dun wan to blog actually but........................
ya. happen to switch on my com now.

PS. [fren, i no u'll surely read tis but i not tokin abt tt prob. i'm jus saein comments abt wad im feelin now]















was ponderin abt this since.... i alight frm the bus?? i tink so.

supposedly was a happy dae for mi todae. but some people knock some sense out of mi todae. becoz of some little prob. ya. some relationship probs.
not mi. but related to mi indirectly.
been like out of tt prob 1 yr ago. and somehow. i jus dun feel rite abt it.
i'm not feelin sad. pissed off. disappointed. angry. or wadever.
i feel nth at all. it's like the moment the person sae all those stuff, i feel like i jus suddenly woke up frm a very long slp. suddenly i feel so awake.

tt's da feelin.

coz it's like. once i woke up frm slpin while on da bus, i jus feel tt everyone has changed. INCLUDING MI. i'm weaker den last tym. i'm no longer the strong person tt u've no mi, frens.

i dun cry alot in da past for all this stupid stuff. RARELY. but.. my tear glands suddenly become very active while queuein for some stuff. the tears didnt dropped. but i can feel tat it's droppin SOON.
den some FUCKIN woman. i dunno wad's her prob. she keep starin at mi. and i mean STARE. it's very obvious tt she's doin tt la. coz she stare for like 10 secs each tym i look over at her. i dun like it when i felein very worse and some CB people keep starin at mi FRM HEAD TO TOE. and when i left da place she still turn over and stare at mi. WTF. i mean i dun mind ppls lookin at mi. but not tt action and tt moment. how wld u feel if ppls look at u at tt manner when u're feelin bad? wad's there to look?? is there a prob?? FUCKER!




mayb part of wad da person sae is true.
ya. i dun have a bf and i'm not into any relationship now. so i dunno how he feel RIGHT NOW.and i wont be able to UNDERSTAND all those feeling tat he's feelin AT TT MOMENT. ya i no. partly is my prob. i sldnt have done all tt. but why is he so SENSITIVE?? can he be flexible? he sae i sld b more understandin towards my fren. i sld care abt how my fren feels. but he dun haf to keep on addin more pain to my agony. tt's my weakness and somehow he hit rite on da bull's eye. and i dun tink he even give a fuck abt it. coz i'm not his gf and all he cares is oni his gf's feelings and not the others.

UNDERSTANDIN UNDERSTANDIN!!!!! all he no is oni tis word. but did he actually did tt? no i dun tink so. the world is not jus oni both of them. there's still other ppls living in tis world. i cant imagine tt there's acutally ppls like him living. he's way too ...................................
i dunno wad to sae.
fine. tt's the prob of other ppls. i dun wan to comment anymore.



cryin. typin. wonderin. reflectin........ BLANK.









wad's the deal wif havin a bf and not havin one??
so wad if i'm single now??
so wad if i'm single for 1 yr ++ or mayb soon 2 yrs??
i dun see it a point tt i MUST get one NOW.



somehow. ppls cum into my mind now. adrian and HIM. i dunno why there's adrian but ya. he's happily wif his gf now. and tt gurl live in da same blk s mi. makin mi feel so pai sae whenever i see dem.

and HIM.

one dae his name will suddenly pop out of nowhere in tis blog. [but it had appear quite a few tyms]. lao da noes him. quite well i tink. so it's better not to tell her in case i feel awkward whenever i see him.
.............
i duno wad im gonna do abt him. it's tym to give up i guess. no point liking a person when he dun even give a damn abt u. even if he noes, he will not do anythin abt it i tink.

COZ HE DUN EVEN KNOWS.














wrist. sea. storeys. pills. gel. FUCK.





blog later. IF my mood gets better....