reali tried to cover my emo-ness yest.
by bein high and usin other matters to cover for it.
thou at tym, i still show it out.

hui an was quite unhappy tat i'm still tinkin abt him.
saein cant i jus forget abt it.
im tryin.
im REALI tryin.
at least im proud to sae tt i can finally treat him like a fren.
=]

mayb ask if i'm stll interested in him.
i sae "NO".
but she sae it's still obvious tt i still do.
its like whenever my mind's set on da verge of him GONE,
he'll do stunts.
reali.
tt's why it takes mi so long to forget.

i sae i'll forget on 1 aug last yr.
in da end became 5 dec.
den it becum 31st dec.
after one yr.
OFFICALLY.
FINALLY.
and it's oledi 5 mths gone since da dae.
maybe to u girls it still seems tt way.
u all sld no how hard it is for mi to jus put it down.
it's oledi a miracle tt both of us can actually treat nth happen.
nth happen on his bdae.
tt's da tink.

jojo n hui an gave mi diff views when i told them abt someone else.
not him again of cuz.
lol.

maybe i tink too much.
maye it's happenin too fast.
jojo sae frm my actions, she can see tt i may not like da perosn, n da feelins are cumin out oledi.
and i sldnt have denied it when he asked mi.
he sae he can feel tt but i denied.
i still tot tt it's mi tt 1st feel it can.
s usual, im protectin myself again.

but da prob is.
it's not fair for da person if im jus tryin to use him to forget da previous.
i'll feel very guilty.


i duno if im tinkin too much.
but i tink he's throwin tantrum yest.
at mi.
reason?
becuz he dun lke girls to go hm late.
n yes.
i went hm at like 6am?
but tther's special resons n it's like once in a blue moon.
i tried to explain myself but seems like no use.
n da more it seems like i do care abt wad he feels.
basket.

he's contradictin.
i told him da truth n he's not happy abt it.
i didnt tell him da truth n he sae im not honest to him.
sometym im jus tired of all tis.

cant u jus make urself clear?
i wonder if u reali cum ur way here to read anot.
MR DADDY.