 weeks and when im back at bishan jus now, i still didnt get to see him.
and jus when im goin home, he was at da escalator.

"FATE wad. see? u sae u very long nv see him oledi. now u see him lor."?

fate huh???

FATE MY ASS den.
i dun believe in fate any longer. it's been foolin ard wit mi since da dae i met derek. so i hate FATE till da core.

FARK OFF la pls, FATE.

my period's here.
hours after i've complained it's not here yet.
=.="

feel so wierd to be ard u ppls now...

2007-10-20T11:49:00.000+08:00

i miss chucolat..

i jus realized sth.
whoever fall into my eye-candy catergory, sparks happen.
but when it cums to chucolat, it's jus plainly EYE-CANDY.
nth more.
wierd...

singapore's such a small island.
been seein familiar strangers on da street.
and i reali mean STRANGERS.

will ther be a dae when i stop all my people-watchin?
mayb da dae will cums when im blind.

how i wish i wont be able to see anyone at all.
tis way, i wont even notice anyone interesting and giving them even more interest.
makin myself so....

so SICK of love....

when's tat farkin period cumin again?
bloodly shit.

and my beloved frenster's givin mi all kinds of probs Too.
duno wad's wrong wit da maintanence.
and in there, i kept on seein things tat i wont wan to see.
but some idiot CURIOSITY in mi jus love to explore.
in da end......

CURIOSITY = STUPIDITY = JEALOUSY = FAITHLESS = HOPELESS

2007-10-19T09:34:00.005+08:00

someone asked mi tis qtn yest.

*blah blah blah*

"so which guy have u ever love TRUELY n WHOLEHEARTEDLY?"

"..."
*stare into blank air*

"OKIE okie. i no da ans oledi. no need to sae i oso no."

"..................."

"DEREK rite? see? u no need to sae i oledi no da ans."

?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
i didnt no tat she can read my heart too. tat's so scary. or mayb.
oni she and maybelin can read. =]

ya. quite true though.
tat whole yr (or was it more den one yr??), apparently, it seems as though im living becuz of him.
doin things tat he likes.
ermm... actually not reali.
cuz both of us have da same interests in almost everythin.
so... ya. =p

i miss his WHITE SPECS.
it's been a long long long long tym since i've seen him wore.
miss him BREAKDANCIN.
and da dae when i 1st met him and he goes, "WO SHI NU DE!!"
=D
hahahhaahah..
those were da fun days when maybelin n i keep on imitatin him saein tt sentence.
and i see him almost everywher in da camp.
fate.
but WRONG fate.

too bad. da timin is jus wrong.
and it seems like both of us are living in 2 different worlds now.
he's so into modelling now.
apppearin alomost everywher.
frm shows to posters and now, calendar.
=.="

i wonder when will it be his turn to appear in tat mac's commerical, jus like kai ming.
hahaha..
"HOT! HOT!"
i tink better dun. his bird nest can scare away alot of ppls. and most particularly, HIS VOICE.
LOL.

goin to be one yr since da dae it's over.
and another OTC's cumin oledi. and ther's so many things happenin in tis one yr.
and i tot it's reali reali over oledi.
frm da bottom of my heart, i reali treat him as a fren.
since da day when 2007 starts.

or did i?

time pass sooo fast.

mayb 10 years down da road...

2007-10-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

wad a fark!!!!
knnbccb!
i jus went for a lunch break.
and when im back, im bein bloacked frm usin frenster.
knn la.

no frenster means no life can.
wad da hell.
how to survive without tat website when im at work.
it's super duper boring can!
cb.

reali dun understand wad they wan can.
its not as though im in da FRENSTER window frm 9-6 rite??
i did my work before maximising tt window can.
bloody shit.
who da fark is tt idiot tt saes im always in frenster?

its not as though i gave my supervior incomplete work rite?
at least for now, i dun even have da tym for crunchyroll.
so frenster's da oni past tym for mi la.

wad da hell.
wad da fark.
wad da shit.

so u mean others can use but not da 3 interns???
wad da...
cb.

2007-10-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

went out with hui an and gohst last thurs.
to celebrate her bdae.
so sad. nobody celebrate for her except us. lol.
and tt maybelin jus MIA.
BUT!!
i can understand why.
haha.
so not blamin on her.
=]

anyway, went to eat steamboat at bugis.
to fufil her cravings as usua.
being her bf is reali not a nice tink.
everytink have to suit her.
LOL.

photos up, babes!!
im lazy to write comments for all fotos.
hee...

went off to bugis village for a while.
she wanted to shop awhile.
but it's oledi 10 plus. so wad do u tink??
hahhaha.
but we found out a new interest at tat place.
at tt tym, ther's still some shops open.
but finally u can feel da AIR-CON cumin out.
no KIDS ard.
and PEACEFUL-ness.
=D

2007-10-11T09:44:00.000+08:00

having EYE CANDIES is much more better.
cuz ther's no love, no hopes, no jealousy, no sadness, no reality.
jus FANTASY.

i hate my heart.
can someone jus kindly take it out and throw it into da sea?

wrong infatuation, wrong timing, wrong intuition.

2007-10-10T14:41:00.000+08:00

dun wan this place to be turned into black n white.
but sometyms, its jus so freakin borin n ther's nth mcuh to do.
tanks tt after attachment im foever not free.
either for social life or work.

finally. new songs added into my deaktop.
reali cant stand those chinese songs tat angie had added in for mi.
inject more english songs.
tat's more like a human.
hahaha...

(HAPPY BIRTHDAY - FILPSYDE... PLAYIN BEHIND)

been quite busy jus now.
wit all kinds of tasks given to mi.
but now, CURRENTLY.
ther's nth to do again.
tat's why im here again.

still watchin my curnchyroll.
guess, by da end of tis internship, i wld have ifnished watchin all those dramas i've missed out for da past few mths.
eyes gonna close soon.
tanks to my heavy lunch again.
=.=""

receive some nonsensical tingy lastnite again.
how many tym wld i have to repeat myself?
wad's over is over.
i dun wan to get back into a situation whereby i'll regret wad im doin and wastin my tym.
when my mind's set, NO ONE can ever change it.
so no pt keep on askin mi when my answer's FOREVER da SAME.

was tokin to jeremy last nite.
been sometym since i've tok to him.
and ya.
AS USUAL. da same old topic came into picture again.
he keep tinkin tt its possible between his fren n i.
like COME ON LA.
=.="
seems like it's reali hard to predict wad's da future.
and he do have a woman' sixth sense can.
i mean it's not at mi, but at someone else instead.
=.="

infatuation is all i can sae.
higher hopes means i'll get higher chance of failure.
which is sth i hate most.
ta'ts y i dun hope for anythin for now.
and isnt it obvious tt my heart's oledi frozen?

i hate to fall into da endless pit and tryin my best to climb out of it again.
when all along i no i sldnt fall back in, but i keep givin myself and da rest chances and chances.
till da extent tat im immune now.

reason for bein like tt, i guess mayb its frm da day when i 1st met MR BIRD-NEST.
perfect one but WRONG timing.
(basket. RYAN CANBERRA - TRUE is playin behind now)
like wad maybelin said, "u mite not no, mayb after many yrs, u both mite ended up together."
wadever~
since da day i knew him, i guess i dun dare to have hopes anymore, especically to all these.
HOPING seems to have becum HOPELESS.
so wad's da point?

okie.
i no u babes gonna sae mi again when u read all these.
wad, it's oni a BIRD NEST, why still so crazy over him???
WADEVER~~~

anyway, i jus wan to enjoy my life like tat now.
with nth to worry abt.
no guy. no stress.
im still used to tis life.
cum to tink of it. i dun need a man.
i've got so many frens ard mi to occupy my life.
but den, like wad huian, maybelin and jeremy are complaining to mi,
sometimes u jus wish tt u've got someone u can lean on and loved and be loved.

da 3 of them are complaining to mi tat "i wan a BF/GF!!!!!"
as if i can produce 3 ppls for them.
LOL.
=.="

pardon mi for all tis kinds of SOO random post every mth.
cuz u no la.
blame it on PMS, not mi.
=]

2007-10-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

apparently MISS GUCCI got nth to do again.
so she came across tis tingy:

Realize that the girl holding onto u is
perfect in her own special way.

The way she laughs.
The way she sleeps.
The way she loves you.
The way she tries to please you.
Always remember that.

She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting a maybe perfect love for her.

There might also be someone out there.
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.
Fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.
Understand that.

Imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today,
and you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.
And then you run back to her.
And u do the same.
But you see love in her eyes.
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are good looking, have money, buy her things,
make her parents happy, or that you can have anything you want in a snap.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything you do.
Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.

You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.

if oni da perfect one is as true as this.
but i no it wont happen.
at least. NOT for now.

2007-10-08T14:46:00.000+08:00

a frakin day to strat wit today.

was rainin heavily jus now.
and darn it.
it's like wiith or without an umbrella is da same can.
idiot.
in da end im still drenched all da way.

nvm. went to bugis to had my lunch.
so i wanted to buy sth tt's real hot to warm myself so brought some korean tingy la.
and guess wad?
ther's nth except NOODLES and KIMCHI.
bloody ass.
no meat can.
im MUSLIM not VEGETARIAN.
=.="
arent i supposed to fast now??
....

wadever.

and now im in da office.
freakin cold la.
wit da air con blowin out air straight down to me.
and my jeans' still wet.
worse, oni in front is wet.
so u no da feelin of half wet n half dry la.
idiot.

no staff behind mi.
so which means my fren n i can practically do anythin we wan EXCEPT sleep.
i need slp badly now.
after tt bloody heavy lunch.
coffee dun seems to be havin any effects at all.
hai..
wad a life.

and tis BLOGGER jus refused to let mi upload ANYTHIN at all.
so borin.
my blog's full of BLACK AND WHITE oni.

anyway.
one week has passed.
didnt wan to blog out wad happen cuz my blog has becum a PUBLIC blog to so many ppls i no. =D
and ther's no need to elaborate more on it.

but i guess a few ppls out ther knows wad im been goin thru for da past few daes.
ppls like teckhui, jeremy, maybelin, hui an and dearest.
sld have listened to wad u ppls told mi in da beginnin.

isnt it GREAT?!?!
i can actually tolerate those STUPId, CHILDISH, FARKIN, IDIOTIC, BLOODY nonsense frm some ppls.
and wit great determination to get someppls outta my life.
WITHOUT even having to sae anythin AT ALL.
jus usin PLAIN SILENCE and i'll get back da PEACEFUL SLIENCE tat i've wished for long tym ago.

im so glad im FREE from all those complicated relationships now.
wahaah..
i mean it's not sth big tt happens, but jus tt da stone, or mayb.
a MOUNTAIN.
i've let tis MOUNTAIN out of my mind, heart n soul.
sth tt dun belong to mi in da 1st place at all.

and no worries, frens.
i'll forget tis tink faster den all those previous ones.
cuz like i've said, it did not make a HUGE impact in my life at all.
i tink i didnt even regard it as an impact in da beginnin too.
to tink i once cried and waited for a miracle.
cum to tink of it, i feel so stupid of myself at tat moment.
but in da end, im so glad tis miracle didnt happen.
cuz i no, i'll regret after tat.

i LOVE reality so much!!
<3

2007-10-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

went to sch yest mornin.
i jus missss TP so much can.
and yes.
im forever late.
cuz i overselpt by jus ONE stop again.
LOL.
forever one.

anyway, patricia n i werent able to eat our favourite fried rice.
so went to CHEERS instead.
our whole group still love to buy "2 for $2" POLKA drinks.
jason still loves to ask ppls to acc him to smoke.
hui leng's still so quiet.
hahaa....

went to eat pastamania wit youyou, cher, ben and rach.
but rach went off early and i wasnt able to get a glimspe of TIMBERLAKE can.
duno y he's so shy.
lol.
so as usual. jus tok crap over lunch.
and apprarently everyone didnt slp da previos nite.
seems like even if internship's started, everyone is still not slpin at nite n yet, complainin of not enough slp a nxt dae.
hahaha.

CHOW xueli is still so bimbotic.
=x

met up wit teck hui at vivo to catch a moive after tat.
he seems to be enjoyin his new job.
and he's so happy tt he's earning more den mi.
like. SO?? =.="
and apparently i jus found out tt he's workin for his own initals can.
like TH workin at TH.
"Teck Hui" and "Tommy Hifiger".
TOMMY is still a much more nicer name.
ahhaa..
so stupid.

went to eat at SWENSENS 1st.
jus dun understand why he n jeremy jus love tt restuarant so much.
like WHY la?
mayb i've got bad experiences in da place.
low wages and biased managers.
=]

and as usual, played my favourite "FOTO HUNT" to pass tym.
i didnt no tt both of us can be so pro.
haha.
broke da record and put some funny name for it
but i tink mayb by now, da record mite be broken oledi.
haha
=]

anyway, i realized i've got tis habit of takin fotos of food befor eatin.
i dunno y.
seems like to upgrade my skills of takin fotos.
hahaa..
WADEVER.

i've forgotten wad's tis called. =]

MUSSELS!!
he ask mi "FRESH rite?!?"
den i replied, "of cuz fresh la. wher are we sittin at? nxt to da sea can. cant u see tt da chefs ent down to catch??"

=.="
not funny.

catch CHUCK & LARRY.
god. it's super funny can.
hahaa..
it's like "WELCOME TO DA WORLD OF GAYS!!"
=]

i tink those gays tt went to watch tis movie will feel darn inspired by it can.
den da whole world will be full of gays.
im not against them or wad.
but i jus dun like da feelin of gays.
wadever.

was raining da whole dae while i was workin at HILTON todae.
so u no la.
an outdoor space can meet wit rain.
cuz tt's will means no sales AT ALL.
and luckily, eugene came down to visit mi.
like finally. he's been saein he want to visit since sa sae he went in la.
and FINALLY, he's TANNER den mi!
much much more!
im no longr BEL CHOC!!!
=x

tok crap again.
and since ther's no sales at all, he treat mi for lunch at mac.
tis little NS boy miss eatin mac la. like isnce da dae he went in can. LOL.
and so i was MIA for like 2 hrs. LOL.
who cares?
since mr koh is ther to entertain mi. and apparently we still got so many juices to tell one other. hahaa.

den hui an came.
tis babe jus came back frm RENDANG and it's been few weeks since i've seen her la.
hhaha..
went window shoppin.
as usual, in her dictionary, ther's nth called WINDOW SHOPPIN again.
she got so many tinks tat she wans to buy in mind can.
and apparently she found another job.
wanted to save enough money for her nxt divig trip in dec.
but i guess if she got excess money, she;ll be spentin it on shoppin again la.
no diff.
=]

tok to her abt all those recent events and realized tt it's reali ages since we've chit-chat.
last tym we'll be meetin one another almost everydae till we're sick of each other's faces.
but now it seems like we're so busy.

den we came to tis topic of their IMPRESSION of my other PARTNER.
tis is wad maybelin tinks of mine:

1. well-build
2. sense of fashion
3. nice hairstyle
4. tall
5. if wear specs, must be those funky/ very designed-style.
6. outgoin

but if u realized, she's like describin SOMEONE can.
someone by da name of :

DEREK LEE FENG CHENG.

da moment i told huian da 1st one, she oledi no who it is tat match da whole desciprtion.
hahaha...
yayaya.
WADEVER~~

and ONCE AGAIN, she's another one tt agree wit jeremy's opinion can.
1st was maybelin agreein wit him. now it's hui an.
luckily mongling dunno them.
wahaha
basket.
how many tym must i repeat myself.
"IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!"
GIRLFREN! cannot like tt can.
dun believe ur sixth sense la.
it's not true!
over my dead body i'll be wit him.
wahahahaha...
or maybe.............
i can have another scandal again.
LOL.
i miss MR RAT, my scandalous BF.
but rach took him back oledi.
LOL.

and i repeat myself.
SCANDALS and FLINGS are DIFFERENT.
=D

da couple's wallets !
=D

2007-10-05T09:41:00.000+08:00

i didnt no i can actually tolerate all kinds of nonsense.

2007-10-04T11:32:00.000+08:00

went out wit teck hui and jeremy last nite.
duno why, whenever i went out wit them, ther'll sure be another person.
as in another of their fren.
and practically i can no most of their frens oledi.
lol.

went to tis cafe jus at da top level of TANGS.
if u're not someone tt frequent TANGS, i guess u wont even no ther's a resturarant above.
cuz there's oni an escalator goin out there, and da scalator's located at da kids' section level.
so whoever goes to tt level wil lbe able to find it.
i wonder how in da world can they find such a place.
hahaa..

they served asian crusine.
tt jeremy actually gave us a shock when he order a CHENG TENG oni.
it's like how can tt be?!?
hahha..
and anyway, their servings are quite big.
so it's worth da money.

but den like i've said it's ASIAN crusine.
so tt means those at makansutra or wherever will be much more cheaper.
so contradicting.
=]

no fotos gonna upload for now.
cuz i dunno why da laptop in my attachment jus cant support tis tingy.
=.="
my blog's gonna be soo full of words with no pics.
so sick.

anyway, maybelin's supposed to join us.
but den.....
hai...
TPSU's meetin.
babe, i dun care. nxt tym u gonna cum out. =x

okie. back to da topic.
slacked ard da area for sometime.
i jus love my people-watchin session while they're smoking.
haha.
and it's such a miracle tt i've stopped smokin oledi.
lol.
i mean, it's been sometym since i've touched one.
=]
great achievement for mi!
wheeeeeeee......

why do i keep on side-tracking??

okie. anyway,
tt teck hui jus like to quarrel wit mi.
over NOTHING.
or maybe.. small little stuff.
it's not as though i wan to. but his mouth jus cant stop shootin mi.
one fine day, i'll make sure he comply wit mi for da whole dae.
and those beside us jus cant stand it.
u sld their expressions.
darn funny can.
haha.
and i cant wait for my nxt yr's bdae present frm da both of them.
WOOH!
i no it's like NXT YEAR. but cum to tink of it.
and wit some calculations taken into account.
it's like SIX FREAKING SHORT MONTHS later, i'll be 20 yrs old can.
my god. tt's like wad a short period la.
and i've got oni 6 more mths to be da crazy girl tt i am now.
after which, it's tym to be some LADY.

