today's horoscope.
Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)

You've come to a long-anticipated crossroads in one of your relationships,
and things could change significantly -- depending, of course, on how you treat today's dramas. If you can have patience with this person's outrageous behavior, you will grow closer in a way you were hoping. Health problems could be worrying you right now, but too much time spent online could freak you out.


do they need to be so accurate?!?!
ya. crossroads now.
duno wad to choose for now.
ya. todae's drama.
it's SOOO unlike mi to cry so much in one dae can.
and yes, my haircut is being criticized once again by JY ppls.
ya, patience with tis somebody.
i tink im tryin to get used to it.
ya. health problems.
didnt eat da whole dae todae. no appetitie.
and im online now.



so wad in da world is happenin?!?!




but we've got da same horoscope.
so does tis applies to him too?

im totally not in da mood to upload or update anythin for da past few daes' events.
it was meant to be a happy outin.
but i reali duno wad cums to my mind at tt moment.

i've runined everythin once again.
and tis tym, it's OVER.
completely.

he cldnt take my nonsense anymore.
yest nite was his limit.
and i exceeded it.
i dun blame him for anythin.
cuz all along i knew, somehow or antoher.
it's me tt's always creatin all kinds of problems.
ther's too many misunderstandin and miscommunication.

we were singing k.
wif my colleagues.
den da 1st song tt they sung was tt song tt someone sang to mi befor.
and da past jus keep on flooding back into my mind.
tt's y i was so quiet suddenly.
it's wasnt becuz of him being quiet beside mi at all.
jus tt i dislike myself to be tinkin of my past when he's jus rite beside mi.
den i jus went out of da room.

all i wan was to be alone walking along da street of orchard rd.
but he came out. he was worried.
as usual i dun appreciate it at all.
i mean u ppls know tt when i wan to be alone, i reali mean it.
but den...
i jus tell him wadever i was tinkin.
but all i get back was slience.
it's so difficult to no wad he's tinking when he didnt tok at all.

and i jus realized how much i love him when he vomitted out of a sudden.
i realized tt he's being so stressed by mi, tt's y he kept on drinkin.

but after all tis incident, tt was it.
i've got da feelin tt he wld tell mi tt sooner or ltr.

he sent mi hm, but i didnt went hm yet.
was strollin abt at my house's downstairs.
den came da news.

suprisingly, i didnt even cry at all when i saw tt sms.
instead, i actually laughed at myself.
for bein so accurate and STUPID.

but, da nxt dae was horrendous.
practically i jus cldnt even control my tears glands.
i tried to pretend nth happen, even if they do ask, i'll jus sae im sick.
i didnt no when im slient da whole dae,
ppls will actually find out abt it and ask mi wad happen.
i didnt no i was so noisy.
ther wasnt alot of customers todae. and most of my frens were workin nite sihft.
which mean, i;ve got no one to tok to.
all i cld no was jus tink, tink, and still tink.
den came weiling and ella.
god. da moment they came, i jus walk into da back room and cry non-stop.
all of them tot tat i jus quarrelled wit him again.
but when i sae it's a break-up tis tym, they were shocked.
cuz it was da 1st tym i cried in da shop.
normally, i'll jus control myself.
but tis tym rd, i reali cant do anythin abt myself.
i cldnt even face customers.
ther's too many memories in da shop tt makes mi keep tinkin of him.

and i oledi feel da darker side of mi is starting to surface.
tat is da side which i hate da most.
da moment he came into my life, tis side of miit's goin to was surpressed.
but now, it seems like it's goin to appear soon.
or mayb it had oledi.

how long do i need to see myself like tis?
i reali cant stAND IT.
why am i always so stupid.
it's like, he giving mi a hand to climb out of tt pit.
but out of a sudden, he let go his hand.
and once again, im in da darkness pit again.

if oni.
if oni i can change my attitude and character.
and EVERYTHIN.


