i duno whether its due to my on-cumin PMS or jus becuz im freakin bored.
went to hd to pass them some stuff.
being sometym isnce i've seen tt jojohui.
and ya. she jus like to ask mi abt HK.
and whenever she ask, i'll be pondering abt it whole nite.

always waitin for his calls or sms at nite.
wishin tt he wld jus call/sms mi jus like in da past.
when we used to tok till da middle of da nite.
but it seems like tis little wish of mine will no longer be fufilled.
he's gettin very obsessed into his PSP nowadays.
and jus feel tt my presence is no longer ther.
a PSP is much more impt and precious den a GIRL.
guys. GUYS. guys.

been one mth plus.
n it's seems like i still cant get over it.
everytym when i told myself "common girl, jus get over it, it's over.",
sth will happen and i jus cldnt get through.
i told myself i wont miss him anymore,
but memories jus find their way back into my mind.

wad's da pt of still hangin on here when he's oledi lookin for new targets?
or maybe, it seems like.
ya. ASSUMPTION.

i dun wan to have any high hopes any longer.
cuz da higher it is, da more difficult i'll get over him.
da feelins's still clinging on and jus cldt go away.
isnt it funny?
both still remain da same and yet, they udn wan to be together.

he wan mi to change.
jus like how he's changin for now.
but i reali cant find da reason n purpose why i sld change.
REALI.
i jus wan to be myself.

so wad if i look strong outside?
pratically im jus so weak inside.

lookin at myself.
im sure i've had enough.
im sick of frens tellin "go have ur fun, girl. dun be in love"
but it's tough to have fun wif a broken heart.

i nv tot tt tis wld happen to mi
i'd be in such a mess, im stressed.
yes baby.
im havin trouble lettin you go.














baby, i miss u so much...