MUMMY, I DUN WAN~~~~~~~

okie. i no. NO CHOICE.
i wonder how CHOU XUELI will be nxt yr.
when she'll be 21. =D

CHOU XUELI!!!!!!! CAN U PLS APPEAR IN FRONT OF MI NOW??!?! I WAN TO BITCH WIT U! =P

oh ya. i haven said wad they're gonna buy for mi.
=]
cuz teck hui's gonna start work todae.
and he's gonna get a GUCCI's landyard on sat.
so i jus RANDOMLY say "i wan a GUCCI's handphone strap."
and both of them actually sae OKIE can.
but den,
since he's rich, and tt jeremy's oso rich.
and apparently they jus love branded stuff,
so i sae "since both of u are goin to buy for mi, i tink i wan a GUCCI's wallet instead. it's not as though both of u cant afford. =p "
after some calculations, they say OKIE again la.
my god. these 2 rich spoilt brats.
lol.
but den ther's of cuz some conditions can.
i've to provide DINNER TREATS for da both of them jus to get tt.
wad a sacrifice.
haha.
=.="

wooh!!! im gonna love these 2 kids!
hahahah...

2007-10-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

was asked to shift up at PA.
so which mean,

no more afternoon naps.
no more early lunch/home.
no more crunchyroll.
no NOTHING.

wad a life.
so, i tot mayb shiftin up, as rquested by all our supervisors, will be a gd tingy for us.
but oni i was asked to shift today.
cuz my supervisor's too lazy to cum down to assign any tasks for mi.
and in da end, it's jus no diff at all.
im still doin my own stuff.
im still surfin blog n frenster.
im still doin everythin.

but jus need to be careful of EYES.
feelin so sleepy now...

MUMMMY, save me!!!

2007-10-03T09:16:00.000+08:00

SLIENT or WORDS?

i choose SLIENT.
cuz its harsher den WORDS.

off to word at bishan yest.
seems like im runnin between 2 shops now.and hangin out wit different groups of ppls is jus soo fun. haha..
in hilton can learn all kinds of stupid stuff they're doin.
in bishan can have all kinds of fun i wan to have. esp with all those ppls at tt level.
=]

jojohui and i finally work in kit.
like, FINALLY!?!!?
haha.
cuz it's been a long long tym since we've worked in kit TOGETHER.
momentum of cuz is still ther but, due to da fact tt it's been a long tym since we've done all those creations, everythin was like, using memory.
hhahah.
rite, jolene, tt FLOWER BLOSSOM got 4 whip cream oni can.
=]

and i jus miss steppin into tt long-lost terrority of mi.
da feelin is still da same.
standin at da cashier counter n tokin to auntie.
tt bloody blender always reminds mi of how i put a stupid knife in.
da DC's forever flooded wit water.
those cone containers tt i always sit on.
tt cake counter wher i always stand to get a glance of JY's ppls and tokin to them.
hahahaa...
it's jus soooooooooooo fun.

and jo and i jus missed doin those same old tink for closin.
when both of us can jus suddenly becum so slient and concentrate on closin da whole kit.
she doin da cleanin and mi levellin da icecream.
everythin's jus da same except our CLOTHES.
=D
but now, i told her.
so sad can.
have to weigh ice-cream and do inventory MYSELF at da same tym can.
=.="

girl, i go home got blue black again la.
stop abusin mi can.
i tell police.
LOL.

and i duno wad's wrong wit da money in da shop.
i sae 1st.
i dunno anythin.
i didnt see $700++ short.
i didnt hear anythin too.
=x

workin at PA now.
and my fren's complainin of her supervisor givin her lots of work to do.
human beigns are always like tt
no work given, they complain.
work given to them oledi, they OSO comlain.
like =.="
i mean. ya. maybe my supervisor dun giv mi deadlines.
but if she wans it by certain tym and everythin's not completed yet.
den jusit to her how much u've done den.
like. COMMON.
i hate ppls sayin all those vulgarities beside mi when it's over some small matters.
basket.
wadever. not my prob.
=]

if u're makin my beloved frenster n blog darn FARKING corrupted and dirty, u're testin my patience. and i'll make sure u get da hell lot from mi.

2007-10-02T08:57:00.000+08:00

went to get my white jeans yest.
and ?!?!!?!?!?!?

i saw MONGLING can.
like both of us walkin aimlessly in bugis.
and da funny tink is,
WE DUN EVEN RECOGNIZE EITHER ONE.
=.="
it's like she's wearin formal wear.
and im not wearin a T-SHIRT.
so jus cant recognize anyone.
=]

hahaa..
so ya. jus walked abt AIMLESSLY again before her fren reached.
and tok for a while.
she seems to be gettin well with her SIP.
and forever busy wit her life and we'veto pre-bookin her for outins.
seems like she's busier den mi.
hahahaa..

tat's jus sooooo coincidence.
=D

i miss school out of a sudden.
miss CHOU XUELI and her bimbo-ness.
miss SAM and her painful hugs.
miss ROSY and slackin abt in bedok reservior.
miss RACHEL and her suan-ness.
miss PATRICIA and her fried rice.
miss QIAN NING askin mi how's projects and exams and stuff.
miss bumpin into ppls at almost all areas in sch.
and jus miss OTC.

cant wait to get back to sch in dec.
but didnt wan to end internship so fast.
cuz tat'll means im graduating soon.
which is a fact tt i still wan to deny.
even though it's cumin soon.
=D

2007-10-01T10:44:00.000+08:00

okie.
back to attachment again.
same old stuff as usual
lol.

usually miss gucci's heart's practically as hard as stone/rock/anythin.
but jus one sms frm some fren jus touched her.
not as much. but at least touched.
and sorta enlightened her ONCE AGAIN.
hhahaah.

"you have LOTs of rest, alrite?"

i was like, "how in da world do u no im lack of plenty of slp?"

"u work 5 days a week and also either work on one of the weekends, obviously u don't have enough slp."

=.="
like. finally someone noes im practically workin everydae.
so no life.
but at least, im free on every SAT for my social life.
=D
but tt's not da main pt.

ya. i told ... tt i purposely packed my whole week, to make myself occupied without tinkin of anythin and jus have fun as much as possible.
and da nxt moment da ans i get back was da ans tt i wanted to sae.
i mean it's jus some fren tt not veri close to mi, and yet knows da reason behind it without mi tellin anythin at all.

sometym it doesnt take GOOD frens to understand how we feel.
frens tt're not close real understand too.

am i tat easy to understand how i feel?
hahahaha..

make mi realized tt da decision tt i've made is correct.
and im still standin strong on it.
no longer gettin fustrated over work and stuff.
maybe for now la. hahah.
cuz i guess, wad's meant to be urs will be urs one dae.
if not, no pt clinging on to it.

but wadever it is, im glad tt they [ur frens out there. =p] took tym off to accompanyin mi to do crazy stuff.
i mean, although we'e jus hangin ard, slacking ard, but at least we've got one other's company.
rite MAYBELIN?!?
hahaha..
im waitin for hui an to date mi.
been a few weeks since i've seen her.
go rendang like duno how to cum back oledi.
and tt mongling too.
SIP totally MIA.
=]

and where's my CHOW XUELI?!?!!?!?!!?

2007-09-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

wento ut wit maybel yest.
realized i've been goin out wit her these few days.
mayb becuz i no huian wasnt free to acc mi.
haha..
sorri, babe. usin u as a subsitute. sort of la.

but den. i no u dun mind. LOL.

anyway, she wanted to shop ard.
so ya.
we reali shop ard.
IN ONE SHOP.
den she became so lazy to shop.
wad an auntie. =D

teck hui and jeremy came to join us after tt.
supposedly they wanted to go parkway.
but becuz maybelin wan to no who are they, and we like "da more da merrier."
and since they got nth to do.
so ya. =]

da 2 boys have been accompanyin mi for 2 straight daes.
practically we went to changi airport jus to have our dinner on fri.
and SUPPOSEDLY, they were there to do their project.
but ya la. as usual. wit MISS GUCCI ard, ther's nth called PROJECTS. =p
and i tink it's been some tym since we've met one other,
so they jus cant stop teasin mi.
okie.
it's a cycle actually.
jeremy was sittin in front of mi, so he jus cldnt keep his mouth shut.
so i cant find anyone, except teck hui to tease oledi.
actually ther's still 2 more other ppls, but im not close to them at all. and they're still studyin in sec sch.
so it's like "generation gap"?!!?
LOL.
no la.
jus cldnt click wit them except da 2 guys.
=]

anyway, back to da topic of SATURDAY.
went to HK cafe to eat our dinner.
tt auntie is jus not sick of tt cafe can.
she ate tt in da mornin too.
=.="

our peanut wit condensed milk bread....
saliva droolin............

and teck hui's..
he's such a basket.
keep on saein he's not hungry.
and in da end, this is so big can.
lol.
cant read their minds. these kids.
hhaah..
anyway, i jus duno y i kept on callin them "kids" when they're oni 1 yr younger.
i mean their tinkin's not tt childish at all.
at least we've got all kinds of topics to tok abt.
lol.
dinner with them was certainly nice.
hahahaa..

maybelin, jeremy asked to comply with teck hui.
i tink, tt'll be in my nxt life den.
hhaha..
no way am i gonna comply wit him.
unless he comply wit mi instead.
=D

and our mango ice kacang!!
wooh!!
tat's so high up can.
haha..
enough for 4 ppls to glup down everythin.
=]

anyway, saw alot of ppls at cine.
in jus one HK cafe, i oledi saw 3 of my frens.
dne ard icne, we saw tat ming and tat yi.
god. thye're still so tall and tat ming grew so man oledi.
haha.
NS do helps.
=]
and we saw din too.
okie.
da purpose of us goin cine was to see CHUCOLAT.
i mean, like TRY MY LUCK la.
and maybelin oso know tt he's my eye-candy.
so she dun mind goin there, since we can do some people-watchin.
but in da end, i saw so many ppls except him.
SOOOOO sad.
LOL.

told my babe i've made up my mind.
ya.
tis tym rd, im serious wit my decision.
no longer bein indecisive.
=D
im standin strong on my decision.
derek's still better.
HOT BODY, okie?!?!
OOPS!
wahahahahaha...

2007-09-29T14:51:00.000+08:00

da day when da floor deprived of SWEETNESS...

2007-09-28T09:09:00.000+08:00

yest was workin at bishan.
main pt was tt 4 of us worked on da same shift. FINALLY. =]
but too bad, wasnt many customers and jus keep on slacking ard.

feel like i've drifted apart frm da rest.
mayb due to da fact tt i didnt work as often as all of them and tt ive cant join them in their nite activities.
i mean, ya la. im da oni one tt's still studyin n currently having attachment.
so REALI. cant join them late at nite.
and also, i didnt tok to them as mcuh as last tym.
=]

they acc mi to tt bus stop.
and ya.
i jus miss walkin down tt whole stretch of road.
everyday walkin tis road wit jolene, ella after work.
it's like wit different ppls, ther'll surely be all kinds of fun ard.
that 2 were da ppls tt always walked wit mi.

long long tym ago, there was oni ella and i walkin down.
we call it da "juicy street".
we always tok abt anythin, frm ppls to ppls.
and practically i've sorta changed her to wad she is no.
i mean, it seems to be gd for her tt she has actually opened up so mcuh more, compared to last tym.
sometym i jus didnt no i wld have such a big influence in other ppls' life.
cuz normally, in my life, it's always da other way rd.

den as tym passed, jolene joined us too.
i've always told her tt i disliked her da moment she stepped into da shop.
cuz she jus got tt aura tat says "im cindy's sis. i got back hill."
and to mme i dun giv a darn to ppls who are like tt.
and i jus duno why one fine dae she join us after work.
and everytym she join us, i'll tell ella "wa lao. cut short my gossipin session wit her ard."
cuz she was one of da ppls tt we always tok abt.
and REALI. i duno when did we becum so close. REALI.
i disliked her and she's scared of mi.
like HOW la.
used to tok alot of crap wif her. till da extent tt we jus keep on missin our bus jus to make sure tat we finish tokin my topics.
but now, it seems like ther's isnt much to tok oledi.
evryone's so tired and shack after work.
and beside work stuff, it's still work stuff.
no more TELEPATHY.
social life reali gettin smaller and smaller for us.
=D

and ya. tt stretch of rd oso let mi no HIM.
i tink no need to mention name, all of u oso can guess who is it rite?
=]
last tym, when i used to be wearing uniform, he'll alwyas help mi take all my barang barang and slowly walked together.
he's quiet, but at least we no wad each other wans.
and i jus love walkin with him.with him ard, i jus feel da whole world is oni da both of us.
but now, everythin's back to square one again.
snapped back to reality.
sometym i keep on askin myself, am i still waitin for him.
is my waitin worth it?
i duno.
i jus duno anythin.
cuz da longer i wait, the more my heart's turnin colder and harder.
it's goin to be 2 mths since da breakup.
5 more daes.
and i still cant get over it TOTALLY.
ya. maybe da feelins had faded. but it's not faded COMPLETELY.
it took mi quite sometym to TOTALLY accept da fact tt derek n i can oni be frens.
but i duno abt tis now.
i wonder how long wld i need now.
i hate myself to be like tt.
he tod mi tt ther'll be one dae.
but to mi, it seems like "FORGET IT."

u aint givin chance to mi any longer, baby.
i jus dun wan everythin to end jus LIKE THIS.

workin wit them for too long brings all knds of memories back.
jus lookin at those spoiled cakes reminds mi of eugene and i always doin naughty tinks behind weiling's back jus to make her more stressed.
lookin at da kitchen reminds mi of all kinds of fun tt i once had and all those injuries tt i've got.
lookin at da whole of level 3 reminds mi of those ppls i've once gossip abt.
lookin at da lift reminds mi of goin to da darn hot n stuffy and tiny store.
lookin at da rubbish reminds mi of how we always compared who's stronger.
lookin at everythin reminds mi of how much fun i had as a staff.

wearin different clothes now reali means a lot.

got tis little wish.
if oni i cld wear da staff uniform back for one dae.
so tt i can have all kinds of fun.
=p

but all these are oledi in da past.
ther's nth more i can do except to move on.
no point keep on stayin at da same ground when everyone's movin on.
=x

she has changed.
changed to someone tt mayb even she herself duno who she is.
changed to someone who's overly sensitive and suspicious
changed to someone who did nth everydae except gettin emo and workin non-stop to numb herself frm everthin.
changed to someone who's keepin everythin to herself and carryin everythin on her shoulders.
changed to someone who put all da blame on herself.
changed to someone who no longer smile and joked every moment.
changed to someone tt is super duper pessimistic.

when will she changed to own self?

2007-09-27T11:28:00.000+08:00

it's great to be in da rain.
ur pains and sorrows get washed by the rain.
but ther's another reason why i like to be in da rain...

cuz no one will notice you when you're cryin.
RAIN and TEARS are the same.

2007-09-27T09:58:00.000+08:00

i need to self enlighten myself once again.
dun wan to get stuck at da same place and yet cldnt get anythin cumin out of it.

since da way ive got promoted, nv had i enjoy workin for each single dae.
reali reali reali reali reali regret it.

though quite sick of da job, but den again.
it's personal problems.
so i guess mayb i'll be able to get through it.

and im freakin free after attachment can.
so borin.
everydae work work and still work.

i dun mind workin at hilton.
so long as THEY DUN TRANSFER MI over.
=]
staff over ther were friendly.
but ya la. very slow at doin stuff.
i wonder how they can stand such a hot and stuffy and dirty place.
and i knew it.
askin mi to go over to help out for 1 mth is real bullshit.
REAL.
now it seems like PERMANENTLY.
those ppls jus cant keep their farkin promises.
and now it seems like i've to prove to them why i sld be back in bishan.
like, wad da hell can.
in da 1st place, it wasnt meant to be tis way at all can.

nvm. 6 mths will pass veri fast.
and i'll get out of HAAGEN DAZS.
i'll make sure i get out of there and find another PROPER job.

not eatin these few daes.
jus dun feel like eatin. for no reason.
better still.
on a diet indirectly.
got tt feelin i'll die young.
or maybe die old with all kinds of illness.
hahaa...

no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life no life

suddenly i miss sch.
TP's still da best place to be on weekdays.
at least i'll get to see different ppls everydae.
especially lookin out for candies.
lol.

my BEDOK RESERVIOR~~~~~~.

2007-09-27T09:57:00.000+08:00

you've CHANGED so much, but not da one tat i hate most.

2007-09-25T09:18:00.000+08:00

when responsiblilty cums into picture, everything jus changed.
i guess since they're givin mi shit, why in da world sld i do tinks perfectly for them.
so sorri, MISS GUCCI wont do tt if ppls dun treat her gd.
mayb in their dictionary, there's nth called "karma"

wadever~~~~~~~

had dinner wit maybelin at my house nearby again.
sori, babe!
for makin u boil da water, put in da noodles for 3 secs and wastin ur crab meat.
hahaha...
not my fault okie?
=D
and tanks babe!
see my blog becum like tt, and u didnt tink of anythin but to meet mi.
im touched. =x

anyway,accept da person la.
u need one for now. =]
or u need my approval tis weekend??
wahahha..
we need eye-candies more la, in fact.=p

oh ya. ask mr steven to forget his dreams of being an air-steward la.
it's near to impossible can.
OOPS! =x

and now, im all alone in da office.
both my frens had sup papers today.
so practically, im doin nth again.
actually ther's task for mi.
but jus dun feel like movin my butt off da chair 1st.
lol.

and i've found another entertainment besides FRENSTER.
CRUNCHYROLL!!!!
haha.
qn introduced to mi last sun, jus becuz i told her youtube was being restricted here.
blah blah blah.