it was oni 4 daes befor da 1st mth.
but so wad?

so wad if i love him so much?
he had given up hopes on mi.
why am i always waiting for ppls?




i need frens again.
frens tt can jus be ther and no wad im tinkin.
i didnt no tt 2 of my best frens had telepathy wif mi ,ONCE AGAIN.
or mayb 3.
it jus happen tt they sms mi at da tym when i reali wanted to look for someone to tok to.

tanks to ella. =]
she was da 1st person i tok to todae.
and she jus gave mi a hug without mi saein anythin.
imagine ella giving hugs.
those type of hugs jolene always give mi at shop.
tt's like, =.="










he mite be da last guy.

okie.
i received a NOBEL PRIZE todae.
frm JY.
haha..
for puttin FRENSHIP into FIRST PIRORITY.

and yes.
we didnt managed to go CHOMP CHOMP like, AGAIN.
=.="
sick.
cuz ther's oni da 3 of us.
and JY was a vegetarian.
meaning, if we got ther, all he can have for dinner wld be TAO HWAY.
lolx.
so decided to have some vegetarian dinner.
yes, MISS GUCCI having vegetarian.
and it seems like a sin for mi to eat can.
frens, i'm black, but tt doesnt mean my heart is black too okie.
=D

anyway, over dinner was like nth except fun can.
im gettin more n more naggy.
and i forever can finish my story.
cuz both kokguan and JY keep cuttin mi in between.
lolx.
and tt Jy.
forever wif his expression and actions.
haha..

JY, seriously..
stop tt TAO HWAY GUY tingy la.
it's oledi over.
haha..
and stop sterotyping MISS GUCCI okie.
haha..

whenever i see him, it always reminds mi of mi giving da wrong number to SU.
causing him to get scolded by some indian malaysian.
wahahahahahahhahahahaahahahaha......
i'll nv ever get sick of tt story okie.
guess i can jus forever repeat it like nobody biz.
=p

oh, they saw mi changin fone so asked abt da previous one.
seriously, it's not worse den zhi hao's fone in camp la.
haha..
although it's da same screen.
lol.
and they sae it's RETRIBUTION.
jus becuz i keep throwin zhi hao's fone like nobody biz.
haha..
ITS FUN OKIE?!?
=P
da TRAGIC-DEATH FONE.
hhahaha..

sometym seein JY, da other 3 gurls [for now].
i'll rmb those6 days we had in camp.
its so memorable can.
everythin's so fun n interesting.
haha..

like....

1. tragic-death fone
2. 5,6,7,8 GONE!
3. cui liao la..
4. da story of miss gucci's hp no.
5. da origins of 'lao lao jiao'
6. tee mong ling PANG SAY us.
7. but her cumin down jus to celebrate my bdae.
8. those graduates leaving us.
9. my bdae celebration
10. COUNTER 16 !!
11. JY's "rain" whenever he's giving a speech

and more and more.
haha..
all those JING DIANs.
=]

in CHEERS...

hakim: HI gucci!

gucci: hi.

hakim: why do i keep seein u in biz sch??

gucci: HUH? why cant i be here?

hakim: u dun belong to here, yet i keep seein u ard.

gucci: =.=" why cant i belong to here??

hakim: i mean u're frm ADM[Apprael Design and Merchanising], so u sld be in design sch, and not keep cumin to biz sch. it's seem i keep bumpin to u here.

gucci: mr hakim, i'm a 3rd yr BUSINESS student. =.=""

hakim: OMYGOD!! i tot u're frm ADM. haha... i tink i rmb da wrong person. mayb it's ur da other fren. haha...

gucci: which fren?

hakim: ther.... da one i forgotten her name oledi.

gucci: wihch one? how she look like?

hakim: ermm.. dao ne with a mouth piercing one.

gucci: oh.. u mean HUI AN zit??

hakim: YA YA! YA!! so she's da one frm ADM rite?? both of u look quite alike. haha..

