wasnt feelin gd todae.
feelin very fep-up wif stuffs nowadays. i dunno wad stuffs. s usual.
and i duno why i'm havin PMS for 2 days. one on fri and another is todae.
wasnt feelin like tis at all durin da weekends.
but today. illterally jus dun wan to tok to anyone. no matter wad they sae, i jus feel irritated.

WHY MUST WOMEN SUFFER FRM PMS???????????????????????????

if one dae women recover frm tis tingy, i wonder wad's the world like sia.













scared of being all alone, wad u did is jus tink n tink n tink n tink.............
sometime even beyond limits. EVERYTIME. ALWAYS. FOREVER.


thinking wad i've been doin for da past years. wastin al my time doin useless stuff. studyin seems pointless wif all those grades showin back. workin no longer s funny or noisy like last tym. social life is in quite a mess. love life is blankness. nothin seems to work out nowadays. wat's the pt of living if everything keep on goin like tt?

feelin da dark side of me surfacing. no long da happy and crazy side. old self is oso surfacing after, ermm.... 8 yrs?

but i dun wan to. FOREVER NOT!

physically.

but mentally, i'm sick of myself.

i wan to change but i'm scared it seems impossible.













tat's wad happen when u're all alone in a very lonely place.

ALONE IS HORRIBLE.

no one to pull u up when u fall into a dark and deep pit. everyone jus glance thru n walk away without givin a hand.

they're busy. BUSY wif their own lives and not giving a damn shit abt it.

ya. some still flood mi wif their problems. relationships. as usual.
frens. i cant help u coz i'm a failure in it. no point askin mi.





guess i'm still quite bothered by the incident last mon. TAT ROTTEN BASKET GUY!
he forced mi to wake up frm my dream. or sld i sae? he forced mi into a VERY terrible, horrible, fuckin nightmare which i wld nv want to haf. the worse mightmare which i ever wan. jus a few sentences frm him and he cant actually sent someone to hell. tat few sentences were like poison to somebody's mind. u can die frm it within a few hours.













jus one week oni! one week may seems short to alot of ppls. but tis one week actually can change a person. TOTALLY.

changing da person back to her worse self which she wish she could forget abt it forever.


but now. the devil has come to find her. no matter where she hide, he will be able to find her. makein her life miserable.

making her feelin tat she's all alone in da world with nobody. MENTALLY.