REALITY says it's impossible for us.
and i no u dun wan to, baby.

2007-09-24T12:32:00.003+08:00

SHIT.
my fren sittin opp mi is playin songs tt i dun wish to listen to.
FOR NOW.
those CINA songs tt u ppls always like to sing in Kbox la.
=.="
gettin mi emo sia.
darn it.
and guess wad?
she's askin da title of da song tt i dread most.
and she actually likes tt song.
my god.
pls pls pls.
listening to too much of "pang sae" is bad for health.
=D
i wonder wad songs she still has.

and anyway. im not emo.
so no worries.
my stomach's callin for food urgently la.
LOL.

i still cant live one dae without u, baby.
i wan u back.

2007-09-24T08:59:00.000+08:00

sometym it makes ppls wonder wad's da mgt doin.
like, WAD DA FARK are thye doin in da office.
im gettin sick of them.
jus feel tt thye not showin mi any respect.
i've shown them da least respect oledi, no matter how much i dislike da way they do tinks.
but den they;re not showin mi any at all.
and i hate ppls who shows disrespect to mi.

so wad if they're frm da MANAGEMENT?!?
so wad if im oni a part-tym sup in tt farkin shop?
sldnt thye oso show some, not becuz im a sup, but becuz im a humam.
it seems as though to them, we're jus their tools to do wadever they wan and manipulate us in any form.

common on la.
stop tinkin tt all of u are one level higher and ignore other ppls' needs and wants. and cumin out wif all sorts of ridiculous ideas and stuff.

makin mi sick and tired of da job.
reali regretted promotin.
jus becuz i wan my resume to look nicer.
=.="

anyway, im very happy wit my attachment, ppls.
im not tokin abt my internship AT ALL.
=D

2007-09-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

suddenly felt tt im becumin a loner once again.

everyone's assumin im freakin busy.
social life gettin smaler and smaller da moment my attachment starts.
jus got tat feelin tt sometyms i'm being taken for granted.

i mean, it's like they'll oni look for u when they need u.
not for any reason, but jus for sake of being ther.

had some probs tis mornin and jus duno who to look for.
jus sooooooo.. disappointed at myself once again.

tot i've grown up, tryin to lessen other ppls's burden.
but it seems like im addin on to it.

tis HD job's givin mi alot of stress and probs.
or mayb, da main pt is im givin ppls probs.
all i wan was to try my best to do everythin nice and proper without givin others any worries.
but it seems like it's da opp.
i mean, i udn wan to get blacklisted again. but who cares anyway.
jus tt da tot of mi cant do closin for da dae, and makin other ppls to make a special trip down to da shop jus to close, makes mi feel as though im so useless and jus cant help much at all.

all along i tot. aiya. it's oni a part-tym job.
why take it so serious?
but den again,
when it cums to work, i jus wan to be serious in everythin and no longer havin fun abt.
and it's not da job tt's givin mi prob.
it's jus im not happy wit my self.
i mean, i no im not tat type of irresponsible person.
but da situation make mi seems like as though im one.
and i jus cant get over da stage of my own self.

feelin myself gettin more n more useless.
and more emotional and pesstimistic.
in da past, no matter how problematic da situation gave mi, i'll jus be optmistic and carry on.
i wont even cry over all tis shit, like wad's da pt, rite?
but now?!?!!?!?

ever since tt incident last mth.
im feelin im gettin weaker.
no longer tt strong girl tt i myself used to know.
always relyin on others when probs cum.
or was it becuz i cldnt keep it all to myself anymore.
was it becuz there's no more space for all tis shit to be kept inside.

i duno whether it's becuz of PMS/CMS tt's makin mi to feel tis way.
wonderin was my depression back again?
REALI.

i feel so..... NOT ME.

2007-09-22T17:14:00.000+08:00

okie.
after like, ONE WEEK.
miss gucci's finally adding fotos to her blog.
haha.
pls pls pls pls understand.
it's not i dun wan to upload.
but den, starin at da com frm MON-FRI for da whole is oledi bad enough for my eyes oledi.
and i need to improve my social and workin life at nite.
so of cuz i wont be hm early or even touch da com again ,rite??
=D
unless u ppls wan mi to turn blind and becum a loner.
hahahahaaha....

anyway. went to last sat to celebrate maybelin's bdae in advance.
as usual.
of cuz ther's ppls who are late la.
i guess i dun have to mention any names at all rite.
cuz thye themselve no who they are.
lol.
esp someone who came frm da VIETNAM VILLAGE.
even forgotten tt we're meetin up and ended up cumin at 7 instead of 5.
pls dun learn tis habit frm MISS MAYBELIN, pls.
ahhahahahaha...

so. while waitin fro mongling, we went to da resturant 1st.
legs were freakin tired.
=/

some resturarant at suntec basement.

maybelin wanted to tie her hair.
so someone has to hold on to da mirror for her.
luckily im not da one.
LOL.

but poor huian.
=.="

den.
ther's nth to do. except wait.
and ther's a camera lyin ard on da table.
so. ya la.
hahahahahahaahahahhahahaa....
cam-whorin without mongling!
hahah.
tat's so sad for her la.
=]

so unglam!

her perfect pose...

wit so many shades...
she jus love tt vintage shades tt we've brought for her frm KL.
see??
i told you ppls oledi, my sense of fashion can be TRUSTED okie?
i jus no wad they wants.
whaahahahahahah....
=D

and finally tt girl reached.
and we start to have our feast.
super duper hungry!
=]

i tell you, reali sld try tis place.
good KOREAN food and AFFORDABLE!!!
hahaha..

walked abt in suntec.
and tis mongling....
da moment she saw these machine, her childhood jus came back la.
haaha.

as though all tis machines and toys were long-lost.
lol.

jus cant resist some sales in some shops and ya.
start to play abt again.
duno why when ever we're together.
ther's nth except fun.
and UNGLAM stuff.
no wonder ppls keep saein we've got no image.
haha.
it's tym to, BABES!
=p

our borrow-ed shades..

wheeeeee!!

my 3 GIRLFRIENDS tt i'll cherished...
=]

see da diff between a VILLAGE girl and an URBAN girl???
wahahahahahaah.

unglam 1.

unglam 2.

and jus unglam 3!
=p

tis's like da 2nd tyn we 4 girls went out together.
haha.
and everytym ther's so much to update one another.
lol.

i reali reali reali wonder wad will happen durin OTC and FOC if we reali get to go.
together wif yuting, and etc,
will we be reali like mad-women crying during tt last few days?
hahaa.

mongling-jie. jus jus JUS go can, for da one last tym.
not for da freshies or TP, but for da 3 of us?
cuz tt's wher we 1st knew one other. and it's reali not tt easy to be in da same empire once again.
i tot u believe in FATE alot?
=]

went off to allen's bbq after tt for a while.
my god.
it's been real AGES since i've last saw all of them.
my CAI-YI-LING. nic chong and jy and da rest of empire.
n da moment we came, everyone jus miss tt HOLY CHANT specially for miss gucci la.

by MR JY & MR NIC CHONG.
okie. in between ther's some loss of lyrics.
but reali. u sld see their expressions.
funny expressions and lyrics and action.
wit SALIVA rainnin ard too.
it's darn funny la.
da moment i hear tt chant, i can jus stop laughin non-stop.
continous chants for 6 days actually make me miss it so much.
initailly wanted to record it to use it for my morning alarms, but my fone jus dun have tt function.
=.="

JY and its famous pose!
hahaa.
him and da tragic doll.
retarded.
=D

oh ya.
does tis reminds u of ESPLANADE???
hahaha..
i wonder whose speaker was tt?

out of a sudden,
i miss those days tt we once had, baby.

2007-09-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

went out wif da gurls last thurs.
been some tym isnce we've met up. as in da whole clinque.
n wad a surprise. nelly actually came.
i mean, it's like it's VERY VERY RARE to see her ard wit us. and it's like all of us were afraid tt she dunno wad we're tokin abt and how we laways have fun without any image.
LOL,

sorta celebrated pauline's and nelly's bdae together.
though it's like one week ltr. haha.

tis pauline is still sooooo camera-shy.
=]

nelly...
those daes when i used to sit nxt to her.
always copyin her work and askin her to wake mi up when da teachers cum.
lol.
THOSE WERE DA DAES.......

dne da session of CAM-WHORIN came in...
=x

weijun was jus randomly posin a pose.
den yuzhuang wanted to imitate her...
but da outcome was....

like, =.=""""""
=D

leavin tt quiet foodcourt and continue to cam-whor outside novena..

we jus love tis pose frm her!!!
hhaha..
so seductive!

and finally da teachers came.
why teachers rite??
hahaa
cuz miss ho, our previous form teacher, said she's soooo disappointed tt we didnt visit her durin teacher's day. so tis was sorta a small gathering.
=]

specially prepared by joanne.
haha.
for da 2 spoecial teachers.
=D

miss HO and mr WONG.
they're still good frens after so many yrs.
and it seems as though they didnt grow old at all.
unlike all of us...

oh ya. becca happen to be workin jus opp HD, at FILA.
so of ucz not forgettin her in da fotoshoot.
=]

mr wong drove weijun, serena, ms ho and i home.durin da journey,
practically everyone's confessin wadever we've did in da past.
so funny can.
like...

all of us were so afraid of mr wong whenever he's angry. cuz his eyes are FREAKINGLY big la.
den, miss ho said tt ruiqing n i jus dont belong to da class at all.
cuz of our attitude towArds sch and jus da fact tat,
OUR FACES WROTE THOSE WORDS "WE BELONG TO DA WORST CLASS, RATHER THAN DA BEST CLASS"

=.="
tt's like, so insultin la.
haha
but anyway, we've survived tt 2 yrs.

and oso, i've found out one fact.
im da oni one in da class tt went to DC befor can.
tt's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo SAD la!
=.="

2007-09-19T16:28:00.000+08:00

freakin BORED!!
had an event tis mornin at st james.
some media conference on CHINGAY.
and as usual im late.
luckily got other ppls who were later den mi.
den there wasnt much to do as well.
cuz too much of manpower.
so pratically NEWBIES like mi, no need to do anythin.

was QUITE a success though.
with everythin done on tym.
and i realized one tink.
loke i've said.
tis is a media conference.
so ther's bound to be alot of reporters an journalists.
and cuz ther's tis particular jornalist frm some reputable company who'll be covering tis event in their papers,
we actually have to wait for her befor da whole event starts.
and i was even asked to serve drinks to her.
like, WTH rite?!?
i mean, like even if she has inform us tt she'll be late, but tt doesnt mean everyone have to wait for her rite, jus becuz she's coverin da event on da reputable paper.
worse, some old woman, i tink she's da deputy director of da chingay division, asked mi to serve water to her.
=.="
shit da both of them can.

and during lunch, da ppls were gossipin.
as usual.
wad can humans do besides gossipin?
haha

and ya. company politics surfacin oledi.
and i can see tt practically everyone hates da same person.
tis person is still in-charge of everythin, frm top to bottom.
and he actually SELF-DECLARE himself as "CREATIVE DIRECTOR"
god.
to mi, he jus look like those uncle at kopitam can.
snatchin other ppls' speech when he himslef cant speak well and jus cldnt catch everyone's attention.
a BAD SPEAKER.
=p

anyway, supposedly i tot i can go hm and rest for awhile.
in da end, here i am. back in office again.
so boring.
no one to tok to mi can.
n im not in da isolated rm todae, so cant play any games at all.
one and a galf hr to go.
so sad.

and to make tinks worse, im workin at HD at ltr.
and I DIDNT BRING ANY CLOTHES TO CHANGE.
=.="
may god bless mi, can?
hHHHaaa

2007-09-14T17:08:00.000+08:00

seems like everydae befor my attachment finishes, i'll be bloggin.
SEEMS LIKE, huh?
cuz practically i'll be freakin free before i end work.
=]
n dun get envious tt we've got internet access, etc,etc.
cuz it means more damage to our eyes can.
WHY??
cuz it's like u gonna spend 5 and a hr doin nth, except staring at da screen.
and my contact lenses are freaking dry now la.
cant see properly.
i wonder wad'll happen after 3 mths.
LOL.
and frens, dun be surprised tt i wont be online at nite anymore.
cuz i dun wan to stare at da COMPUTER's SCREEN 24 hrs everydae.
i dun wan to damage my own eyes.
it's SICK.
=.="

if reali wan to tok to mi or wadever, ther's sth in tis world call "HANDPHONE"
=D

anyway, todae have more work compared to da1st 2.
guess they experience da life of INTERNS befor.
haha.
she dun wan to let mi do database stuff.
instead, more on media relations.
i mean, was bieng thrown into tis division whereby they focuz more on media.
suddenly feel so CMM n MARKETING.
haha..
and den, guess wad??
ive to cum out wif a proposal can.
ideas tt can help to increase web traffic of some website of theirs.
god.
win liao lor.
i hate tis type of tink can.
told them plenty of tyms "IM NTO A MARKETNG STUDENT".
WADEVER.

oh ya. finally met up wif maybelin for dinner at our house nearby.
her hair's grown longer.
much more.
haha.
and ermm. i tink FATTEr too??
=]
anyway, ya.
tok abt our lives and stuff.
and of cuz da other 2 gurls too.
haha..
tokin bad behind them.
=p

n somehow tokin to her seems to enlighten mi.
like, ONCE AGAIN.
i mean, its like.
wad's da pt of holdin on to someone when u know, deep down in ur heart, he's jus not da one for u.
and yet, bcuz ther's feelins and u jus cant let go everythin.
so da ON-OFF tingy cums to pict.
comparisons always cums in too.
and u jus feel tt dap revious one is much more more better.
but somehow, when u've made tt decision, it's kind of regretful though.
dunno why.

but anyway, we've tot tinks through.
RITE MISS SEE?!?!
lol.

catch up more on sat.
plus da other 2 too.
esp. OH HUI AN.
she jus went MIA after da fair can.
=.="
and ya.
MORE CAM-WHORING TML, pls!!!!!!!!

=D

till den!

2007-09-13T17:39:00.001+08:00

okie great.
2nd dae of attachment.
LATE for like 30 mis.
=.="
cuz i duno wher to alight and took all da way to paya lebar when my intern's kallang.
nvm.

2 hrs of slack-ness.
went up to ask my supervisor wad i can do.
and she said "give mi 10 mins."
in da end, 1 hr passed and still nth to do.

finally ard lunch time, i was given some task to do.
sort of designin some CD cover labels.
DESIGN huh??!?
lol.
den more filing stuff to do.

and now, pratically, i've got nth to do again.
darn, if my intern's gonna be like tt for da nxt 2 and a half mths, i tink i sld jus go hang myelf 1st.
LOL.
darn boring can.
like jus doin NOTHIN except facin da small little screen of da laptop.
and in tt little teeny ween screen, all it shows is FRENSTER, BLOGS, MUSIC and nth else.
hai....

was lookin thru some blogs of so-called "PRETTY GIRLS" introduced by cally.
all part tym freelance models.
okie. i duno.
mayb to mi, they jus look ALRIGHT.
jus TYPICAL SPOREAN GIRLS.
like those u can find in town area or clubs.
and da way they take fotos are totally SAME in all their fotos.
it jus happened tt most of them were frens.
so most of their recent posts were abt da same.
ther's one abt da ASIASOFT.
some computer convention i tink.
and it JUS JUS JUS JUS JUS JUS JUS happened MR DEREK LEE is da oni male model workin ther.
and they were goin ga-ga over him.
like wad, he's very handsome, very MAN n stuff.
=.="

BABES, see? i told u girls oledi.
he's being appreciated okie?
not like those comments u all gave.
wahahahahahaha...

if tis continues,
like tt how to tink POSITIVE??
=x

baby, im missin u badly.

2007-09-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

i duno whether its due to my on-cumin PMS or jus becuz im freakin bored.
went to hd to pass them some stuff.
being sometym isnce i've seen tt jojohui.
and ya. she jus like to ask mi abt HK.
and whenever she ask, i'll be pondering abt it whole nite.

always waitin for his calls or sms at nite.
wishin tt he wld jus call/sms mi jus like in da past.
when we used to tok till da middle of da nite.
but it seems like tis little wish of mine will no longer be fufilled.
he's gettin very obsessed into his PSP nowadays.
and jus feel tt my presence is no longer ther.
a PSP is much more impt and precious den a GIRL.
guys. GUYS. guys.

been one mth plus.
n it's seems like i still cant get over it.
everytym when i told myself "common girl, jus get over it, it's over.",
sth will happen and i jus cldnt get through.
i told myself i wont miss him anymore,
but memories jus find their way back into my mind.

wad's da pt of still hangin on here when he's oledi lookin for new targets?
or maybe, it seems like.
ya. ASSUMPTION.

i dun wan to have any high hopes any longer.
cuz da higher it is, da more difficult i'll get over him.
da feelins's still clinging on and jus cldt go away.
isnt it funny?
both still remain da same and yet, they udn wan to be together.

he wan mi to change.
jus like how he's changin for now.
but i reali cant find da reason n purpose why i sld change.
REALI.
i jus wan to be myself.

so wad if i look strong outside?
pratically im jus so weak inside.

lookin at myself.
im sure i've had enough.
im sick of frens tellin "go have ur fun, girl. dun be in love"
but it's tough to have fun wif a broken heart.

i nv tot tt tis wld happen to mi
i'd be in such a mess, im stressed.
yes baby.
im havin trouble lettin you go.

baby, i miss u so much...