gucci: ermm.. u're wrong again. she's frm ENGINE.

hakim: OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! so are u saein both of u are not frm ADM?

gucci: ya. DUH. one is biz and one is engine. =]

hakim: =.=" u no wad? all along i tot both of u were frm ADM can?!?













u mean, i REALI hav tt DESIGN SCHOOL face?!?!
i tot oni ppl outside of TP will get deceived by my so-called DESIGN look.
but i didnt no tt ppls frm da very own sch actually tot im one too.
to tink he knew mi for 2 yrs oledi.
GOD.

i told tis to hui an and both of us laugh like madi n da bus can!
LOL.
but both of us SERIOUSLY tink tt our dressin sense is STILL OKIE can.
not very DESIGN look, rite?
wad's happenin to da world, man?

wahahahahhahaahahahahahha........

okie..
to clear da doubts of EVERYONE,
he's jus a fantasy.
a guy frm my FANTASY LAND.
for mi to fantaize whenever i wan.
lol.

which means it's impossible.
so pls.
hahaha...
esp. CHOU XUELI.
=D

was takin train home todae.
when some random tots pass thru my mind.
and i reali means RANDOM.

2 daes more and it'll be one yr.
1st AUGust.
one yr has gone.

memories of tis particular dae one yr ago seems so vivid in my mind.
as though oni half a yr has passed.
tym reali pass DARN fast.
so fast tt it's goin to be his bdae once again.

and it jus reminds mi of da dae when i....
ya. i dun wan to type it out.
=]

i mean, those tt were ther one yr ago sld no wad im tokin rite? =D

alot of tinks came to my mind...

how i first met him in camp.
all those crazy tinks i've did jus to see him.
those daes when i see him ard in sch.
how we've da SAME CDS for da same sem.
da dae when he say im oni suitable for indian dance.
=.="
how we've promised one another a meal and yet we didnt make it.
=p
da dae when he came to see my first dance performance.
wit mandapop. =.="
da dae when i went to see his 1st model performance.
wit mandapop AGAIN. =.=""""
da dae when i told him da shockin news.

[actually, ther's once when he's quite shocked tt i actually rmb wad he had sae befor]
=]

and once again, i PS him for his bdae celebration.
for da 2nd yr.
he seems a bit disappointed.
but i guess. jus as a status of fren.
haah..

one yr ago, i gave him a present filled wit love.
but now, i guess it'll be filled wit frenship.
and it's a SHARED present. =]

and i stil cant imagine tt i can still be frens wit him.
reali.
it's as though nth ever happen at all.
i duno was it becuz both of us were gd at pretendin
or tat we reali can be frens.

sometym i still get excited when he tok to mi. or wadever.
but at least i no im able to treat him as a fren.
=]

and i jus realized tt most of my poly life actually goes ard him.
esp my 2nd yr.
wit ppls teasin mi abt him, askin mi abt him, and all kinds of stunts.
lolx.
such gd memories...


im wonderin.
tis cumin OTC/FOC/FOW.
it's gonna be da last one for mi, if i ever get in.
will i cry more den da previous one?
will i miss everyone?
esp those tt's stayin for 4.1
and of cuz not forgettin my other 3 babes.
=]

some frens always appears at da rite tym.
i mean.
like they mite jus MIA for very long or jus too busy to go out.
but den.
they always knew da rite tym, doin da tink.
and i reali appreciate tt.
=]


like when im down, they seems to get da message.
adn they'll jus sent some heart-warming sms to mi.
or jus giv mi a call to tok crap...
or ask mi out to chill, shop or wadever tt can be done under da sun.
haha..

sometime i reali dun regret knowin u girls.
though it's like yrs of frenship, but i'm not forgotten by all of u.
so touched.
haha...

