all da more im feelin tt im into kenny's shoe tis few daes.
REALI.

i dun wan to sae much abt it.
but todae's da limit.
everythin seems to be da exact situation.
TOTALLY.

now i no how he feels tt tym.
dunno wad to do abt mi.
stressed yet hopeless.

he was tokin to mi abt how drunk he was on da way hm.
and it reminds mi of da dae when kenny was drunk too.

da dae when he called mi in da middle of da nite.
da dae when he was in hospital to visit his fren.
da dae when he cldnt find anyone to tok to.
da dae when he told mi, in his mind he cld oni tink of mi to call.
da dae when.......























he ask mi to be his.

at tt tym. i sld have told him yes, instead of askin him to wait for a few more hrs.
if oni.
if oni , i didnt ask him to do so, mayb tinks wont be like tt after all.
now tt i've given up on him, FATE brings in another person.

da more i tried to push him away, da more he wont even give up.
i tried. i reali tried.
i tried givin him hints thru my actions. but it seems like he jus cldnt get it.

to make tinks worse. he said those exact words tt i've told kenny befor.
TOTALLY, COMPLETELY reminds mi of myself.

i've said befor.
i dun wan to believe anyone anymore.
i dun wan to have faith in them anymore.

but why FATE's always playin ard wif mi?
one derek's enough. plus one more kenny.
it's even more heart-breakin.
and now?
i duno.


i'm gonna have my period soon.