2007-09-12T17:31:00.000+08:00

first day of ATTACHMENT.

im attached to PEOPLE"S ASSOCIATION.
like, WHY rite?!?
pls dun ask mi, ask TP instead.

anyway, PA's jus sth tt's not related to my major at all.
all of us were deployed to da LIFESTYLE N LIFESKILLS division.
it's sth to do wif evetns like CHINGAY, performance, etc, etc la.
so mayb ther's sth to do wif events mgt.

i was under CORPORATE AFFAIRS.
which means i'll be helpin them out wif all those events, meetin up wif external providers and more la.
not given a jop scope so im totally unsure wad im goin to do.
my supervisor jus tell mi verbally and generally.
=.="

anyway, we reported at ard 10++
cuz ther was a fire drill goin on. and da secruity refuse to let us in.
den ther was miscommunication n da person tot tt we were late.
like, fire drill of cuz not our prob rite?
LOL.
and ther was this general orientation ard da whole place.
den we were assigned int otis little room.
where we're gonna spend 3 mths ther.
god.
i see nth except CHINGAY, CHINGAY and still CHINGAY.
guess tt's their major project currently.
hahaa...

anyway, whole tink last till abt 12 and we jus went back to our room and...
it's LUNCH TIME.
so, practically, we didnt do anythin at all.

and why im so freakin free to blog out?

da other 2 were given tasks to do.
but i was not.
all i was told is i need to browse thrugh their websites and provide some TEENAGER'S comment. after which, some ppls will assign some tasks to mi.
but den, it's oledi 5.40pm
and im still doin nth.
cant watch youtube.
so frenster is da oni way to kill tym oledi.
LOL.

wad a FIRST DAY.and my feet's hurtin.

SOMEONE pls buy mi a new pair of heels.
im broke.
=D

2007-09-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

okie. im supposed to blog out everythin abt da trip actually.
lol.
if not some ppls gonna scream at mi.
but den, tt SOME PPLS always take mths to send mi da rest of da fotos.
=.="

okie. anyway.
went to KL wif mong ling n co. last thurs.
practically, everyone's bringin their own frens.
like jasmine n dora, mong ling and i, and lincoln and FREN.

ya. FREN.
he got a name. but ya la. due to da fact tt MISS GUCCI jus like to call ppls 'FREN'
lol.

anyway, tt viet woman cldnt slp durin da bus journey.
i oso duno why. and at certain period of da journey, i've got no choice but tok to her no matter how tired i am.
jus to entertain her.
job of ENTERTAINER is not easy to be.
=D

and cam-whoring came into da pict...

reach KL ard 9++ pm.
and tanks to tt slow n lazy bus driver, we missed da last bus to GENTING.
have to take a cab up.
and ppls see us as KIDS, so we got cheated.
as in, da cab fare can be much more cheaper.
but due to our deperate-ness...

and by da tym we FINALLY reach genting, it's oledi like 11++
and there's no more restaurant for us.
have to settle for some simple YET expensive supper.

tis FISH & CHIPS is like nice lookin but. TOO oliy.
not worth it..

tt's da resort tt we're stayin at.
it's actually at da middle of da mountain.
quite coolin though.
=p
cant do muhc stuff ther though. cuz was quite late.
so everyone sort of have an early nite.

SECOND DAY

WEEEEE!!
gettin ready to genting.

da gurls...

and whole bunch of ppls..

have to take a shuttle bus up to take da cable car up.
so it's like, transportation wise, we jus keep takin and takin non-stop.
LOL.

inside da cable, we jus keep jokin abt.
everyone's so scared tt da cable car will jus drop.
cuz it keeps stoppin and it actually REVERSE.
and it's freakin quiet at da jungle.
no sounds except or JUNGLE sounds.
=.="
and some guys actually sae it's da sound system.
who in da world wld wan to put a sound system ther when ther's NATURAL sounds.
hahaha...

went to look for food 1st.
and of cuz we're gonna chose places wher spore wldnt have.
went to MARYBROWN for BRUNCH.
god, their chicken is even SMALLER den KFC's can.

and finally. off to play!!!!!

gettin ready to zoom off.
=D

im in LONDON!?!?

oh ya. one funny tink.
okie. we were supposed to put all our bags into da locker befor we can proceed to play a certain ride.
due to da reason tt we want to save a few bucks, we decided to squeeze everyone's into one.
and s usual, my bag's da smallest, so it's da last to go in.
of cuz, it's freakin full and jus cant close properly.
so our MR LINCOLN sae "tis type of tink oni one method to solve it, and tt is to FAST CLOSE."
and ya. he use tt method and da locker was locked.
but den i sae da clip of my bag was underneath da locker's door.
but we assume tt it'll be able to opened up after our ride.
so, ther we go, happily to play.
DEN.......
when we tried to open it, it jus REFUSED to open and caused another locker to be jammed too.
"my $70 CRUMPLER BAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
we tried all kinds of methods but it jus wldnt open.
so no choice, have to wait for da technicain to cum.
and u no wad??

1st. he used to SCISSORS to tryin pryin da locker.
den to no avail.
and da nxt tink he took out was a PRYER.
i was like "dun tell mi u're goin to cut it la! my 70 bucks CRUMPLER BAG can!"
and he reali cut it.
luckily, lincoln stop him in tym.
u no y?
cuz he's afraid tt da moment da technician cut it off, he've to pay mi 70 bucks.
and he's freakinly guilty of da whole incident.
=.="

now my bag got scratches oledi.
sick.

went off to shop ard inside da shoppin center.
and i saw tis row of cakes.
they look SOO FAKE can.

den ther's nth to do, so we decided to watch a movie.
some HK show "NARAKA 19"
practically, we jus udn understand wad da show was abt.
but main pt is,
we were sittin on OSIM massage chairs while watchin.
ya. massage chairs.
so worth it can.
da cost of da ticket was jus da cost of a normal ticket in spore la.
haha..
tt's so shiok.
=p

off to eat dinner.
at some places in da da middle of da mountain.
i oso duno wher zit.
haha..
had some chinese food.
their menu's darn cute.
it's all written on da walls wif no price wif it.
which means tt they can jus give u any amt tt they wan.
to be safe, we tried not to order any seafood.
haha..
cuz mong ling and family was cheated previously.

all tis for RM80!

while waitin for bus, it was freakin cold.
it's like RAINING and strong winds jus keep blowin.
and our bus jus left.
which menas we've to wait even longer.
den tis viet woman came out wif some stupid ideas of playin.
saein we sld our bodies to form da words "SOS"
so tt ppls will cum to save us.
LAME.

tryin our best.
=p

cam-whorin again.

went off to buy some supper.

god. tis big brownies jus cost RM5.
so chocolate can!
hahaha...

went down to KL da net mornin.
and went to take their train.

tis statino was sth like CITY HALL.
so many lines for ppls to take and can jus lose ur way.

and their standard ticket.
been long long tym since we've used those slot-in cards.
lol.

have to look for hotels da moment we reach our destination.
it's a SAT. which means it'll be freakin difficult to ifnd gd hotels.
so everyone decidedd tt so long as ther's BED and TOILET, it's settled.
found one tt's quite near to da terminal.
and god. it's FREAKIN SMALL to accomodate 8 ppls can.

jus no need to walk..
hhahaha..

went off to walk abt after some rest.
and tt street tt i wanted to go to is like, jus one street away can.
haha..
shop till we dropped.
=D

went to TIMES SQUARE.
jus mong ling n i.
cuz da rest were jus too tired to walk.
and ther's tis prison [i tink] in da middle of nowhere..

and ya. SHOPPIN once again!
ppls were lookin for causal clothes.
but our main motive was actually formal clothes.
tanks to our internships.
haa..
and it's oso much cheaper ther.

ther's actually 12 storeys altogther.
cant expect mi to go all da way up la.
haha...
our max was 4/5th floor.
cuz our legs were freakin tired and im havin a bad headache at da wrong tym.
lol.

took a train back.
and tis is da second tym some locals told us da wrong tink.
mayb it's becuz we're unfamiliar iwf da whoel place, so practically we jus keep walkin and usin our sixth sense to get back to wher we wanted to go.
hee..

and den, we're back to da same steet again.
it's freakin crowded.
and da ppls weere scary.
jus becuz i dun wear like wad da locals wear, they jus keep pesterin us.
and i jus cant stand it.
and guess wad.
i tot my name's quite prominent to frens oledi.
but i didnt no my face's so prominent too.
it's like, ppls at da street actually recognize mi as thier customers can.
=.="
am i tt RECOGNISABLE?!?!

our goods after 6 hrs of NON-stop shoppin.
=]

last day, and everyone's gettin ready to go back.
tym passed darned fast huh.
haha..
some random fotos tt i've taken...

oh ya. went to eat KFC. cuz A&W was too crowded.
and da guys were lame can.
okie. da malay word for "RESTAURANT" was "RESTORAN"
and u no wad da guys sae??
"u no why izit call RESTORAN??
cuz it's a place for u to REST OR RUN. got money den RESt. no money den RUN."

so lame la.
like tt oso can.
ahahaha..

their zinger meal.
no cheesy FRIES. so WEDGES replaced it.
=]

cute rite, da burger?
haha..
spore wont have tis can.
haha..

a fruitful journey.
at least get to know more A&F students.
and jus no need to worry abt finance.
cuz they'll help u calcuate.
hahaha....

internship startin TML.
hopefully it'll be a gd one.
=]
den i wont mind da fact tt it's at KALLANG.

2007-09-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

stop puttin tt FARKIN blame on mi.
so wad if i've went overseas iwf my FRENS, instead of U.

i mean da whole house's frakin mess, DEN?!?
isnt it darn OBVIOUS tt im not even at hm to clear everythin?
and worse, im not dao ne who create all tis farkin mess.
always quarrelin wif ur beloved son,
and den put all da blame on mi.
like as though it's my fault la.
helo la.
so wad if he got exams.
SO???
are u tryin to tell mi tt he got exams so he can make a mess of da whole place and not cleairn up?
and i've to clear up all his farkin mess.

i dun see any diff when i have mine.

common la.
i'm no longer tt small little girl tt used to be.

2007-09-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

wat's wrong wit noeadays kids?!?

tryin to act as though they're matured both PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY.

sick ppls.

2007-09-04T10:53:00.000+08:00

i HATE pple who lie to me.
sweet-talkin is NO USE.

cuz ur FARKIN lies will be revealed da nxt dae.

BASKET.

2007-08-29T11:39:00.000+08:00

okie. finally got some tym off to update in here.
gettin more n more dusty and rusty now.
=D

exams period.
and jus NO TIME to write anythin.

was supposed to study yest.
but ya. wj ask mi to meet da gurls.
and since it's been MONTH we've met, i guess i've no SLEEP at oledi.
ya. in da end i study till 4am.
=.="

went to NTU's hostel to visit them.
god, their hostel were like somewher in da middle of da jungle.
so ulu ulu.
and tt yz actually tinks tat she gto dengue.
dun sick.
hahaha...
anyway, their room were kinda SIMPLE.
got da basic stuff.
and ya. forever tinks from IKEA.
haha...

eveyone still remain da same.
forever so chatty and more.
like gossispin, plannin all kinds of stuff, etc.
=D

den was cam-whorin again.
as usual.
wit my cam.
hhaha..
they always take a few secs/mins to adapt to my cam.
in da past, practically da whole class jus no how to use my cam.
and all i need to do is jus to bring to sch and pass ard da class.
=]
and when i took it back, i'll be like browsin thru 100++ fotos.
tat's our highest record in jus one dae can.
or sld i sae, one MORNIN?!?
lol.

anyway, here's da fotos!
=p

yz and her froever 'ACT-CUTE' face...

xj and her funny pose... like in, ermm.. KFC ?!?!

xy n wj.

tym passed so fast huh?!?!
once we were still playin ard in CBSS.
now..
all of them are in uni oledi.
didnt no tt we've known one another for so long.
hahaha...
esp. wj.
since sec 1, huh?!?!
lolx.
though our appearance has changed sooooo much, but.
and our character still remain da same.
=]

2007-08-23T02:18:00.000+08:00

no GOVERNMENT till saturday nite.

WOO-OH!!

2007-08-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

was watchin da National Rally jus now.
okie. i'm not tt loyal to spore.
but it JUS happen tt im switch on da tv, and pratically EVERY channel i tuned to, i see LEE HSIEN LONG.

sick.
=.=
anyway, main pt is not tis.

jus happen tt he was tokin abt education topic.
and he mentioned "MAYFLOWER PRIMARY SCHOOL"

I was like..
ermm..
is ther a need to mention tis WU YUE HUA sch tt produce ppls like mi?
lol.

and he said sth like,
da teachers there were very caring towards da studnets, always hlepin them not jusi n studies but oso CHARACTER-wise and outside of sch's life.

i was like...
"isnt that MRS JESSE CHING?!?"
our all-tym favourite teacher.
it's like. she show concern more to our character rather den studies.
and she reali go tt extra mile jus to make all of us changed for da better.
and afer we graduste, she did changed like almost da whole class.
cuz ther's always things in our memories tt we always rmb.
like how she punish us whenever we do anythin stupid. and she teachin us almost EVERY subjuect except for mother tongue.
LOL.

oh.
den he mentioned sth abt MUSICAL.
ya.
he attended MFPS's 1st musical.
tt was my 1st and last musical in tt sch.
and so much attention was drawn to it.
da sch building was like, turned into a COLORFUL place jus for his arrival.
and in my last yr in tt sch.
i tink isaw quite a bit for plps frm da govenment sector.
n oso, becuz of tis musical, all my frens said i was totally affected by it.
as in my life totally changed aftef tt.
i became like who i am now.
CURRENTLY.
so drama-mama.
ahaha...
or did i?!?

and PM ended wit sth like wad, "we teachers here have to actually asked them to keep quiet."

hhaha...
ya. quite truee though. we tok non-stop in class. or JUS EVERYWHER.
mayb it's mite be frm tis sch tt i've become so chatty.
tokin non-stop for hrs.
=]

i dun regret cumin frm tt sch.
hahaha..

2007-08-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

went out for awhile wit hui an.
like. AS USUAL.
haha.. =.='

anyway. she's jus ACC-in mi to marina.

GF.
i no u MIGHT BE still tinkin of wad we see at MS.
but ya. he's jus a freakin BASTARD.
jus treat him as though he dun exist.
cuz it's not worth it to let him get wad he wan.
and not even worth it to get dissappointed over him.
like... wad's da pt rite?
and jus dun conclude "GUYS ARE BASTARD" all becuz of him.
i mean, it's like, one dae or another u'll find a better one,.
a much more better one.
=D

okie. enough of all those bullshit.
i guess oni both of will understand.
=]

some random fotos taken at HK cafe...

oh.. we were liek listenin to some cihnese songs boardcast over tt cafe.
and came tis S.H.E's "shi mian mai fu"
and jus conincidentally.... our pasta seems to be like tt too.
hahaha...

watch fireworks too.
15 mins worth of it.
and i've got so many tots to it can.
lol.
and it's like so random.
like...

1. income tax. propety tax. parents' money GONE jus like tat.
2. how in da world did they shoot so high?
3. all trulbes in my life go POP, jus like it.

and more....
haha..

mayb da last fireworks showcase will be on MAYBELIN's bdae again.
jus like last yr.
and HOPEFULLY, tt babe wont MIA/chu pattern again.
LOL.
mayb by tt tym, we 4 babes can meet up again.
=]

oh ya...
here's some foto tt u sae u wan frm da previous outin..
=D

2007-08-18T11:14:00.000+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Boy you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Boy I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

i love you, it's not for people to see...

2007-08-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

last week to enjoy myself befor muggin for exams.
god. it's like..
i dun even have da mood to touch all those papers yet.

exams oso complain.
no exams oso complain.
hai...

hopefully hope tt my projects and coursework can help to pull my GPA up.
cant afford to drop again.
and i dun wan SUb papers.
must prove to tt BENNY IOKE tt im not a slacker and i dun take subpapers.
haha..

anyway, went to watch movie wit rach,mali and chum toda.e
gosh. i've been spending quite a bit on movies tis few daes.
it's like last wed one, yest i jus watch one, and todae another.
jus 3 weeks oni, and i've watch like 5 movies?!?
=D

oh ya. 881's a nice show.
haha...
not as bad though.
=]

i realized im doubtin all ur actions and words now.

2007-08-13T22:55:00.001+08:00

i need to tok to someone.

befor i tell it to da whole world INDIRECTLY.

so someone jus call mi can.

=.="

2007-08-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

wooh!

i get to no secrets todae.
SECRETS tt cant be revealed.
and i jus cant imagine all tis stupid stuff tt actually came out of someone's mouth.

and i realized so many tinks todae, like ONCE AGAIN.

dun judge one book by its cover. COMPLETELY.

u've got NO RIGHTS to sae someone who oni judge APPEARANCE more than CHARACTER if u urself is one too.
to tink i'll actually beleive wadever u've said.
tt someone mite be childish at his/her age.
but u're older den him/her and u actually had da same tinkin as him/her.
i dun see it a pt why u cant face other ppls.
why wld u wan to care abt other ppls' opinions if u truely love tt person?
sldnt it be tt u'll love tt someone no matter who he/she is?

okie. i no.
we've got diff views.

and one more tink.
dun try to make mi to a GUINEA PIG in da love experiment.
im not a toy to play ard wit.
being indecisive is not an excuse.

mayb ppls say ...
"oh.. she/he's a gd person. REALI. u sld give her/him a chance."

but u no wad, as a FREN n as a GF/BF.
it's TOTALLY TWO DIFFERENT MATTER.

2007-08-13T15:23:00.000+08:00

im hatin my own curiosity.
like, im jus so curious abt some stuff.
den when i find out abt da fact/truth, it jus pissed mi off.
TOTALLY.
cuz i wasnt da truth tt i wanted to no.

and twice oledi.
when i told myself i can get over it, and tt i can still get on my life.
but, da very nxt moment, i;ll find out abt some stuff.
shocking stuff.

i didnt no he can jus forget abt everythin so easily.
everythin tt happen for da past mth.
since tt's da way he wan it to be, den LET IT BE.

i dun see it a pt why i sld treat it as memories any longer.

u're makin mi more heartbroken through ur actions.
total disappointment in u.

tt wasnt wad i wan at all.
im gettin sick and tired of it.

u no how happy i am todae.
but jus becuz of some news tt i went to dig deeper,
im totally not in da mood oledi.