guess ther's no need to mention names rite.
=D

okie. tis is a GENERAL post.
which means ther's gonna b COPY AND PASTE tingy happenin.
COPYRIGHT okie, ppls.
=]


we've been backstabbed at work.
totally.
once it's so happening at work.
with everyone playin n foolin ard.
all tis seems normal.
but da moment some ppls came in/transfered in.
everythin's changed.

maybe we're still havin fun.
da four of us.
4 old-birds.
always doin stupid tingy.
BUT. at least we did our job.
at least we didnt make da whole shop collaspe.

den todae came tis freakin juice.
da four of us are BLACKLISTED by da people of HAAGEN DAZS office.
[did i jus put our shop's name?]
=]

anyway, MISS GUCCI's name is da blackest among all, and i duno how in da world can da other 3 linked it to her skin color.
=.="
tanks to her STINGRAY hair.
it's oledi over her shoulders and she didnt tied/hide/kept/wadever to da LITTLE bunch of hair.
helo la, ppls.
tt strand of STINGRAY hair is MISS GUCCI's TRADEMARK.
is ther any prob wif it?
it's not as though tt whole bunch of hair iwll jus drop by itself and into those ice-cream.
compared to da rest.
her's is da shortest can.
worse, she's cuttin it like, nxt week.
and ppls jus cant stop COMPLAINING abt it.
howm any tyms must she sae tt she's cuttin it NEXT WEEK.
she's gettin more n more irritated by it.
is ther a prob wif her sense of hairstyle, peopel of HD?!?
dun sick la.

[caps frm miss gucci: wad a long para on my hair. =p]

anyway, da hopes of us gettin promoted and higher pay are TOTALLY dashed and gone.
yes. since we're blacklisted.
it's like.
ther's tis person in our shop who acts as though she's so gd to all of us.
in da end, she was da one who told those top mgt tt nobody show respect to her and stuff.
to tink MISS GUCCI and MISS JOJO still put her in good words when she first came.
da daes when she's still a NOOB.
in da end, wad did we get?
loads of knives behind our backs.

ya. da fact that we dun follow da rules and regulations.
some rules and meant to be broken.
and some are meant to use at certain times.
how wld u expect ppls like MISS GUCCI, MISS JOJO, MISS JOANNE and MR CHRIS to law by law when they themselves are oledi so rebellious?
who's da one who help tt woman wif ESP?
who's da one who always help to clear up mistakes tt she had done?
who's da one who always try to entertain her wit all our silly jokes and actions?

wang en fu yi.

so wad if she's da assistant manager?
SO?

she's been givin us all kinds of probs.
probs tt we dun have previously.
it's like, she can jus create all kinds of prob tt she's capable of.
okie. mayb she got no intentions.
but pls, tis is SINGAPORE.
stop tinkin tt u're frm da high-class end.
in tis industry, ther's no high or low class end ppls.

u tink da 4 of us wans to stay in tt shop tt's underpayin all of us?
common, if da ppls reali wan to push our limits.
IT's OKIE.
why?


CUZ WE'VE GOT ALTERNATIVE JOBS.
like i've siad, tis is an UNDER-PAYIN job.
so do u tink we'll stay long?
sorry.
N.O. NO.

i reali wonder why in da world are we blacklisted?
we're da one who contribute da most to da shop.
or at least, we tried.
but den, in da end tis is wad we get back.
all we wan was oni a HIGHER PAY.


caps frm miss gucci AGAIN:
isnt tis such a long long post?
haha..
saein wadever tt we want to sae.
aa, ppls. left out anthin jus tell mi ya?

if oni everydae's like todae...

