i cried for him.

again.

i didnt mean to.

was tokin to aaron jus now.

he kept askin mi whether somebody got chance anot and stuff.

he's sae tt person is not bad one, can consider n stuff.

but da prob is, my heart is wif someone else.

n tt someone else's heart is wif another person.

aaron said alot of stuff tt i dun wish to admit.

stuff tt i've been tryin to avoid all these tots since da dae i told him.

he sae it's too one-sided n tt i've put in too much effort.

too much tt i'll breakdown one dae if i were to haf another blow.

he dun believe tt there's reali someone tt's perfect.

but i did found one.

mayb in my heart n mind, he's PERFECT.

ya. it's true.

but i realized da more i avoid da more i'll sink deeper.

if i sunk too deep down,

it'll b very difficult for mi to climb out again.

he's da first tt make mi fall to da bottom of da pit.

i've climb halfway up,

but den i fall back in recently.

once i reach hm, my tears literally jus drop by itself.

i duno why.

actually when aaron tok to mi tt tym,

i oledi wan to break le.

but i still can tolerate.












fuck... feelin so pissed off abt myself.





















if oni............. he noes how i feel now.