FARK.

jus forget abt it can.
fark.

RANDOM THOUGHTS:
regret deletin those sms tt was once in my old fone. jus becuz SOMEONE once upon a tym dun like it. DARN IT! tt sld be those memories tt i sld rmb.

FARK FARK FARK.

im totally pissed off now.
TANKS AR!!!!!

2007-08-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

SUPPOSEDLY i've to upload all tis like... LONG TYM AGO.
haha...
been quite busy tis few daes.
ya. i no someone gonna sae,
"as if u're very busy sia. busy wad??!? busy EMO-ing?!?"
=.="

anway...

went out wif hui an and mong ling on tue.
tanks babes!
=]
u all sld no why i asked u out on tues rite?
i'll love all of u!
but for mong ling, i need to consider oledi.

on ONE condition: JUS JUS JUS join OTC for da one last tym.
it's not abt da empire or conflicts or wadever.
it's all abt fun. FUN and experinece and most imptly, MEMORIES frm da camp, babe.

maybel, hui an and i SINCERLY and WISHFULLY hoped tt u can join us.
=D

okie. enough of crap...
=]

went to eat suki sushi wit hui an 1st.
like, FINALLY.
cuz she say all of us PS her on mon. =]

happily lookin for food...

and concentratin on mixin da wasabi...

SUSHI!!!
our favourite.
didnt eat much though.
cuz was quite full, and for da whole week, i didnt feel da word "HUNGRY" in my dictionary at all. =D

okie.. wad im tryin to do is im actualy we're tryin to eat till a level whereby i can jus cover my face. TOTALLY. but. ya. i tried my best oledi. =]

and da staff keep cumin to out table to coleect da mepty plates, but i JUS refused to.
hahahahaha....

mongling came and went to play "PHOTOHUNT"
hahah...
highness ans craziness again.
tnaks to those stupid songs tt they were playin, affectin all our mood.

den wanted to revive those "childhood memories" tt we had in da neoprint shop.
suddenly it seems so wrong to step into da shop. LOL.

1.

2.

3.

off to taka...
sometym goin taka to play is oso quite fun.
hahaa..
like.... =.="

cam-whoring at da toilet AGAIN...
jus NOT sick of it.

welcome to da world of MAN, hui an.
wahaha...

cant stand tis woman, go toilet oso wan to study.
SICK.

and yes, while walkin..
we can oso play..
like tt...

i no im havin been myslef for da past week.
and 2 besties have said i've changed.
changed for da worse.
but den again, i guess it's tym to be back to myself again.
been destroyin my own life for da one whole week.
like...
cryin non-stop, smokin like nobody biz, didnt eat proper meals and drinkin like as though im drinkin water.
even i oso cant stand myself.
li,ke, why in da world am i in tis state jus over one pathetic guy.
worse still, he dun even no abt all tis at all.
and guess he lwdnt even care at all.
so wad's da pt of all tis.

anyway, i've tot it over. REALI.
i duno why tis mornin when i woke up, tis random tot jus came to mind.

it's like "if u tink u wan to emo, den jus continue to emo. but wad's da pt of u bein emo when no one knows, and tt everyone will be so afraid of u and dun even understand u. BUt if u tell urself, tt u can be HAPPY, den all da more, u'll be. cuz ur heart, mind and soul are linked."
=D

den...
i'm SOO enlightened by myself now..
wahahahahaha....
=p

2007-08-09T10:56:00.000+08:00

seems like life's gettin a little better.
wit ppls to acc da whole dae.
since tt dae.
almost everydae, everyone seems to be finding mi.
esp. HUI AN.

tanks babe!
been seein u so many daes.
gettin sick of ur face oledi.
whaah..
NAH...
tanks for bein ther.

mayb tym can help everythin.

i dun wan to rush for an ans anymore.
ya. i no. tt's my character for always been rash.
when it cums to tis, i realized tt i've to be freakin patient if i wan everythin to be perfect and da same again.
but i dun wan to wait for too long.
esp. if da ans wasnt da one tt i wan to listen.
i mean, i've to face da fact sooner or later.
but NOT NOW.

and i've been waitin for ppls anyway.
dun wanna waste so much tym.
mayb when da tym cum and he realise tt tis is wad he wan, den......

was tokin to mong ling and hui an da other dae.
realized tt da 3 of us actually agreed on some stuff.

it's like we've been single for so long and all of us are like deprieved of being loved.
so when we finally found one, we wanted to do alot of tinks tt we wished to do.
but. in da end, everythin ended too soon.
cuz our expectations are always far from da reality.
i mean, it's like we wish our guys wld be sth of our expectations,
but it turn out to be da other way.
tt's y ther'll b more disappointment.

guess tis tym rd, it'll be hard to get over it.
harder den da previous 2.

2007-08-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

it was supposed to be a one-mth ani.
and kenny's bdae.

but in da end, i wasnt even happy at all.
like i've sae, SUPPOSEDLY.

things still remain da same between us.

if oni.
everythin turn out to be fine.
IF ONI...

'self-doubt means FAILURE.'

guess i sld jus stop it.

i sld persist on wad im tinkin and not listening to wad other ppls said.

so long as i tink im doin da rite thing.

shall wait for him till da dae when he noes wad he wans.

and hopefully it'll be da ans tt i wan.

mayb when tt dae cums, i mite have different response to it.

hahah...

tanks huian and mong ling.
though u girls know tt u're da subsitutes for him,
but glad tt both of u were ther for mi.
at least im not alone on tis "SPECIAL" dae.
and of cuz im able to get him out of my mind for once.
=]

at least he still cares for mi.
but mayb as a fren for now.

2007-08-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

Searching for a HOLE to hide myself....

2007-08-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

i jus found tis:

Guys cry because...

1. Girls screw them over...
2. They just got hit in the balls...
3. They're about to die...
4. Their heart is broken..
5. Because they are true men.
6. Got cheated on and took her back,
then it happened again

GIRLS: If you see a man crying, hug him
close and hold him up as he gets over
the pain of getting kicked in the nuts.
Tell him he's not going to die, and if
he's crying over a girl... hug him and
kiss him and let him know you won't
screw him over and break his heart like
the last girl did. men just want to
know
that our girls will be there for us to
support us when we need them and help
us
get our mind off the pain of
heartbreak,
getting kicked in the balls, and
knowing
we're gonna die.

Girls cry because...

1. They're sad... [sad tat their bf's gone]
2. They're scared... [scared tt da world's fallin apart when they had a break-up]
3. They're nervous...
4. They're frustrated... [frustrated when their bf didnt reply them]
5. They're missing someone... [so much that they cried]
6. They're alone...
7. They're PMSing... [which girl dun PMS, may i no]
8. They're pregnant..
9. Their heart is broken...
10. They're in love... [break-up oso cry, in love oso cry. so contradictin..]
11. Their souls have been torn...
12. THEY MET A BOY THEY CANT HAVE... [da perfect one which can oni see yet not touch]
13. They fell in love with a boy...
14. They hurt so bad inside...
15. They're mad...
16. Something bad happend...
17. JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE CRYING

******:MEN If any girl you know is
crying and you see them, don't just
stand there and say you're sorry. Hold
them and tell them everything will be
okay, even if you have no idea what is
wrong with them. Girls just want to be
held and know that someone cares about
them.

he nv hold my hands befor when i cry.
he didnt even no wad to do when i cry.
and out of so many, i experienced 10.
so tt means im still a girl at heart.
=D

2007-08-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

da whole world is tellin to CHILL.
includin him.
but how da FARK u wan mi to?

i oledi sae befor tt i dun wan to fall into tis shit again.
but everytym i'll believe them and make myself suffer in da end.

i mean, it's like i todl u ppls tt im afraid of this shit oledi.
but ya. u ppls always make mi believe tt ther's hope in it.

den?
wad did i get back in return?
it's not da 1st tym oledi.

tis is a 3rd CONSECUTIVE one.
and im feelin tt i cant take it anymore.

1st, ther's derek.
tis is one big blow.

den ther's kenny.
another one big blow.

now, another one!

i've got a small little heart.
and too many attacks can cause heart failure.

jus wasnt myself for da past 3 daes.
wad's happenin? i duno.

sat, nearly get knocked down by car and didnt eat da whole dae.
sun, nearly cut my hands and vomitted wadever i've eaten.
todae, psycho myself to eat sth.
cuz i no if i dun eat anythin, i'll die soon.

i tot i was okie yest.
wit ppls to entertian mi da whole dae.
met up wif my dearest for dinner.
at least she's my entertianer for da nite.
and i realized tt she and her bf oso faced same prob initaially.
but they wer still happily together after like, 1 yr.
hai..
i cant even tolerate for a month.
she ask mi to cry out if i feel like last nite.
but den.
NO TEARS dropped out totally.

jojohui ask mi to chill like AGAIn.
=.="
ya. im giving him tym to tink.
and myself too.
but it's not easy to cihll for tis one whole week.
jus dun wan to be all alone.

but todae.
it's seems like da cycle is back again.
cant take it once agian.
was takin da bus to sch jus now.
and memories jus flood back again.

can someone jus JUS birng mi to a world with on love??
i wan to leaRN to survive in ther befor i return to tis world again.

or jus ask mi out to go anywher under da sun.

becuz TIS IS REALI NOT MISS GUCCI oledi.
i no u ppls nv see mi like tt befor.
even I MYSELF TOO.

so scared of my own self.
wad da fark.

2007-08-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

went to changi airport to celebrate dee's bdae.
finally,everyone's sick of TOWN and XLB.
hahaa...

had FISH & CO. instead.

and it's llike everyone's havin da same stuff can.
lolx.

while waitin...

qian ning and her so-called ANTI SHAKE..
=D

dee and rach wif theri ENOMORUS drink.

cher n i...

and dee's like EATIN da sauce can.
all tis were finished up her ALONE.
nxt tym jus drink them okie, chum?
haha...

den went to toilet.
and ya. did our usual interest ONCE again.
haha..

nice pic!
but i sae qn dun seems to belong in it.so...

she hid herself in da cubile
lolx.

and tis 2 women jus duno wher to look can.
wan to take mirror image but duno need to look at wher.

some random fotos of mi.
and they were happily clickin their cam fones.
=.="
INCONSIDERATE frens i had.=p

i've got myself a now job!
no more DUSTBIN!=D

and tis jus reminds mi of those scenes in da jail.
haha..
tokin to one another wit a glass panel in between.=p

den dee sae she like sunflower.
da nxt momnet, it jus appear in front of her.
ahha,...
so nice of us rite?!?
lolx.
nxt tym pls dun sae u like car, pls!
we cant afford..

i oso wan SUNFLOWER!
i tink i need MOO MOO ice-cream more for now.
=.="

and witihn mins, qn spoil it.
i duno how in da world did she did tt.
ahaha..

went for a haircut on fri.
God.IT:S FREAKINGLY SHORT can!
even i myself oso cant stand it.
sick.
look like a man now.

anyone wan a date wit mi?!?
im AVAILABLE now.
one condition: GIRLS only.
whaahhahahahahah....

anyway, we girls like FINALLY meet up.
hah.
in like 2 yrs tym.
like da FOUR OF US.
tanks to tt 2 busy women who finally make it a pt to join us. =]
haha. and it's so coincidence.

both of them jus wore everythin da same.
twin huh?!?=D

so much fun at LJS.
duno why everytym whenever da 4 of us were together,
ther's nth except MADNESS.
ahhaa..

ther's a ghost in LJS.
it jus keep tokin to itself.
eeeeeee...

my new babe.

and not forgetin my old babe.
=p

mayb and her long-lost MERLION pose.

okie. wad we're tryin to show her is tt we're tryin to compare whose FAIRY can fly.
as needless to sae.
of cuz it's MAYBELIN's can.
wahhahaa..

walked to DG to play for awhile.
and ya.no viet woman. nvm. we still can have madness.
hahaa..

den went off to meet HD ppls.god.
they're jus crazy bunch of ppls.

da 4 heavenly kings and queens.
BLACKS.

or sld i sae. da 4 BLACK-LISTED ppls in HD?
hhaha.

da JOJO-s.
JOlene, JOanne lim, and JOanne seah.

she seems so happy wif mi sittin on her can.
ahaha..

and ya.
tt's all!
=D

2007-08-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

today's horoscope.
Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)

You've come to a long-anticipated crossroads in one of your relationships,
and things could change significantly -- depending, of course, on how you treat today's dramas. If you can have patience with this person's outrageous behavior, you will grow closer in a way you were hoping. Health problems could be worrying you right now, but too much time spent online could freak you out.

do they need to be so accurate?!?!
ya. crossroads now.
duno wad to choose for now.
ya. todae's drama.
it's SOOO unlike mi to cry so much in one dae can.
and yes, my haircut is being criticized once again by JY ppls.
ya, patience with tis somebody.
i tink im tryin to get used to it.
ya. health problems.
didnt eat da whole dae todae. no appetitie.
and im online now.

so wad in da world is happenin?!?!

but we've got da same horoscope.
so does tis applies to him too?

2007-08-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

im totally not in da mood to upload or update anythin for da past few daes' events.
it was meant to be a happy outin.
but i reali duno wad cums to my mind at tt moment.

i've runined everythin once again.
and tis tym, it's OVER.
completely.

he cldnt take my nonsense anymore.
yest nite was his limit.
and i exceeded it.
i dun blame him for anythin.
cuz all along i knew, somehow or antoher.
it's me tt's always creatin all kinds of problems.
ther's too many misunderstandin and miscommunication.

we were singing k.
wif my colleagues.
den da 1st song tt they sung was tt song tt someone sang to mi befor.
and da past jus keep on flooding back into my mind.
tt's y i was so quiet suddenly.
it's wasnt becuz of him being quiet beside mi at all.
jus tt i dislike myself to be tinkin of my past when he's jus rite beside mi.
den i jus went out of da room.

all i wan was to be alone walking along da street of orchard rd.
but he came out. he was worried.
as usual i dun appreciate it at all.
i mean u ppls know tt when i wan to be alone, i reali mean it.
but den...
i jus tell him wadever i was tinkin.
but all i get back was slience.
it's so difficult to no wad he's tinking when he didnt tok at all.

and i jus realized how much i love him when he vomitted out of a sudden.
i realized tt he's being so stressed by mi, tt's y he kept on drinkin.

but after all tis incident, tt was it.
i've got da feelin tt he wld tell mi tt sooner or ltr.

he sent mi hm, but i didnt went hm yet.
was strollin abt at my house's downstairs.
den came da news.

suprisingly, i didnt even cry at all when i saw tt sms.
instead, i actually laughed at myself.
for bein so accurate and STUPID.

but, da nxt dae was horrendous.
practically i jus cldnt even control my tears glands.
i tried to pretend nth happen, even if they do ask, i'll jus sae im sick.
i didnt no when im slient da whole dae,
ppls will actually find out abt it and ask mi wad happen.
i didnt no i was so noisy.
ther wasnt alot of customers todae. and most of my frens were workin nite sihft.
which mean, i;ve got no one to tok to.
all i cld no was jus tink, tink, and still tink.
den came weiling and ella.
god. da moment they came, i jus walk into da back room and cry non-stop.
all of them tot tat i jus quarrelled wit him again.
but when i sae it's a break-up tis tym, they were shocked.
cuz it was da 1st tym i cried in da shop.
normally, i'll jus control myself.
but tis tym rd, i reali cant do anythin abt myself.
i cldnt even face customers.
ther's too many memories in da shop tt makes mi keep tinkin of him.

and i oledi feel da darker side of mi is starting to surface.
tat is da side which i hate da most.
da moment he came into my life, tis side of miit's goin to was surpressed.
but now, it seems like it's goin to appear soon.
or mayb it had oledi.

how long do i need to see myself like tis?
i reali cant stAND IT.
why am i always so stupid.
it's like, he giving mi a hand to climb out of tt pit.
but out of a sudden, he let go his hand.
and once again, im in da darkness pit again.

if oni.
if oni i can change my attitude and character.
and EVERYTHIN.

it was oni 4 daes befor da 1st mth.
but so wad?

so wad if i love him so much?
he had given up hopes on mi.
why am i always waiting for ppls?

i need frens again.
frens tt can jus be ther and no wad im tinkin.
i didnt no tt 2 of my best frens had telepathy wif mi ,ONCE AGAIN.
or mayb 3.
it jus happen tt they sms mi at da tym when i reali wanted to look for someone to tok to.

tanks to ella. =]
she was da 1st person i tok to todae.
and she jus gave mi a hug without mi saein anythin.
imagine ella giving hugs.
those type of hugs jolene always give mi at shop.
tt's like, =.="

he mite be da last guy.

2007-08-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

okie.
i received a NOBEL PRIZE todae.
frm JY.
haha..
for puttin FRENSHIP into FIRST PIRORITY.

and yes.
we didnt managed to go CHOMP CHOMP like, AGAIN.
=.="
sick.
cuz ther's oni da 3 of us.
and JY was a vegetarian.
meaning, if we got ther, all he can have for dinner wld be TAO HWAY.
lolx.
so decided to have some vegetarian dinner.
yes, MISS GUCCI having vegetarian.
and it seems like a sin for mi to eat can.
frens, i'm black, but tt doesnt mean my heart is black too okie.
=D

anyway, over dinner was like nth except fun can.
im gettin more n more naggy.
and i forever can finish my story.
cuz both kokguan and JY keep cuttin mi in between.
lolx.
and tt Jy.
forever wif his expression and actions.
haha..

JY, seriously..
stop tt TAO HWAY GUY tingy la.
it's oledi over.
haha..
and stop sterotyping MISS GUCCI okie.
haha..

whenever i see him, it always reminds mi of mi giving da wrong number to SU.
causing him to get scolded by some indian malaysian.
wahahahahahahhahahahaahahahaha......
i'll nv ever get sick of tt story okie.
guess i can jus forever repeat it like nobody biz.
=p

oh, they saw mi changin fone so asked abt da previous one.
seriously, it's not worse den zhi hao's fone in camp la.
haha..
although it's da same screen.
lol.
and they sae it's RETRIBUTION.
jus becuz i keep throwin zhi hao's fone like nobody biz.
haha..
ITS FUN OKIE?!?
=P
da TRAGIC-DEATH FONE.
hhahaha..

sometym seein JY, da other 3 gurls [for now].
i'll rmb those6 days we had in camp.
its so memorable can.
everythin's so fun n interesting.
haha..

like....