=D

startin to detest tt benny loke.
tot i was late for lesson and tt he'll mark mi absent.
in da end, i tink im marked present.
okie. nvm.
so i sat in the classroom, doin NOTHIN.
and half an hr ltr, tanks to him.
i finish sch oledi.
jus becuz he wanted to consult doc after tt.
=.="
worse, my group's consultation is bein delayed again.
sick.

finally ate lunch wif dee,cher,rach,mary and ben.
its been AGES since we've eat together.
haha..
ya.
my VISA and IMMIGRATION is bein exposed in like, jus over a lunch.
lolx.
im alrite, frens.
tanks for all tt.
=]

went off to do projects befor meetin rosy for some slackin session.
seems like my tue routine oledi.
haha..
goin to BR to do all kinds of tinks.
and tokin crap.
weather was gd though.
no rain, no sun.
weeeeee....

anyway, both of us are darn broke can.
she was hungry but left iwf oni $1.80.
so we start to tink of ways to fully utilize it.
wont go into details. cuz it's a secret between us.
=D
anyway, in summary my 20 cents save her day.
so coins REALI do wonders.
haha...
sometimes it's so great to hav her as her fren.
can reali brightens up my days wif all kinds of stupid tinks we did in sch n BR.
woo....

=]

I KEPT BANGIN INTO MY AH YANG MEI TODAY!!!!!!!!
no wonder my mood's so gd todae.
wahahahahahhaahha...
ahhhh- yangggg- meiiiiii...............
zai wo xin li.
=s

all i wan is ur PRESENCE.

not SLIENCE.

is tat very demandin?

within SECONDS....

and tt's it.

isnt it great?

didnt no my intutition todae was SOOO accurate.

i know sth bad gonna happen.

not one.

but many.

and den.

it turned out to be tt way.

yes. MANY things.

tanks ar...

so am i supposed to celebrate or emo all da way?

all my plans are gone now.

no longer able to fufill.

anymore.

i've said befor.

da door's SEALED TIGHTLY.

yet ppls still INSIST on knockin and cumin in.

and everytym when da door's opened,

they'll jus leave and SHUT it wit a firm hit.

now i guess.

it'll disappear forever.

once again...

i dun wan to be ALL ALONE.

jus wan to do anythin except being alone.

someone bring mi to a world wher no one love one another.

NOW.

been workin for da past 4 days.
ya. like FOUR STRAIGHT DAYS.
=.='
gettin older i tink.
last tym can work few daes straight n not feelin tired.
but now, it's like REAL CMI.
haha..

anyway...
was tokin to mongling last fri.
tt viet woman actually CALLED mi jus to see if im still in sch to acc her anot.
sick.
and like finally, tok non-stop wit her.
lolx.
she's always gettin bullied.
woman, dun worry abt MAYBEL la.
mayb she's very stressed or wad.
jus DUN CARE so mcuh abt it.
=]

and im not saein MAYBELIN SEE.
haha.
anyway, tis woman like suddenly becum so free.
keep askin mi to go chomp chomp.
guess soon i'll be quite sick of tt place.
haha..














feel so empty at heart.
im startin to tink.
is this da right choice?
pls dun tell mi no.

as u can see.
nowadays im darn moody.
or sld i no.
nowa-NIGHTS?!?
=]
tanks to da IDIOTIC freaky PMS.
and tt bloody period jus REFUSE to cum yet.
darn.

sometimes tinks jus dun happen on times when u hope them to happen.
but they always choose to happen at da wrong tym.
esp. since when im havin my farkin PMS and projects deadlines.
stress + more stress.

im tryin.
tryin not to tink so much.

and yea.
guess i'll be freakin free till da end of tis mth.
like 1 week plus??
maybe.
besides rushin all those projects.
pls ask mi out for HOT DATES, frens.
haha..


one dae is intolerable.
but as tym goes by, everythin gets immuned.
immuned till numbness.

i'm tryin to control my darn idiotic and freakin PMS mood.

