yest was workin at bishan.
main pt was tt 4 of us worked on da same shift. FINALLY. =]
but too bad, wasnt many customers and jus keep on slacking ard.

feel like i've drifted apart frm da rest.
mayb due to da fact tt i didnt work as often as all of them and tt ive cant join them in their nite activities.
i mean, ya la. im da oni one tt's still studyin n currently having attachment.
so REALI. cant join them late at nite.
and also, i didnt tok to them as mcuh as last tym.
=]

they acc mi to tt bus stop.
and ya.
i jus miss walkin down tt whole stretch of road.
everyday walkin tis road wit jolene, ella after work.
it's like wit different ppls, ther'll surely be all kinds of fun ard.
that 2 were da ppls tt always walked wit mi.

long long tym ago, there was oni ella and i walkin down.
we call it da "juicy street".
we always tok abt anythin, frm ppls to ppls.
and practically i've sorta changed her to wad she is no.
i mean, it seems to be gd for her tt she has actually opened up so mcuh more, compared to last tym.
sometym i jus didnt no i wld have such a big influence in other ppls' life.
cuz normally, in my life, it's always da other way rd.

den as tym passed, jolene joined us too.
i've always told her tt i disliked her da moment she stepped into da shop.
cuz she jus got tt aura tat says "im cindy's sis. i got back hill."
and to mme i dun giv a darn to ppls who are like tt.
and i jus duno why one fine dae she join us after work.
and everytym she join us, i'll tell ella "wa lao. cut short my gossipin session wit her ard."
cuz she was one of da ppls tt we always tok abt.
and REALI. i duno when did we becum so close. REALI.
i disliked her and she's scared of mi.
like HOW la.
used to tok alot of crap wif her. till da extent tt we jus keep on missin our bus jus to make sure tat we finish tokin my topics.
but now, it seems like ther's isnt much to tok oledi.
evryone's so tired and shack after work.
and beside work stuff, it's still work stuff.
no more TELEPATHY.
social life reali gettin smaller and smaller for us.
=D

and ya. tt stretch of rd oso let mi no HIM.
i tink no need to mention name, all of u oso can guess who is it rite?
=]
last tym, when i used to be wearing uniform, he'll alwyas help mi take all my barang barang and slowly walked together.
he's quiet, but at least we no wad each other wans.
and i jus love walkin with him.with him ard, i jus feel da whole world is oni da both of us.
but now, everythin's back to square one again.
snapped back to reality.
sometym i keep on askin myself, am i still waitin for him.
is my waitin worth it?
i duno.
i jus duno anythin.
cuz da longer i wait, the more my heart's turnin colder and harder.
it's goin to be 2 mths since da breakup.
5 more daes.
and i still cant get over it TOTALLY.
ya. maybe da feelins had faded. but it's not faded COMPLETELY.
it took mi quite sometym to TOTALLY accept da fact tt derek n i can oni be frens.
but i duno abt tis now.
i wonder how long wld i need now.
i hate myself to be like tt.
he tod mi tt ther'll be one dae.
but to mi, it seems like "FORGET IT."

u aint givin chance to mi any longer, baby.
i jus dun wan everythin to end jus LIKE THIS.

workin wit them for too long brings all knds of memories back.
jus lookin at those spoiled cakes reminds mi of eugene and i always doin naughty tinks behind weiling's back jus to make her more stressed.
lookin at da kitchen reminds mi of all kinds of fun tt i once had and all those injuries tt i've got.
lookin at da whole of level 3 reminds mi of those ppls i've once gossip abt.
lookin at da lift reminds mi of goin to da darn hot n stuffy and tiny store.
lookin at da rubbish reminds mi of how we always compared who's stronger.
lookin at everythin reminds mi of how much fun i had as a staff.

wearin different clothes now reali means a lot.

got tis little wish.
if oni i cld wear da staff uniform back for one dae.
so tt i can have all kinds of fun.
=p

but all these are oledi in da past.
ther's nth more i can do except to move on.
no point keep on stayin at da same ground when everyone's movin on.
=x

she has changed.
changed to someone tt mayb even she herself duno who she is.
changed to someone who's overly sensitive and suspicious
changed to someone who did nth everydae except gettin emo and workin non-stop to numb herself frm everthin.
changed to someone who's keepin everythin to herself and carryin everythin on her shoulders.
changed to someone who put all da blame on herself.
changed to someone who no longer smile and joked every moment.
changed to someone tt is super duper pessimistic.

when will she changed to own self?