1. tragic-death fone
2. 5,6,7,8 GONE!
3. cui liao la..
4. da story of miss gucci's hp no.
5. da origins of 'lao lao jiao'
6. tee mong ling PANG SAY us.
7. but her cumin down jus to celebrate my bdae.
8. those graduates leaving us.
9. my bdae celebration
10. COUNTER 16 !!
11. JY's "rain" whenever he's giving a speech

and more and more.
haha..
all those JING DIANs.
=]

2007-07-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

in CHEERS...

hakim: HI gucci!

gucci: hi.

hakim: why do i keep seein u in biz sch??

gucci: HUH? why cant i be here?

hakim: u dun belong to here, yet i keep seein u ard.

gucci: =.=" why cant i belong to here??

hakim: i mean u're frm ADM[Apprael Design and Merchanising], so u sld be in design sch, and not keep cumin to biz sch. it's seem i keep bumpin to u here.

gucci: mr hakim, i'm a 3rd yr BUSINESS student. =.=""

hakim: OMYGOD!! i tot u're frm ADM. haha... i tink i rmb da wrong person. mayb it's ur da other fren. haha...

gucci: which fren?

hakim: ther.... da one i forgotten her name oledi.

gucci: wihch one? how she look like?

hakim: ermm.. dao ne with a mouth piercing one.

gucci: oh.. u mean HUI AN zit??

hakim: YA YA! YA!! so she's da one frm ADM rite?? both of u look quite alike. haha..

gucci: ermm.. u're wrong again. she's frm ENGINE.

hakim: OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! so are u saein both of u are not frm ADM?

gucci: ya. DUH. one is biz and one is engine. =]

hakim: =.=" u no wad? all along i tot both of u were frm ADM can?!?

u mean, i REALI hav tt DESIGN SCHOOL face?!?!
i tot oni ppl outside of TP will get deceived by my so-called DESIGN look.
but i didnt no tt ppls frm da very own sch actually tot im one too.
to tink he knew mi for 2 yrs oledi.
GOD.

i told tis to hui an and both of us laugh like madi n da bus can!
LOL.
but both of us SERIOUSLY tink tt our dressin sense is STILL OKIE can.
not very DESIGN look, rite?
wad's happenin to da world, man?

wahahahahhahaahahahahahha........

2007-07-31T12:55:00.000+08:00

okie..
to clear da doubts of EVERYONE,
he's jus a fantasy.
a guy frm my FANTASY LAND.
for mi to fantaize whenever i wan.
lol.

which means it's impossible.
so pls.
hahaha...
esp. CHOU XUELI.
=D

2007-07-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

was takin train home todae.
when some random tots pass thru my mind.
and i reali means RANDOM.

2 daes more and it'll be one yr.
1st AUGust.
one yr has gone.

memories of tis particular dae one yr ago seems so vivid in my mind.
as though oni half a yr has passed.
tym reali pass DARN fast.
so fast tt it's goin to be his bdae once again.

and it jus reminds mi of da dae when i....
ya. i dun wan to type it out.
=]

i mean, those tt were ther one yr ago sld no wad im tokin rite? =D

alot of tinks came to my mind...

how i first met him in camp.
all those crazy tinks i've did jus to see him.
those daes when i see him ard in sch.
how we've da SAME CDS for da same sem.
da dae when he say im oni suitable for indian dance.
=.="
how we've promised one another a meal and yet we didnt make it.
=p
da dae when he came to see my first dance performance.
wit mandapop. =.="
da dae when i went to see his 1st model performance.
wit mandapop AGAIN. =.=""""
da dae when i told him da shockin news.

[actually, ther's once when he's quite shocked tt i actually rmb wad he had sae befor]
=]

and once again, i PS him for his bdae celebration.
for da 2nd yr.
he seems a bit disappointed.
but i guess. jus as a status of fren.
haah..

one yr ago, i gave him a present filled wit love.
but now, i guess it'll be filled wit frenship.
and it's a SHARED present. =]

and i stil cant imagine tt i can still be frens wit him.
reali.
it's as though nth ever happen at all.
i duno was it becuz both of us were gd at pretendin
or tat we reali can be frens.

sometym i still get excited when he tok to mi. or wadever.
but at least i no im able to treat him as a fren.
=]

and i jus realized tt most of my poly life actually goes ard him.
esp my 2nd yr.
wit ppls teasin mi abt him, askin mi abt him, and all kinds of stunts.
lolx.
such gd memories...

im wonderin.
tis cumin OTC/FOC/FOW.
it's gonna be da last one for mi, if i ever get in.
will i cry more den da previous one?
will i miss everyone?
esp those tt's stayin for 4.1
and of cuz not forgettin my other 3 babes.
=]

2007-07-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

some frens always appears at da rite tym.
i mean.
like they mite jus MIA for very long or jus too busy to go out.
but den.
they always knew da rite tym, doin da tink.
and i reali appreciate tt.
=]

like when im down, they seems to get da message.
adn they'll jus sent some heart-warming sms to mi.
or jus giv mi a call to tok crap...
or ask mi out to chill, shop or wadever tt can be done under da sun.
haha..

sometime i reali dun regret knowin u girls.
though it's like yrs of frenship, but i'm not forgotten by all of u.
so touched.
haha...

guess ther's no need to mention names rite.
=D

2007-07-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

okie. tis is a GENERAL post.
which means ther's gonna b COPY AND PASTE tingy happenin.
COPYRIGHT okie, ppls.
=]

we've been backstabbed at work.
totally.
once it's so happening at work.
with everyone playin n foolin ard.
all tis seems normal.
but da moment some ppls came in/transfered in.
everythin's changed.

maybe we're still havin fun.
da four of us.
4 old-birds.
always doin stupid tingy.
BUT. at least we did our job.
at least we didnt make da whole shop collaspe.

den todae came tis freakin juice.
da four of us are BLACKLISTED by da people of HAAGEN DAZS office.
[did i jus put our shop's name?]
=]

anyway, MISS GUCCI's name is da blackest among all, and i duno how in da world can da other 3 linked it to her skin color.
=.="
tanks to her STINGRAY hair.
it's oledi over her shoulders and she didnt tied/hide/kept/wadever to da LITTLE bunch of hair.
helo la, ppls.
tt strand of STINGRAY hair is MISS GUCCI's TRADEMARK.
is ther any prob wif it?
it's not as though tt whole bunch of hair iwll jus drop by itself and into those ice-cream.
compared to da rest.
her's is da shortest can.
worse, she's cuttin it like, nxt week.
and ppls jus cant stop COMPLAINING abt it.
howm any tyms must she sae tt she's cuttin it NEXT WEEK.
she's gettin more n more irritated by it.
is ther a prob wif her sense of hairstyle, peopel of HD?!?
dun sick la.

[caps frm miss gucci: wad a long para on my hair. =p]

anyway, da hopes of us gettin promoted and higher pay are TOTALLY dashed and gone.
yes. since we're blacklisted.
it's like.
ther's tis person in our shop who acts as though she's so gd to all of us.
in da end, she was da one who told those top mgt tt nobody show respect to her and stuff.
to tink MISS GUCCI and MISS JOJO still put her in good words when she first came.
da daes when she's still a NOOB.
in da end, wad did we get?
loads of knives behind our backs.

ya. da fact that we dun follow da rules and regulations.
some rules and meant to be broken.
and some are meant to use at certain times.
how wld u expect ppls like MISS GUCCI, MISS JOJO, MISS JOANNE and MR CHRIS to law by law when they themselves are oledi so rebellious?
who's da one who help tt woman wif ESP?
who's da one who always help to clear up mistakes tt she had done?
who's da one who always try to entertain her wit all our silly jokes and actions?

wang en fu yi.

so wad if she's da assistant manager?
SO?

she's been givin us all kinds of probs.
probs tt we dun have previously.
it's like, she can jus create all kinds of prob tt she's capable of.
okie. mayb she got no intentions.
but pls, tis is SINGAPORE.
stop tinkin tt u're frm da high-class end.
in tis industry, ther's no high or low class end ppls.

u tink da 4 of us wans to stay in tt shop tt's underpayin all of us?
common, if da ppls reali wan to push our limits.
IT's OKIE.
why?

CUZ WE'VE GOT ALTERNATIVE JOBS.
like i've siad, tis is an UNDER-PAYIN job.
so do u tink we'll stay long?
sorry.
N.O. NO.

i reali wonder why in da world are we blacklisted?
we're da one who contribute da most to da shop.
or at least, we tried.
but den, in da end tis is wad we get back.
all we wan was oni a HIGHER PAY.

caps frm miss gucci AGAIN:
isnt tis such a long long post?
haha..
saein wadever tt we want to sae.
aa, ppls. left out anthin jus tell mi ya?

2007-07-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

if oni everydae's like todae...

2007-07-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

startin to detest tt benny loke.
tot i was late for lesson and tt he'll mark mi absent.
in da end, i tink im marked present.
okie. nvm.
so i sat in the classroom, doin NOTHIN.
and half an hr ltr, tanks to him.
i finish sch oledi.
jus becuz he wanted to consult doc after tt.
=.="
worse, my group's consultation is bein delayed again.
sick.

finally ate lunch wif dee,cher,rach,mary and ben.
its been AGES since we've eat together.
haha..
ya.
my VISA and IMMIGRATION is bein exposed in like, jus over a lunch.
lolx.
im alrite, frens.
tanks for all tt.
=]

went off to do projects befor meetin rosy for some slackin session.
seems like my tue routine oledi.
haha..
goin to BR to do all kinds of tinks.
and tokin crap.
weather was gd though.
no rain, no sun.
weeeeee....

anyway, both of us are darn broke can.
she was hungry but left iwf oni $1.80.
so we start to tink of ways to fully utilize it.
wont go into details. cuz it's a secret between us.
=D
anyway, in summary my 20 cents save her day.
so coins REALI do wonders.
haha...
sometimes it's so great to hav her as her fren.
can reali brightens up my days wif all kinds of stupid tinks we did in sch n BR.
woo....

=]

I KEPT BANGIN INTO MY AH YANG MEI TODAY!!!!!!!!
no wonder my mood's so gd todae.
wahahahahahhaahha...
ahhhh- yangggg- meiiiiii...............
zai wo xin li.
=s

2007-07-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

all i wan is ur PRESENCE.

not SLIENCE.

is tat very demandin?

2007-07-22T22:14:00.001+08:00

within SECONDS....

and tt's it.

isnt it great?

didnt no my intutition todae was SOOO accurate.

i know sth bad gonna happen.

not one.

but many.

and den.

it turned out to be tt way.

yes. MANY things.

tanks ar...

so am i supposed to celebrate or emo all da way?

all my plans are gone now.

no longer able to fufill.

anymore.

i've said befor.

da door's SEALED TIGHTLY.

yet ppls still INSIST on knockin and cumin in.

and everytym when da door's opened,

they'll jus leave and SHUT it wit a firm hit.

now i guess.

it'll disappear forever.

2007-07-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

once again...

i dun wan to be ALL ALONE.

jus wan to do anythin except being alone.

someone bring mi to a world wher no one love one another.

NOW.

2007-07-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

been workin for da past 4 days.
ya. like FOUR STRAIGHT DAYS.
=.='
gettin older i tink.
last tym can work few daes straight n not feelin tired.
but now, it's like REAL CMI.
haha..

anyway...
was tokin to mongling last fri.
tt viet woman actually CALLED mi jus to see if im still in sch to acc her anot.
sick.
and like finally, tok non-stop wit her.
lolx.
she's always gettin bullied.
woman, dun worry abt MAYBEL la.
mayb she's very stressed or wad.
jus DUN CARE so mcuh abt it.
=]

and im not saein MAYBELIN SEE.
haha.
anyway, tis woman like suddenly becum so free.
keep askin mi to go chomp chomp.
guess soon i'll be quite sick of tt place.
haha..

feel so empty at heart.
im startin to tink.
is this da right choice?
pls dun tell mi no.

2007-07-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

as u can see.
nowadays im darn moody.
or sld i no.
nowa-NIGHTS?!?
=]
tanks to da IDIOTIC freaky PMS.
and tt bloody period jus REFUSE to cum yet.
darn.

sometimes tinks jus dun happen on times when u hope them to happen.
but they always choose to happen at da wrong tym.
esp. since when im havin my farkin PMS and projects deadlines.
stress + more stress.

im tryin.
tryin not to tink so much.

and yea.
guess i'll be freakin free till da end of tis mth.
like 1 week plus??
maybe.
besides rushin all those projects.
pls ask mi out for HOT DATES, frens.
haha..

one dae is intolerable.
but as tym goes by, everythin gets immuned.
immuned till numbness.

2007-07-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

i'm tryin to control my darn idiotic and freakin PMS mood.

2007-07-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

sometym jus dun understand why ther's some SENSELESS ppls in HD.
im not sayin those ppls workin in outlets.
but those frm da OFFICE.
darn sick can.
oni no how to use their mouth.
oni no all those THEROY stuff but not PHYSICAL stuff.
tt winnie da pooh came down to do some ESP spot-check like, ON A SUNDAY.
=.="
cum on la.
it's like comin in to check on a BUSY SUNDAY LATE NOON.
who wld da hell be SOOO free to care about those cleaniness.
i mean, we still care abt those BASIC cleaniness.
but others, it's IMPOSSIBLE can.
n yes.
once again, she complain abt my hair again.
my stingray hair.
like SOO busy.. cant expect mi to keep touchin my hair and keep tryin to stuff my hair into my shirt rite?
dun sick can.
and anyway, my hair's too short to tied up.
and da more tt woman reject my hair, da more reluctant i'm goin to cut it off.
=D
and to make tinks even worse, da moment she reached,
i cant leave at 6, and she keep blockin my way. when da kitchen's oledi such a small place.
and ther's like FIVE PEOPLE standing there.
=.="
nvm. den those ppls workin full got no tym n NO SPACE to eat.
jus becuz of ONE senseless woman, all our work cant be done.

now i underStand why huian wld sae she need someone to b by her side when she's down BADLY.
i can understand tt feelin now.

tis is one tink i hate when it cums to commitment.
"UNDERSTANDING"'s da big word.
not tt i'm not being one.
but sometym when u feel like tokin to him at THIS POINT OF TIME.
he'll wither be slpin or busy wit his own stuff
and he'll be saein im not being understanding towards him if i tok to him now.
im still not used to tis life.
wad a sick gf i am.
=.='

been havin PMS for like one whole week..
so when's da real farkin tingy cumin?

2007-07-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

i'll love you jus like da way u do.

2007-07-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

went out wif huian yest. did some little shoppin.
brought a pair of grey jeans. like.. FINALLY.
=.="

she brought a doraemon.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute!
haha...
for tt special n IMPORTANT fren tt she has.
=]
i oso wan! *hint hint*
=x

i oso cAn stick out my tongue.
but ya la.
it's cuter.
haah...
sometym u'll feel childish seein all those fluffy stuff.
but when u brought it for someone or mayb someone brought it for u,
these stuff becum more precious.
and da more u'll treasure it.
=]

met up wif hui an n mong ling for lunch today.
it's been a LONG LONG LONG tym since we've went out for lunch durin break.
it's SOOO difficult to ask tt viet woman out for lunch.
haha..
forever "i go projects to do la.."
=.=:

anyway.. as usual..
CAM-WHORING TYM!!
jus love takin fotos wif them.
=D

my precious girl...

den was back for APEL again.
and once again, nth to do.
so went out of class for a while.
saw dee n mary ther.
and ya.
jus can stand frens cam-whorin without mi.
LOL.

actually ther's more den tis. but it's either da fotos are not nice n tt i feel so EXTRA.
haha..

went hm wif darlin after sch.
was da 2nd tym i sent him hm.
ya. I SENT HIM HM.
lol.
but ya. jus love it.
cuz need to walk a distance so can play along da way...
so fun.
hahha.. =p
but he dun wan mi to keep sendin him hm.
say it's not nice for mi to walk back alone.
=]
1t tym, we saw his dad.
and todae, we saw his brother n frens.
and i duno why he's sooo shy.

dun be shy, darlin.
u'll get used to it sooner or later.
wahahahahahaha....

my ..... finally ask mi to meet her for dinner.
haha.
im so happy.
always meetin her can reali brighten up my whole dae.
tanks to all those GOOSEBUMPS telepathy tt we had.
=]
and da telepathy tt we had is REAL scary.
worse den jojohui n mine.
becuz both of us cant see it till we ourselves realized it.
haha..
scary.
even we ourselves get frightened by it.
=]

my eyes's FREAKIN small can.
nvm. try again.

=.="

okie okie. i dun look den..
wahaha...

life's been beautiful these few daes.
cuz ther's u in it.
=]

2007-07-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

hopefully my life will be more balanced and spread even.

since da day u've cum into my life.

pray for da better everyday!

2007-07-05T14:14:00.000+08:00

stunts.
they're doin stunts again.
stunts for mi to stand at da crossroads once again.

for 2 straight daes.
unforseen suprises popped out.
but is surprises ever forseen befor??
=]

shant mentioned much.
but ya. sometimes happy surprises are meant to kept to ownself.
=p

ermm.. i tink i've told some of them.
wahaha..

but im sure.
very sure of myself.
i wldnt wan to step back any longer.

dont ask mi to follow my heart.
it has shut its doors to everyone.

