i cant imagine i actually rot da whole dae todae.
on a SATURDAY.
realized tt its not i DUN LIKE to rot n slack at hm.
it's I DUN WAN.
reali.
facin oni da com, tv, n four walls.
n my mind jus went into da world of its own, refusin to cum out of it.
was supposed to meet him.
but in da end, plans were foiled.
he can bring me up high up to da extreme.
but he can oso jus let mi fall into aimless black hole.

was watchin some dramas jus now.
some repeated dramas.
n i didnt no tt now wadever they saes in da show, it actually makes mi tink alot.
i mean, last tym, when i 1st watch those shows, i got no emotions AT ALL.
but todae, full of emotions.

1st show was PRIDE.
some jap dram abt ice hockey.
makes mi tink of those daes when we watch it at our chalet n everyone jus sit ther for a whole day jus to ifnish watchin da whole show.
n when i sae everyone, it's means a whole class of ppls. =]

den was SUMMER SCENT.
some korean show.
somehow, my life now seems to actin da way or another.
at 1st, i like him becuz i saw someone in da past in him.
den he found out. indirectly.
and he pushed mi away TOTALLY.
now, i follow my heart.
wadever my heart saes, i'll follow.
n it saes it's him.
but it's too late.
he has pushed mi away too far.

i rather he called mi anytime of da dae den slience.
slience is scary.


wad do i wan in my life now?
i oso duno.
and it's certain UNCERTAINTY.


wad's happenin to mi nowadays?
i hate tis mi FOR NOW!


fark.