sometym jus dun understand why ther's some SENSELESS ppls in HD.
im not sayin those ppls workin in outlets.
but those frm da OFFICE.
darn sick can.
oni no how to use their mouth.
oni no all those THEROY stuff but not PHYSICAL stuff.
tt winnie da pooh came down to do some ESP spot-check like, ON A SUNDAY.
=.="
cum on la.
it's like comin in to check on a BUSY SUNDAY LATE NOON.
who wld da hell be SOOO free to care about those cleaniness.
i mean, we still care abt those BASIC cleaniness.
but others, it's IMPOSSIBLE can.
n yes.
once again, she complain abt my hair again.
my stingray hair.
like SOO busy.. cant expect mi to keep touchin my hair and keep tryin to stuff my hair into my shirt rite?
dun sick can.
and anyway, my hair's too short to tied up.
and da more tt woman reject my hair, da more reluctant i'm goin to cut it off.
=D
and to make tinks even worse, da moment she reached,
i cant leave at 6, and she keep blockin my way. when da kitchen's oledi such a small place.
and ther's like FIVE PEOPLE standing there.
=.="
nvm. den those ppls workin full got no tym n NO SPACE to eat.
jus becuz of ONE senseless woman, all our work cant be done.














now i underStand why huian wld sae she need someone to b by her side when she's down BADLY.
i can understand tt feelin now.

tis is one tink i hate when it cums to commitment.
"UNDERSTANDING"'s da big word.
not tt i'm not being one.
but sometym when u feel like tokin to him at THIS POINT OF TIME.
he'll wither be slpin or busy wit his own stuff
and he'll be saein im not being understanding towards him if i tok to him now.
im still not used to tis life.
wad a sick gf i am.
=.='

been havin PMS for like one whole week..
so when's da real farkin tingy cumin?

i'll love you jus like da way u do.

=]

went out wif huian yest. did some little shoppin.
brought a pair of grey jeans. like.. FINALLY.
=.="

she brought a doraemon.


SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute!
haha...
for tt special n IMPORTANT fren tt she has.
=]
i oso wan! *hint hint*
=x


i oso cAn stick out my tongue.
but ya la.
it's cuter.
haah...
sometym u'll feel childish seein all those fluffy stuff.
but when u brought it for someone or mayb someone brought it for u,
these stuff becum more precious.
and da more u'll treasure it.
=]


met up wif hui an n mong ling for lunch today.
it's been a LONG LONG LONG tym since we've went out for lunch durin break.
it's SOOO difficult to ask tt viet woman out for lunch.
haha..
forever "i go projects to do la.."
=.=:

anyway.. as usual..
CAM-WHORING TYM!!
jus love takin fotos wif them.
=D












my precious girl...








den was back for APEL again.
and once again, nth to do.
so went out of class for a while.
saw dee n mary ther.
and ya.
jus can stand frens cam-whorin without mi.
LOL.


actually ther's more den tis. but it's either da fotos are not nice n tt i feel so EXTRA.
haha..

went hm wif darlin after sch.
was da 2nd tym i sent him hm.
ya. I SENT HIM HM.
lol.
but ya. jus love it.
cuz need to walk a distance so can play along da way...
so fun.
hahha.. =p
but he dun wan mi to keep sendin him hm.
say it's not nice for mi to walk back alone.
=]
1t tym, we saw his dad.
and todae, we saw his brother n frens.
and i duno why he's sooo shy.

dun be shy, darlin.
u'll get used to it sooner or later.
wahahahahahaha....





my ..... finally ask mi to meet her for dinner.
haha.
im so happy.
always meetin her can reali brighten up my whole dae.
tanks to all those GOOSEBUMPS telepathy tt we had.
=]
and da telepathy tt we had is REAL scary.
worse den jojohui n mine.
becuz both of us cant see it till we ourselves realized it.
haha..
scary.
even we ourselves get frightened by it.
=]


my eyes's FREAKIN small can.
nvm. try again.










=.="












okie okie. i dun look den..
wahaha...












life's been beautiful these few daes.
cuz ther's u in it.
=]

hopefully my life will be more balanced and spread even.

since da day u've cum into my life.

=]

pray for da better everyday!