2007-07-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

all da more im feelin tt im into kenny's shoe tis few daes.
REALI.

i dun wan to sae much abt it.
but todae's da limit.
everythin seems to be da exact situation.
TOTALLY.

now i no how he feels tt tym.
dunno wad to do abt mi.
stressed yet hopeless.

he was tokin to mi abt how drunk he was on da way hm.
and it reminds mi of da dae when kenny was drunk too.

da dae when he called mi in da middle of da nite.
da dae when he was in hospital to visit his fren.
da dae when he cldnt find anyone to tok to.
da dae when he told mi, in his mind he cld oni tink of mi to call.
da dae when.......

he ask mi to be his.

at tt tym. i sld have told him yes, instead of askin him to wait for a few more hrs.
if oni.
if oni , i didnt ask him to do so, mayb tinks wont be like tt after all.
now tt i've given up on him, FATE brings in another person.

da more i tried to push him away, da more he wont even give up.
i tried. i reali tried.
i tried givin him hints thru my actions. but it seems like he jus cldnt get it.

to make tinks worse. he said those exact words tt i've told kenny befor.
TOTALLY, COMPLETELY reminds mi of myself.

i've said befor.
i dun wan to believe anyone anymore.
i dun wan to have faith in them anymore.

but why FATE's always playin ard wif mi?
one derek's enough. plus one more kenny.
it's even more heart-breakin.
and now?
i duno.

i'm gonna have my period soon.

2007-07-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

in confused mood now.
dun reali no wad i wan for now.
i mean.
i wan to be alone.
but deep down inside.
i desire for it.
contradictin.
totally.

feelins are hidden in a place wher i cldnt even find it myself.
dun wanna show it to anyone anymore.
i'm totally hurt da previous tym.
i duno how to trust anymore.
completely.

his pride makes him run away frm mi.

he reminds mi of.....

kenny.
ya. i no u girls gonna sae mi again.
=.=

suddenly feel like im in his shoes.

wit someone tt so heads over heels over u.
and yet.
u duno wad u sld do.
u desire for it.
but u afraid u'll get hurt.

i duno if i sld jus accept da whole new world.
or wad.
but one tink for sure.
i'll nv ever make my feelins known to anyone.
no longer.
and i'll nv believe wadever tinks they told mi any longer.

FATE...
stop lettin good ppls into my life.
i duno how to appreciate them.
cuz.....
i'm immuned to everythin now.

2007-06-30T09:59:00.000+08:00

had kelly yest.
god. late for HALF AN HR.
cuz overslept in bus by jus ONE stop and have to take all da way till bedok interchange.
worse, da queue for 69 was REAL REAL long.
sick.

as usual, have to pretend tt i ran marathon da moment i reach hter.
so as to asusme i REALI run all da way ther.
and tanks to my actin, james reali believe.
wahaha..
wad if he finds his way here?
OOPS!
=]

cant rmb who find an OSCAR and everyone start playin wif it.
esp siew choo n i.

1.

2.

3.

4.
kes keep askin mi to delete tis foto, saein she look very ugly. haha..
but den IT"S OKIE.
i seldom delete random fotos.
=]

5.

6.

oh ya... i've got a NAME CARD!!
haha...
lame.

went off to do hr project straight.
tis project's reali draining all of us.
was stuck wif my reflective journal.
and luckily jason's fren came and haha...
we had dictation.
like. it's been such a long tym since we've heard da word "DICTATION"
imaigne tt benny loke will be look at 4 reflective journals wif da same words and sentences.
lolx.
cldnt write much for mine, so da fren help mi again.
askin mi to tok crap all da way.
haha..
and tt patricia can actually crap for 3 pages.
=.="

met up wif rach,brandy,qn of cuz chou xueli to celebrate her belated bdae.
as usual, tokin crap once again.
lolx.

ya. im still stuck at da immigration counter.
tt immigration officer jus refuse to let mi off, after one nite.
haha....
mayb he/she will even ask mi to go back my own world after 3 daes.
LOL.

nvm. i tink oni da girls will understand wad im typin.
haha...
anyway, went off to eat at crystal jade at taka.
woo! da queue was darn long.
and our stomachs were like CALLIN/SHOUTIN for food.
cldnt take it so went to basement to buy some snacks.
on da way. tt chou xueli and i jus nv fail to entertain everyone.
haha..
free entertainment.
=]

da TAI-TAIs....

still waitin.....
wait, wait, wait...

whEEE!!!!!

wad a big big potion.
and tis is da 1st tym i didnt finish everythin.
everyone were like surprised why i didnt managed to finish.
and becuz da noodle's gettin more n more sick, i jus eat everythin SILENTLY.
and dey tot im emo.
sick.
dun always link mi to EMO pls.
im a HAPPY girl okie?
wahahaha...
did i eat tt much everydae?!?!

our XIAO LONG BAOs!!

brendy cant wait any longer...
lookin at her eatin is darn funny.
=p

went to do some shoppin after dinner.
cuz ther was late-nite shoppin yest.
and da gurls are crazy.
after all those noodles.
haha.
our funny topics..

32 vs 34.
peanuts droppin into 32.
[ps. chou xueli, im proud to sae it dropped in okie? =D]
new shades of dustbins.
etc.etc.etc.

SORI RACHEL!!
haha... reali reali reali not purposely left u out in da foto!
haa.
blame on da camera.
=x

2007-06-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

i JUS hate wed.
lessons non-stop wif oni an hr break.
and ther's one online test todae.
great.
like 52/100?!?!
tanks ar...

took back MA paperltr on.
wooh!
didnt expect myself to score tt mark.
haha..
at least didnt dampened my spirits
HAPPY. =]

dragged myself for da last lesson.
and im real desperate of my ICE MOCHA.
ahha...
at least brighten up my last few hrs in sch.
=p

suddenly cravin for my MOO MOO ice-cream!
hhaa...
cant someone buy for mi? *hint hint*
like CHOW XUELI?!?!

can i hav it on FRIDAE, chou xueli?
wahahahaha....

no la. i oni need tt ice-cream when im emo. =]

met up wif hui an to go hm together.
normally it's always her tt's slpin on da bus while i'll be wide awake lookin at da scenary.
but todae was da TOTAL OPPOSITE.
she didnt even slp at all.
okie, even if i do slp, da most i'll wake up at katib station.
but todae i woke up at yishun.

does tt mean i need sleep DESPERATELY????
haha...
who cares...

was tokin abt some stuff when she saes..
"at least da person treats u gd and cares for u.. not like some ppls."

i was like =.="
"ya.. not like K-E-N-N-Y, rite??"

and she actually saes,
"ya. and D-E-R-E-K too. he's da worst one"

=.=" =.=" =.=" =.=" =.=" =.="
SIAN.

and i realised tt whenever ppls tok abt how bad he is, i'll always put him in gd words.
i mean like when ppls criticise abt his appearance, i will, OF CUZ, join in da criticism.
cuz of tt BIRD NEST. LOL.
but character-wise, sorry, fren.
i've to help him sae nice stuff.
haha..
cuz he's not wad u all tink.
he's reali not a bad guy.
and u all sld no tt.
=]
but den. WADEVER.

it's oledi over long ago.
haha..
i've get passed it.
=]'
no worries!
esp maybelin, huian and viet woman.
lolx.

oh ya... where da hell are u, MISS MAYBELIN SEE?!?!?!
dun tink u're in SIP and can forever hide at IBM/CHANGI or wherever okie...
have some hot dates wif da 3 of us can!
hahahaha....

2007-06-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY, CHOU XUELI !!!!!

PS. I DUN HAV RECENT FOTO OF U. CUZ U DUN WAN TO TAKE WIT MI. =P

2007-06-25T10:03:00.000+08:00

okie.
i jus realized tt i didnt update ANYTHIN for ONE whole week.
lol.

been quite busy wif work and projects and stuff.
no fotos taken so dun wan to type so many stuff.
=]

in sch now. skip lect once again.
not purposely one.
cuz qn sae tat she's not cumin.
she still sae tt i'll confirmed be late for todae's lect.
in da end, she cldnt even wake up.
seems like both of us didnt even slp last nite.
lolx.

hols jus dun seems to be like hols.
been goin back to sch almost everydae.
for projects and stuff.
yr 3 is sooo busy.
wif project deadlines so near wit one other.

and oso workin too.
like i FINALLY work on a sATURDAE.
it's so darn darn sick to work on a sat.
it's like ther's so many ppls and it's reali NON-STOP.
likke i've said.
i hate to work on floor durin busy daes.
no morale at all.
haha...
and im gonna work for one more sat tis week.
tat it. no more.
mayb after tt im gonna find some stuff to do for da subsequent sats.
=]
workin seems to be gettin more and more .............
i duno.

tml's gonna be chou xueli's bdae.
haha..
finally she's turning 20.

im so FREAKIN tired.
tanks ar... hello kitty.
whahahaa....

2007-06-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

im freakin tired.
seems like very long nv work long hrs on a weekend.
and my hands are still shiverin.
frm all those scoopin and wadever la.

get cut by da broken glassware AGAIN.
my RIGHT HAND AGAIN!!!!!
cheesepie.
sick.

den came tis customer.
who wanted EXCELLENCE CUSTOMER SERVICE frm us.
=.="

mr. A: i wan one walffles sundae pls.

gucci: okie. ermm... wad falvor wldu like to hv?

mr. A: BLAH BLAH BLAH

*went off to make waffles and chit chat iwf fren*

*mr. A walk towards cashier*

mr. A: ........ customer service. tis is HAAGEN DAZS. it's a brand. it's not like MAGNOLIA. so u all sld provide excellence service. and not jus leavin ur customers at one side and playin ther. tis is not customer service. u sld teach ur staff wad to do. wher's ur manager? i need to tok to her.

*fren jus nod his head*

*manager happen to walk pass*

mr. A: areu da manager?? *explainin whole situAtion again* all of u sld apologize for tis kind of poor service.

*manager jus nod her head and smile, askin mi to sae SORRY*

mr. A: noo! u sld mi da one saein SORRY to mi! cuz u're da manager and u sld apologize instead of da staff.

manager: I'M SORRY ABT IT.

gucci: SORRY ABT IT SIR. *SMILE fakingly*

#$&*()%!#@$#^&((&&e%@

helo!!!
MAGNOLIA is oso a BRAND can.
dun tell mi he nv drink tt brand of milk befor.
and PLS PLS PLS.
dun try to compare us wif tt brand.
it's totally not da same can.
so wad if HD's a brand? den?
is it a MUST tt WE sld provide excellence cust. service jus becus we're HAAGEN DAZS??!?!
=.="
everywher u go oso have brand one.
COMPLAIN lor.
GUCCI'S name is da easiest to rmb and write anyway.
IT'S A BRAND TOO ANYWAY.

and i saw so many ppls todae.
2 bdae gurls on one dae.
one was yz. ya. she was there purposely. =]
and doreen.
god, she oso changed alot. and this so-call sexy image of her jus................. PUI.

den i saw MITCH.
yes. MITCH as in MITCH.
guess i no need to elaborate who she is rite??
how can such a tai-tai appear in JUNCTION 8 sia???!?
and i jus dun wan to let her see mi.
if not, she'll be sohutin my name out loud again.
i SHy.
wahahahaha....

2007-06-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

went out wif cher, rosy, est and joanne for some dinner at 85.
supposedly was a mahjong session at youyou's house den becum town and in da end, at bedok.

was takin bus wif rosy and tis poster is so temptin...
haha...

temptin to do tis....

tok quite a bit over dinner.
topics like butches, a plain jane and boobs. as usual..
lol.

rosy iwf her SUPER small fan.
and she keep takin it out to fan herself.
makin mi feel hot too.
ahhaa

decided to walk back to bedok interchange.
it wasnt tt far after all.
saw a playground on da way. and decided to play on tt swing.

da swing tt makes both of us sick.
=x
i duno how did da 3 of us swing till orsy and cher have bruises on their legs.
haha..
violent women.

was accompanying rosy back to her hm and happen to saw some scenes.
ya. kissing scenes again. =.="
it like some storeys up of tt flat befor we cross da rd.
and it's practically jus facin da main rd.
and it's too prominent for both of us to see. esp since it's late in da nite oledi.
okie. funny tink is...
da guy caught us CATCHIN them in action.
SOOO, they shifted in.
but den, we has to cross da rd.
like... DUH.
so we get to even closer.
and den da guy was like, KISSSIN while LOOKIN down da flat to se if we're still lookin anot.
=.="
oledi get caught liao still like tt.
hahahaahahhaha......

finally went out wif hui an and tt VIETAM WOMAN.
like..... FINALLY!.
haha...
tt viet woman wanted to sing k.
and ya la...
met up wif hui an 1st. sometyms it's so sick and horrible to wait for frens.
esp since u've nth to do and no money to shop.
=]
den again, they're my frens.
wad to do???

PS. U FRENS OUT THERE NO TT I HATE WAITIN FOR PPLS FOR MORE DEN HALF AN HR. SO PLS....
=]

it's jus soooo coincidentally tt both of us were wearin all black and white..
=.="
one mina and one cina.
haha....

im darn jealous of tis foto can!
it's like da momenti wan to take tis foto, ppls cum into da lift.
and i cant take anymore.
=[

anyway, was waitin for mong ling to finish her dinner.
so obth hui an n i got nth to od once again...
started to played ard wit my cam and OUR SHADOWS.
like... we've to play till tt extent.
hahaha...

OH... finally we went to k box.
hahaa..
and at first, da 3 of us were like, shy.
ya. shy.=.="
but den as tym goes by...
our highness jus came in.

AHHHHHH!!!!!

and of cuz noo forgettin some cam-whorin tym in between.
hee.

walked frm icne to orchard station.
purposely one.
haha. so tt we can play along tt whole stretch of rd.
=p
games like..
tryin to act out robbery.
stupid cam-whorin.
comparin real minas and FAKE mina.
playin as though da whole rd belongs to da 3 of us.
practically JUS NO IMAGE.
UNGLAM.
haha..who cares.
cuz we're still young!
WAHAHAH...

tryin to act as though i've got no money to go hm...

help mi pls!!!

NAH!!! give u!
dun sae i nv giv hor!
=.="

2007-06-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

went out wif cher, rach, and so coincidentally, RAT.
lol.
so long nv see him n he's still dA same...
lao shu, sha sha fen bu qing chu...

LAME.

and tis's like da 1st tym i woke up so early to eat lunch can.
meet them at 10.30 and realize tt da shop opens at 12.
=.="

worse... da buffet oni starts at 2.30.
sad.

tryin to act as though it's so borin waitin for da resturant to open.

was eatin halfway thru when rat start to take our cams and start to tAKe RANDOM fotos.
hahah...
he's still as random..

tt's chou xueli tryin to drink her coke float..

and still tryin to drink..

some random fotos taken by mi.

waitin...

for da durians to drop.

while at da tamp bus interchange, all of us saw some SICK scene.

these two ITE students were kissin one another like nobody biz can.

wadever kiss u wan to see oso have.

and it's da gurl who initate it.

god.

as usual. im like watchin da whole scene. or mayb jus part of it.

haha...

GROSS.

and as usual. AS A TROUBLEMAKER.

i jus shout "WA LAO, SICK PPLS LIVIN IN DA SICK WORLD."

=.="

it's been a long long tym since i've did tis.

hahah...

went off to town for some shoppin spree..

for cher n rach of cuz.

haha...

rach wif my cap again.

and she sae she like tis foto alot.

cuz very MONG HUAN.

lolx.

was waitin to change bus. so decided to went 7-11 to buy some stuff.

both qian ning n i decided to try tt "wadever" drink.

god. it's darn WADEVER n ANYTHIN can.

it's reali jus try ur luck on everythin la.

haha..

and i've got a rootbeer n QN wit qu hua cha.

sick.

mirror effect...

went to la senza.

was queuein wif rach n jus randomly picked up a few bras.

god, it's like i jus pick ed da biggest size can.

and it's reali... BIG.

imagine someone wif 38D standin beside mi.

god. i tink cant even see mine. im sad.

rach sae she like tis foto ONCE AGAIN.

lolx.

dun always blame my camera for bein slow okie.

sometym it's can be da effect tt u wan.

whahaha..

met up wif hui an n her co. later jus now.

ya. im always into ppls's company of frens.

haha...

who cares.

anyway, some ppls randomly called mi jus to ask mi wher am i n after tt sae,

"oh ask for fun oni. why? cannot zit?"

SICK.

so random can.

i still tot he dun wan his date oledi.

wahahahahhaaha...

=.="

slack for awhile at TCC.

CAKES!!

wad a FROCEFUL yet CHEEKY smiles..

hhahaha..

da gurls...

suddenly some random tots passed by.

i realized nowadays i dun like to take tis type of fotos anymore.

as in like smilin HAPPILY to da cam.

jus feel a bit like. FUNNY.

i jus wan to take osme RANODM fotos.

candid shots???

mayb.

tis post is sooo full of RANDOM-NESS.

2007-06-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

was takin bus todae and saw lotsa kinds in it.
ya. KIDS as in YOUNG KIDS.
not gucci's definition of KIDS.

anyway. back to da topic.
those little kids are jus soooo naive.
got tis little boy n girl in front of mi.
guess their mums were frens.
and they were makin fun of one another.
still wit da mindset tt they're of da same gender.
holdin hands so happily.
haha...

den one of da mum was quite ocncerned abt her own daughter.
askin if she's feelin cold when da weather is freakin hot.
den help her wear a so-called sweater over.
tohse tiny little movements reminds mi of myself.
i've got no memories of my mum doin tt for mi.
oni my auntie and maternal grand-parents.
okie. mayb there is but i jus cant rmb.
mayb becuz im closer to them rather den her in da past,
tt's y it seems diff to jus tok to her abt STUFF???

mayb.
but den.
i still prefer to tok to my dad and frens.
LOL.
wadever.

wad a RANDOM post.

2007-06-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

seems to enjoy goin to work for like,
past 3 daes?
haha...

ya, still da same old ppls workin.
but now our neighbours are gettin more n more friendly.
it's okie tt own staff dun tok to each other.
lolx.
i've got FRIENDLY neighbours.
=]

had some one-to-one tok wif my manager.
like finally, both of us said wadever we wanted to sae for very long.
and it's so obvious tt we dun belong to da same line/world.
i mean she saes im sorta lazy and shows attitude.
NB.
when was i ever lazy.
i dun change cans so it's my fault.
ppls dun change cans oso my prob.
why?
cuz as a senior, i sld tell them wad to do and wad's not.
okie.
den as a MANAGER, wad sld she do?

i admit i've got attitude.
cuz all along, i no i have.
=]
but den, if MISS GUCCI dun show attitude, u tink she's call GUCCI for fun?

im not angry or wad.
REAL.
cuz at least i've pointed out wad i wan to sae n wad i tink.
but in da end, it seems like i sld b da one tt sld b doin reflection.
if i still wan to get promoted.
=.="

nvm.
tolerate.
it's jus a part-tym job.
nb.

i dun care whoever came here n read my blog.
and tell her wadever i write.

u tink MISS GUCCI gives a shit?
SORRY,
N O
NO.

i sld JUS STOP saein those words.

2007-06-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

since da dae when i found those ppls's acc.
i realize i've been happier compared to last few weeks.

gettin emo over some ppl.
and real down at tt period of tym.
practically jus dun wan to be alone.

now, i'm jus so glad i've back to ownself.
jus tt at tyms wan to pack one full dae wif lotsa events.
so i wont tink so much abt it.

den again, we're driftin far and far apart.
jus a moment of folly.

MAYBE.=]

2007-06-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

had kelly yest.
like as usual.
haha.
but yest was to go INTERNATIONAL PLAZA
which is at TANJONG PAGAR can.
so far sia.

anyway.
was ther to interview some staffin consultants.
for our project.

and we found sth ther which dont belong ther.
ya. a bit contradictin though.
lol.
was brought by da director of KELLY.

and da habit of cam-whorin steps in.
whahaa..

yes. brought by KELLY SERVICES's director.
wad a stupid tink to buy.
lolx.

so many ppls tryin to squeeze into a small little screen.
sounds like NEOPRINT sia.
=.='

keslyn n mi..
forever "LET'S GO FOR LUNCH!"
=]

my group for kelly.
ermm. not reali.
cuz suat hoon n shafiqah were another group.
lol.

and we're jus cam-whorin all da way in BK.
after our brunch.
hah...

keslyn, yonghuan, siewchu n mi...

went out wif wei jun todae.
for a haircut.
like AGAIN.
haha.
ya. i need a haircut every 2 mths.
=p

tis is my previous hairsytle.
didnt no tt behind is sooo messy.
lolx.

den i told da lady i wan da same hairstyle again.
but a little shorter..
in da end....

MY PONYTAIL'S GONE!!!!!!!
sad.

my "mummy" and mi..
it's been a long tym since we took foto together.
hee.

saw tis at vivo..
and happen to saw timothy there.
tot his camera skills not bad one lor.
in da end. so blur.
hai....
hahah...
but cant be blame though.
ther's too many ppls ther.

2007-06-02T11:42:00.000+08:00

FINALLY.
i can sit down n blog properly.
haha..
not reali though.
without pics it's not call PROPER completely.
lolx.
mayb ltr or another dae.

and gucci's MIND, HEART and SOUL is back to normal.
REAL.
cuz im happy for now.
=]

mid-sems is cumin real soon.
like, NEXT WEEK?
and i haven even study yet.
or sld i say, i dun even no wad's goin on yet.
ahhhah..

after tt will be havin 2-week break.
not reali planned out though.
but will be have sentosa outin, bdae celebration, etc.etc.

and most imptly, WORK.
i need money for soooo many stuff.
a new fone, and of cuz savin some for GSS.
wahahah...

2007-05-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

supplEments for da HR project.

MUGGIN NOW....

2007-05-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

OMFG!!!!!!!

haha....
okie.
tis post i guess oni a few ppls will understand.
ya. oni HAAGEN DAZS BISHAN GOSSIP CLUB will understand.
guess i dun need to name out who rite.
or sld i??
=p

whahaha...
anyway.
zhong dian is...................

i've found some IMPT CHARACTERS in SOMWHER la.
hahah...
n i cant imaigne tt i'm SOOOOOOOOOO indirectly linked to PUNK NOT DEAD can!
i rather get linked to chu-co-let.
haha.
anyway.
it's like...
was lookin at rosy's acc.
den saw qi min's.
so get curious how tis lamer's acc wld b like.
den i went to his fotos to see. [he oni got 5 can!]
and!!
i saw PUNK NOT DEAD takin foto wif him.
BUT DEN!
i was tinkin.
okie. mayb there's ppls who look alike.
so tried my luck in his frens' list.

and DEN!!!

i SAW PUNK NOT DEAD's acc!
to make tinks confirmed.
i saw WASH-HAIR BOY takin fotos wit him.
and....
i saw DRAWER's!!!
WASH-HAIR-BOY's!!!
AHHHH!!!!
but no chu-co-let!
sadded
=x

i'm SOOOOOOOOOOO tempted to copy thier fotos and post it here!!
but...
ltr they find their way here den HD bis's gossip club will die man!
and GUCCI's head can roll.
wahaha..

*im reali glad tt i'm back to my own self for TODAE*

2007-05-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

i cant imagine i actually rot da whole dae todae.
on a SATURDAY.
realized tt its not i DUN LIKE to rot n slack at hm.
it's I DUN WAN.
reali.
facin oni da com, tv, n four walls.
n my mind jus went into da world of its own, refusin to cum out of it.
was supposed to meet him.
but in da end, plans were foiled.
he can bring me up high up to da extreme.
but he can oso jus let mi fall into aimless black hole.

was watchin some dramas jus now.
some repeated dramas.
n i didnt no tt now wadever they saes in da show, it actually makes mi tink alot.
i mean, last tym, when i 1st watch those shows, i got no emotions AT ALL.
but todae, full of emotions.

1st show was PRIDE.
some jap dram abt ice hockey.
makes mi tink of those daes when we watch it at our chalet n everyone jus sit ther for a whole day jus to ifnish watchin da whole show.
n when i sae everyone, it's means a whole class of ppls. =]

den was SUMMER SCENT.
some korean show.
somehow, my life now seems to actin da way or another.
at 1st, i like him becuz i saw someone in da past in him.
den he found out. indirectly.
and he pushed mi away TOTALLY.
now, i follow my heart.
wadever my heart saes, i'll follow.
n it saes it's him.
but it's too late.
he has pushed mi away too far.

i rather he called mi anytime of da dae den slience.
slience is scary.

wad do i wan in my life now?
i oso duno.
and it's certain UNCERTAINTY.

wad's happenin to mi nowadays?
i hate tis mi FOR NOW!

fark.

2007-05-26T12:16:00.000+08:00

was workin for da past 2 daes.

did sth VERY VERY stupid on thurs mornin.
DARN STUPID.
evertym.
evertym im always dooin foolish n stupid n aimless stuff whenever there's someone out there.
im not goin to do tt anymore.
cuz im not being appreciated.
wanted to work on thurs.
but my manager dun wan mi to work.
i dun wan to rot at hm.
either do i wan to emo at somewher or wadever.
luckily, i sae there's oni 4 ppls workin.
n it's quite impossible for a thurs la.
wadever.

n came tis customer.
cumin in at abt 9++ pm.
okie.
zhong dian is her attitude.
it's like ppls are closin n she still wan to make a fuss over nth.

auntie: how much is one multi-pack?

gucci: $11.90

auntie: den da single one?

gucci: $5.90

auntie: wad?? i dun wan tt coffee n almond! i wan da vanilla and milk one!

gucci: we dun hav tt in multi pack.

auntie: dun have. how cum?

gucci: oh. out of stock.

auntie: so i cant 3 single bar n charge s a multi pack? tt means it'll be more expensive if i buy 3 single den 1 multipack la. it's not worth it at all! totally not worth it!

gucci: =.=" ....

auntie's daughter: mummy. pls! SHHH!

nobody ever say tt it's worth anyway.
nvm. still got...

auntie: i sae i wan 3 pints. u sure ther's 3 inside? cant u pls check carefully?

gucci. okie. one. TWO. THREE!

auntie: oh okie.

CB.

still got...

*waitin to sign da credit card's receipt.*

auntie: how cum oni one piece?

jolene: my manager's changin da receipt. so u've to wait for awhile.

auntie: *SLIENCE*

tis type of ppls. jus cant shut up for once.

he finally tok to mi yest.
like. FINALLY.
n again.
he tot i no new guys n ignored him.
oh pls.
im not tt sort of girls.
but den tanks to him.
my mood change.
cuz some lame tutor i hav.
gettin scolded for same lame stuff.
like i'm becuz i cldnt get into da lift.
n im wearin heels. n my feet are frakin pain to climb frm FIRST floor to FOURTH floor la.
and he said: so why is da lift so kind enough to da rest n not u?
knn.
i jus repied him: cuz tis ppls took da lift frm da 2nd floor when da lift is goin down n took up again. so of cuzthose ppls at da 1st floor wont be able to get in la.
like. stupid la.
ask mi suvch a stupid qtn.
n becuz some of us were late. he was quite pissed iwf our group.
he keep on saien we're laggin behind.
but JUS refuse to sae WHERE we're laggin at.
wad a cb tutor i hav.

mayb i sld jus stop sayin those words.

2007-05-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

saw tis at rosy's blog.

somehow.

seems to describe wad MR DADDY is doin to mi now.

2007-05-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

at tis moment, i'm so afraid of bein alone.
afraid of loneliness.
suddenly.
im so unsure of everythin.
i dunno wad i'll do da nxt moment.
if oni.

i can jus immerse myself in work.
.
.
.

.
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when will tis F***in tingy stop?

2007-05-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

it jus pays for bein a nuisance.

mayb...

it's not tt worthwhile afterall.

2007-05-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

went to weijun's house todae.
after like, YEARS??

hahah...
her house's still same.
not much big changes.
except tt....

SHE CHANGED HER REFRIGERATOR!!!

hahahah....
tt's da one n oni tink i always target whenever i go her house.
helpin her to eat finish all those chocolates in the fridge.
FOREVER.
lol.

so nice tokin to her abt stuff.
mama.... u see.
ur son's so filial.
so many yrs had passed and he's still so gd to visit u when u're rottin at hm.
wahhahahahaa...

anyway, her bf came to join us for dinner later on.
at chong pang.
da guy is jus SOOOOOOOO quiet can.
imaigne wj has to keep on tokin jus to entertain him.
lolx.
den again, it's her choice.
=]

realize tt tis few weeks have been meetin up wif long-lost frens for dinner.
sometime it's so nice to meet up afte so long n yet still as crappy as da past.

oh ya.
i asked wj some similar qtns again.
haha...
like... DUH....
=.="

i asked her...

"to wad extent do u agree that GUCCI LANG ENG XUAN is a Darn extremely gossipy n kpo person"

ANS: to a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY very very very very very............................. LARGE extent.

"wad if one dae i went slient for da whole dae?"

ANS: den must be sth serious happen to u liao.

=.="

sick.
she still understand mi so much.
hahaha...

2007-05-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

was CCN DAy on fri, and as usual had kelly befor tt. darn tired for every kelly.
hahaha...
was da last CCN tt im gonna be seein. b
but didnt have da mood to actually walk abt.
cuz ther's way too many ppls and i jus hate crowds.

saw mitch along da way.
told mi she's runnig for business main comm.
like DUH....

ask mi to vote for her. like dunno da Nth person to ask mi to vote.
tt's da disadvantage of knowin too many ppls in sch. =]

saw chow xueli on da way too. she wanted mi to join her for lunch. cuz it's been quite some tym since she heard my voive and all my crappness. i didnt no tt ppls will miss my COLD COLD COLD jokes. lolx.

anyway, to reward her for missin mi, i gave her one balloon.

and she's so happy abt it. though it's a bit troublesome to bring it ard sch when it's oledi so crowded. hhaa...

i've got one too!
TPSU jus ROCKS! =x

went to work early.
was eugene's last dae and last dae to play n do naughty stuff.
saw tis man who came to do some coffee machine machine's maintainence.
god. jojohui was so mermerized by da way he do all those drinks.

he did tis in like 5 mins tym can.
so nice.. =]

and some frens i have gave my no. to chu-co-let.
tis tym it's reali DARN SICK can!
i didnt expect them to REALI gave it to him la.
make mi so sh.y
nxt tym i'll jus dun go toilet oledi.
which is impossible la.
PLS PLS PLS.
control urselves, ppls!

had one of da last few smoking tym together.

tis tym, we broke record of 3 ppls smoking together.
when it's busy in shop.
4 of us went out la.
like purposely.
haha..
who cares anyway?
sales are goin down....

had pizza feast outside for dinner.
eugene's treats again.
anyeay, MR EUGENE KOH.
I STILL WAN MY CHILLI CRAB FEAST!
wahahahahahahahaha...
u better treat jojohui and i for one befor u go tekong.

nice nice... one for vuitton too.
haha..
so random.

abt to close tt tym, our MISS JOJOHUI.
i duno wad she's doin or tinkin.
i asked her to pass mi da sugar syrup container.
and i duno how tt tink slipped off her hands.
and POP!
GONE!
da whole floor becums darn sticky.

and ended up, we've to do this in da misdt of da busy period.
=.="
sick.

went back to malaysia to celebrate my grandma's bdae on sat.
ya.tis tym it's da reali tink.
feel so cheated last week.
lolx.
anyway, i jus realized we're celebrating 3 PEOPLE's bdae instead of jus one.
seems like im really gettin out of touch wif my family.
wad am i doin den??
haha...

nth to do while waitin for da rest of the relative to cum...

one for each...

and again nth to do.
so wanted to test my own camera skills.
lol.

and tis's da 1st tym i've heard of ROJAK CHICKEN.
jus like rojak.
jus tt da main ingredient is CHICKEN.
nice huh?
=x

da 3 cakes!

they bully mi!
everyone's sooooo busy admiring all those cakes and none of them prepare those candles.
imagine im da oni one makin so many candles ready.
75+15+24=114
sick lehz ppls!

my grandma and her big big cake.

dun blame mi for lookin da other side. it's like ther's so many cmaeras ard and u jus duno wher u're supposed to look at.
hee..

my cousin.. finally she's 24. and tt's her daughter hiding behind.

another cousin.
she've since reach da stage of puberty.
when she realized tt looks are impt to her FOR NOW.
ahahhaha...

AHHH!!!!
I WAN to eat oso!!
give mi lehz, GREEDY BOY!

cute rite? tt 3 bears were made out of tt small little machine.
XIANG TAN NIAN.....
we dun play all these when we're young can.
we play wif sands and tt plasteric. [i duno how to spell].
hhahaha...
nowadays kids are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO pampered.

me n da 2 bdae cousins...

mi, kara and my cousin...

finally work wif xinya todae.
ermm, sld said she's trianed under mi i guess.
cuz i was one of da 11st to teach her kitchen.
and todae. AGAIN.
it's her 1st tym to do all those new creations.
so many 1st tyms.
hahaha...
and todae she can reali make mi feel so.....................
i duno la.
she cant jus make lame mistakes tt u duno u sld laugh or socld her can.
haha....
she's jus................
i duno.=]
JOJOHUI, I STILL WAN TO WORK WIF U LEHZ.
wahhaaha...
cuz no more MR KOH oledi.
but quite fun to work wit her.
at least ther's some entertainment.
haha....

2007-05-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

GUCCI KUREI KUREI IS BACK!!!!

i've found back all my long-lost confidence.

duno wher they've been to.

maybe went to north-pole??

okie.

not funny.

-.-"

anyway.

no matter wad happen now,

i'll be strong.

both physically n mentally.

i wont hide at bedok reservior all alone again.

i wont becum a heavy smoker.

i wont emo till da state i am yest.

I wont shut up for one whole dae again.

i wont spent my one whole dae aimlessly.

cuz i got so many supportive fans behind.

supportin wadever i tink it's best for myself.

and givin mi a hand when i drop into tt aimless pit again.

tanks to all these fans!

i'll give all of u my autographs soon!

wahahaa...

2007-05-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

2 hrs ago, im farking emo and sad.
yes. REAL.
tears can jus drop by itself.
anytym. anywher.

but realized i cldnt supressed everythin myself.
so force myself to tell one of my gd frens.
n im like facin da com n jus cry non-stop.
sounds SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not mi.

maybe tis tym rd im serious abt it.

n i didnt no tt i've got so many supportive frens.
maybelin n huian. [tt steven is xtra one/ hahha.]
i didnt expect them to actually no wad i wan.
but they do.
n they sae they'll spoort my decision.
tanks!
n i cant imagine we actually tink alike.

loner physically. but loved by everyone mentally.
=p

2007-05-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

i've ruined everythin.
TOTALLY.
everythin's messed up now.
tanks to my fone n memories.

i didnt expect i cld actually hurt someone tis way.
i didnt even no i cld actually do tt.
all along i've tot it's okie to hav all those sms in my fone.

but i didnt expect him to tell mi straight on da fone tt we're not together.
when i tot we ARE.
it's oni one nite.
and he changed totally.
he told mi to reconsider.

but i've set my mind.
i wan him.
more den anyone else.

he dun trust mi anymore.
no more.
i didnt lie to him.
okie i did lie.
but i didnt lie abt my feelins.
n it seems so difficult for him to believe wadever i've said now.
no matter wad i 've told him, he jus dun believe.
sometym it jus take so much effort to make someone trust u again.
esp since he's da one tt u like so much.

i jus cant blame anyone now.
cuz no one is to be blame
except myself n my selfishness.
i didnt spare a tot for him at all.

both of us wanted a serious one.
mayb.
i sld jus take a break frm everythin.

** tanks maybelin, huian n steven for listenin to wad i wan to sae. =]
it's so hard to supress n keep everythin to myself for da whole dae.
it's so nice to hav u guys ard. tanks!
i didnt expect u guys can be so supportive. =p